Question about Thyroid, Anemia, PMS, and Depression!

[Girl33]

Its been almost a year now when I was diagnosed with Hypothyroidism. I have been taking meds for that (a small dose like 50mkg I think?) It has been in the safe levels now everytime I get it checked. I also have SEVERE periods and this has been going on since I was 21 or so.. I am now 33. I am over weight probably about a 100 pounds now. My periods start spotty then gets SO heavy I have to use the biggest tampos they make and thick long pads. Also because I have these heavy long periods that can last for 2-4 months at a time I get very anemic and have to take iron suppliments. I got so anemic from blood loss last year I had to have a blood transfusion! I was feeling better for a while after that and my amemia got better, and my periods got shorter and not as heavy. I actually had a few that were almost normal, meaning they lasted a little over a week. BUT.. I am now again going back down hill.. I am on my period now and it has been 2 months straight of constant bleeding. I sleep all the time, I am tired all the time, I am in a very bad mood alot, angry at everything in life! I can not stand myself any more, I feel disgusted everytime I look in a mirror! My husband is annoyed with me and hates that I sleep all the time, he hates that I jump on him for nothing because I feel bad.. He talks about how depressed he is now and that our life just *****. Yea I guess I agree.. he married me 12 years ago and we were supposed to make a family. Well that is when my period problems started and we have never been able to make a child and I know he resents me for that. HE wants to divorce me I know it.. but I will not let him. I feel like everything is messed up in my life because of my screwed up body!! Why do have so many health problems? I dont have insurance and I have a crappy job that pays just over minimum wage. Why? I have to work somewhere where I can sit down and be close to a toilet at all times. Because when I start bleeding during the heavy times which can last for weeks I will buy the super plus tampons by th 32 packs and keep them crammed in my purse and in the car. If not I will bleed out everywhere in minutes! I kid you not! I went to the ER one time because I could not get a pad or tampon to hold blood more than 10min! They checked me down there with a sonagram type machine I think and blood ran all down the table and on the floor. The nurse freaked out and called in more doctors and they thought I was bleeding internally! Nope just my period.. it ***** more than anything!! I hate that I am fat, I am anemic, I now have Hypothyroidism, my periods last for months, I am depressed and have bad thoughts sometimes about ending it all.. It would not take no time to bleed out and die that's for sure!! :( .. My husband can not stand me.. I know it! He stays gone all the time, hides in the other room for hours watching tv. We barely talk because I am so grouchy or I am sleeping or at work.
I work over nights also and he hates that too. What am I going to do??!! I mean everything in my life *****! You should see my house! It is a total wreck! From not wanting to clean and from having too many animals you have no clue...... My life is almost not worth it anymore. :(

[Girl33]

I forgot to add.. my heart flutters and jumps around for some reason on and off. I was told before when I went to the ER for the blood trans. that I was on the verge of a heart attack because my iron count was down to a 7 or 9 I forgot.. but anyway it was VERY low. So low that my legs were sweeling up huge because my heart could not get enough blood pumped down there.
You know I take all my meds but yet my periods still get heavy and when my iron is up and good, as soon as I have my period it drops down and here I am anemic again. I feel so bad right now I may have to go back to the ER.
Oh and I cant go to the ER where I live now because they said without insurance they can't see you no matter what. That is what they told me. So I have to drive to another city just to check myself in the ER. This is just horrible!
Is it possible I can just get a hysderectomy (sorry about miss spell) and stop all this bleeding and anemia problems? If I do I can NOT tell my husband because he still hopes for a child someday... I am not trying to be mean but I love my husband and I can not lose him. He is all I have.. :(...