Right now I am 190 this is the heaviest I have ever been. To be honest, I need help. I told my bf I am unhappy and unhealthy at this weight; he is very supportive however not strick. When i cant cook we fall back on fastfood, he does not take over cooking when i cant. I look in the mirror and I get very depressed, I to be 125 and now im so big. This leads to me eating more, I want to and need to lose weight my father and mother have diabetes. I dont like trying to do this alone, i would love help, advice and uplifting words thank you. Oh i am 5'7