Hello Everyone,
I hope this post finds yall clean and sober and living happily in your respective lives. I have an update for you. I am still going strong and am clean nearly 13 months. But thats not the update..lol...I've bared my soul for all to see as we do as addicts to give back what has been given to us by so many selfless people. Truly wonderful people. I know in some of my posts I have spoken about my legal issues. For those of you that have no clue, I shall tell you about that now, a little history lesson of my ongoing story.
In May of 2007, while doing something really stupid, I got caught with about a dime of coke. Thats about a decent line for thost that dont do coke but have seen it on TV or what have you. The coke wasnt mine, as I am an opiate lover to the core. It was my ex's. He wouldn't stand up and say it was his and it was in my car and that the police said..makes it mine. So, I went to jail for it. I have been picked up and released for this charge I think 4 times now. I'm really good at jail hopping. Anyways, my last court date was June 19th, 2008. I didn't go. The court date previous to that one I think was in May, 2008. At that court appearance the Judge told me that he would accept my plea and gave me drug court. It's technical term is deferred prosecution. Basically saying I would drug test monthly at the court house whenever my color was called and that if I didn't I would face 1-3 years in prison. Well guess what, I didnt comply. I wasn't through with drugs then. So I didnt show up for the next court date and they bound my case over to the grand jury and I was indicted by them and a warrant for my arrest was sworn out. I knew this and still didnt take care of it then. I decided a on september 5th of 2008 I was through with drugs and so far I have been able to keep that decision. By the GRACE OF GOD and sheer determination is how I've done it.
On september 22nd of this year, the day after my birthday, the US Marshals came to my house and arrested me. I went to jail and ended up with a signature bond and was released. Conditions of that bond is drug testing, meetings and proof that I've been to rehab, which I have. I passed the first drug test september 24th as I knew I would and was a bit cocky that my case manager didnt believe me. But considering who all they deal with (addicts) its very hard to believe everything. Anyways, my test was negative and I go to court on October 14th at 9 am. I am not scared to go to prison, I just dont want to go. I guess God is ready for me and thinks that I'm ready to deal with this part of my addiction consequences. Hindsight is worth its weight in gold and I wished I would have done this a bit more wiser when facing prison wasnt an option. Had I of complied in 2008, this would be over with now as drug court was only 6 months and for every day I gave the judge clean, was a day off my 6 months.
So, I say this to those that are or maybe facing felony charges. If you can take care of it when it happens do so. Don't wait like I did, I'm not sure if I am going to prison or walk out of that court room on October 14th. I am praying for the best and expecting the worse. I am happy that its finally being resolved and at the same time I dread that its finally going to happen because I was SO STUPID that I didnt handle it when the sentence was minor. If I come home that day I will post something to let you know the outcome. If you dont see or read anything on October 14th, I wont be back for awhile. Thanks to all that have helped me in the past few years. You are truly a God send.
Peace and Love,
Carrie