11 days off methadone & having 1st huge craving!! HELP!!!

[Josh_702]

I've made a few posts about me detoxing cold turkey from 42mgs of methadone, the last 11 days have been a nightmare to say the least, but i am starting to feel a little bit better, most of the physical symptoms are gone, but i still cant sleep & have the sweats under the arms..
   Right now I'm having my 1st HUGE craving to the point where I don't know what to do.  I'm panicking and going crazy. How can i curb this, and upcoming cravings, im really freaking out, I know whenever i fight myself, I ALWAYS LOSE!!
   I know its only day 11, so i know im still detoxing. but these cravings are very bad.. any help?

[Josh_702]

well she doesnt have to lock them up cuz i would just have to ask her, but i tried to get her to go to those alonon meetings and she wont go, shes a bit shallow im sorry to say, I love her to death but she has no idea what im going thru and ive tried to get her to read things and go to meetings and she was hesitant, only if it was to goto a meeting with me,, i will look into someone who can help me

[avisg]

There is a program call smart recovery ...That is kind of the same but different. A counselor that has knowledge in addiction is what i use because aa/na is not a good fit for me .Can you get your mom to start posting on here .She needs to put her meds in a lock box .She needs to look into alnon as well that way her can understand more what you are going threw .

[Josh_702]

well i gave them to my mom because she is prescribed them so shes gonna take them for her, but i know she will always give me 1 if i want, cuz shes very co-dependant and an enabler but doesnt realize it, but im starting to calm down now, THAT WAS SCARY, im gonna just lay down and listen to some music but i can still feel the craving int he back of my mind begging me to feed it.. i dont like meetings much here in las vegas, there not very conventional, only a very few, i went to them in 2002 when i got out of rehab, and all they talk about is how much they used, meetings have always triggered me, is there anything else besides na/aa meetings

[avisg]

josh whats going on

[dominosarah]

Josh just keep breathing and talking to us.  Turn some music on.  That always helped me.  You dont have to do this alone anymore.  Look into some meetings.   You are stronger than this craving Josh......keep breathing.........

[avisg]

listen it will go away takin a drug is just going to make you feel even worse breath threw it think of everything you have done in the last two weeks ...its going to be ok .First thing is there anyone you can call to get the drugs out of the house.

[Josh_702]

i feel like it wont go away if i dont do something about it, like to take that feeling away. does it last that long cuz i dont know how much more i can take of this beating to my brain.. UGH  im breathing and trying to take my mind off it, but idk what to do, i dont have many friends to call in my position that would know what to say

[avisg]

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO listen breath in threw your nose and out threw your mouth while countin back from two hundred OK try that right now

[Josh_702]

im literally having a panic attack, i know u read my other posts about the morphine, well i know there in the next room and thats what im craving is a 1/2 morphine pill just to help not feeling so ******, i dont want to use heroin EVER again, i just want to feel ok for a few hrs. but i know ill feel guilty.. Im fighting this with all i got, but i know i always lose my own fights..

[gnarly_1]

HI Josh im glad some of the physical symptoms have left you your doing good so far you haven't used and that can be hard when cravings kick in.....I have to agree with avisg
get to an n/a or aa meeting you will find support there and be able to talk about your feelings and cravings to people that understand...you can google n/a meetings in your area and find one....first it becomes a thought then an obsession if not stoped it very well could become an action you need to take your thoughts captive and nip it in the bud so to speek cravings usually dont last that long except if we obsess on them so try and get you mind on something else...recovery is a proses it takes work on your part aftercare is that work ...it is a necessity not an optional part of recovery good luck and God bless  Gnarly      

[avisg]

when can you get yourself to a meeting aa /na .you dont want to use you have made it threw the worst you dont want to turn back now .You do need to get recovery care right away that way when this happens you have someone right there to help .Stay here and post think about all of the positive things not using is going to do for you .