I have just started my first peroid after my abortion about 7 weeks ago. These last 7 weeks feel like hell to me, and now i've started getting my peroids i feel like i just want to curl up into a ball and cry.
The pregnancy was unplanned, We had taken precations to prevent it happening. We are still unsure of how it happend... But it did.
I strongly believe that abortion is wrong, but more than i seeing it as being wrong, from my early teens i was alone myself without family or friends till midway through college. I always loved children, and from the age of 10 grew up with an image of my own daughter. This image of my own flesh and blood, someone which will always love me, is what kept me going.
I never dreamt i would ever have an abortion. But i was left no choice, i was treatened to lose everything i had left in my life, my parents and my partner. Everyone was threatening to leave me if i didnt go through with it, and then finally my partner booked it and dragged me there. The clinic also didnt seem to be to concerned that i was in tears, they just kept repeating not to be stressed. sorry for getting carried away.
But basically these days i cant even face my parents or partner, i feel like there total strangers, they knew how much my child meant to me but forced me to do it. Now am scared to face them also. I feel lonely and abandoned.
I think it was 2nd week after the abortion, i couldnt take it and tried to do something stupid, i wanted to join my daughter in heaven, but someone saved me and put in hospital. and hence am here today.
I was feeling little better, cuz although some total stranger saved me i felt someone cared. But ever since i started getting my periods again 2 days ago. I feel like am going through everything again. I've contacted the my doctors and a coucilors to try and help me feel better, but i just get told to move on, it will get better. The Councilor just keeps asking me questions i've already answered to her, Which makes me irritated with her. No one seems to help, i feel like am going downhill again.
I was reading some other post on this site and felt that some of the other women on here had a more caring heart and might be able to help me feel better as compared to my doc or coucilor.