UPDATE!!

[mysticalzoe]

Well everything came to head yesterday for me, my husband said this, that i was annoying him way too much, he likes to be alone, he says i know I am unhappy, and if I don't change soon, he doesn't want to ever be around me, hince he may want out of this marriage. He begged me to see a shrink, and told me he wants me to just talk with someone. I got angry and told him they don't help with anything, and blah blah blah! i did change the subject and went on to college talk, he thinks I'm going to make friends through college, I personally doubt it. I will tell him on Monday that I will see a shrink, but i will not be bringing up my past, i am sick of telling people about it, just about life. No medication, you're all in denial about medications though, it is a huge conspiracy. They make the side effects, so you take more and more medication, it's the way the government controls you, and you're all being controlled without knowing it. that's how I really feel. I told my husband that yesterday, and he said that's not true at all, and i was crazy, in a joking way, he said he was joking. I will not let him know that he won. The fact that it may ruin my marriage terrifies me to no end, and that would mean I would have no one. My family knows nothing about this, it's too embarrasing to let them know, so as far as they know i am a happy person! So, now i just need to get over the fear of calling people on the phone and call for an appointment, or i might make my husband do it, he brought it up. by the way I'm 28 years old.

[shubunkin2974]

sorry........dont agree with you..........when my mom died the med i was on helped me through it and i had no side effects from it. i am off it now and doing great but i helped me through a horrible time in my life and to say that the government is controlling people through meds is rediculous. That is your theory and thats fine. Each to their own. Everyone is entitled to their opinion.