60 Days Tomorrow

[PurrfectlyKrazy]

First I wanted to say thank you to everyone who has been praying for my hubby and myself.  He is back home and doing well.  Actually this was an improvement...He was going to the hospital about every 4 weeks for this lung congestion thing...this time he made it double that time.  We are hopeful that they have figured out the problem and are going to repair it.  Now this week we will be doing tests to make sure he is well and truly cancer-free.  We are hopeful because despite the looks of things he's gained weight and strength.  I would think he would not be improving if he still had cancer.  This is in God's hands but he has granted us miracles before and I'm praying that he will grant us one more.

Soooooo with all that is going on...I'm still clean and sober  yayyyyyyyyyyy.  I found some wonderful people at the hospital who helped me keep my sanity and stopped me from being my typical Type A fanatical self.  Yes, I till kept an eye on the doctors (especially new ones).  Joe has so many issues the main mistake that is made is that they tend to want to prescribe new medications which is a no no for him.

Yahooooooo 60 days clean and sober.  I can hardly believe it.  Thanks to my MH Family for all the support, advice and yes, kicks in the butt when I needed it.

To everyone who is new to this and is trying to get clean and sober...please don't give up and don't give in.  Listen to the advice given.....had it not been for this wonderful group of people I don't think I would have made it.  So hang in there, buckle down for the wild ride that you think you won't survive...but you will.

I won't say that 60 days cures everything....I still have a bit of the mind fog (not as bad though...at least I'm usually typing the right words lol) and I am still a bit emotional....but I do notice my pain isn't as bad...it is fairly manageable.

Thanks everyone!!!

[PurrfectlyKrazy]

I meant Lovely Lu (told ya I still have some brain fog lol)

[PurrfectlyKrazy]

Thank you all so much.  Lovely Ly....I love you too (hmmm kinda poetic eh?) lol, and Mark I'm very proud to be your friend.  If I had to wind up an addict at least I found the right place to admit my problem and the "love" I feel here is such a real and tangible things.

ARiley & Clean_in_Kansas....I haven't had chance to get to know either of you much yet...but I'm honored to be part of your "family"

Meeg?  Oh what can I say about you except you are RAD and I love you already :-)

[meegWpaw]

hey pk congrats i am so proud of you. !!! yaysters!

[clean_in_ks]

Congratulations on 61 DAYS!!!  

You have dealt with a lot since making the commitment to get clean and you are winning!  I SO understand the need to be an advocate for your hubby when in the hospital.  I have had many similar experiences and had I NOT been there, "they" would have given him meds he no longer needed due to poor communication between shifts and personnel.  I sure hope someone like me is around should I need an advocate one day...LOL  Sounds like you have made your way through all that, found additional support and are now home and waiting for more test results.
Wishing you only the best....keep rockin your recovery girl~

[gnarly_1]

Hey congrats girl 2 month is great keep doing what your doing it is working for you thanks for all the help on the forum may God bless you abundantly your friend and fellow addict Mark

[lulu747]

My Dearest K-

I am SO sorry I missed this thread and the chance to congratulate you on your hard won 60 days.  YOU ARE AMAZING!  Honestly girl, you have done so so well.  It is true testament to your strength and character.  You are such a kind and compassionate soul and I feel blessed to have you as a friend.
Your hubby is so fortunate to have you.
Don't forget to take some hard won time for yourself to just chill, and enjoy the fruits of your labour.
Love to you.
I'm so proud.
Lu

[ariley13]

A belated Happy 2 months to you! Keep fighting the good fight and never forget to take care of yourself.

[PurrfectlyKrazy]

Thank you so much and don't worry....I was telling the truth about my dysfunctional childhood....I'm not going to get cocky.  Anyone, no matter how determined or stubborn, is capable of a relapse.  I'm focused right now on learning what things in my life are triggers so I can start learning  new methods of dealing with those triggers.

[bama88]

Recovery looks so good on you!!!  Keep your guard up ok?  Your one strong warrior with everything going on...I'll put you and hubby in my prayers...so proud of you, look at you, I bet your skin is glowing and eyes shinning...awesomeness...

[Amandag78]

Congratulations on your 60 days clean !!!
Well done to you : )

[dominosarah]

Congrats on 60 hard earned days!!  Keep moving forward and always remember to keep your sobriety the No1 priority.  Glad to hear your hubby is home and improving!

[Ejm7263]

Happy!!! 60 days
I don't think your perfect, but you are awesome. Just accept it. I'm on day 13 you've made 60. I doing better physically everyday, I have to look back to see it. Cause I still need a step up to get put of this hell. But your a miracle to me today & that makes you awesome. Just accept, pat yourself on the shoulder for just a second & then go right back to the good fight. I full we'll know how long I'll have to fight. Till I wake up in heaven:-).
Have a blessed day!!!!! You've blessed mine.

[PurrfectlyKrazy]

Thank you all for your lovely comments....but I need to say this.  I'm not that awesome, I'm obviously not perfect, I'm struggling every day just like everyone else.  I suspect the struggle will get easier with time...but I approach every day as a war....between me and the opiates.  If the day comes that I don't think of opiates anymore then I will declare the war a stalemate...not a win...because addiction is a life long disease.
  My only goal here is to remind myself what I went through and what I will go through again if I go back to the opiates.  The bonus is if I can manage to help others at the same time.  I can't ask more than that I can return what I have received.
  I'm a mirror reflection of all of you...you all gave your time, generosity and support when you had your life going on, your own issues...and you all gave me so much support that I was in awe.  
  Thanks to all of you who taught me, supported me and for that mirror reflection.  Someday I hope to be the one who is over 1 year sober...and that by that time I will have all the knowledge tucked away that ya'll have already.
Big Big Hugs to you all!
xox

[msdelight]

Congratulations PK! 60 days is Gigantic! So happy for you and your hubby. Keep pushing and on to 90!

[spider6]

What a great post.  Grats to you on your 60! You sure have earned it.  Man you must think, if I can get through this, I can do anything!  You're a pretty strong chic! ...an uber super role model.  Prayers and hugs

[Sonrissa]

I am so glad hubby is home and doing well! That is great news. Also congrats on your 60 days. Time really does fly.  Keep doing what you've been doing, cause it's working. You are an inspiration. I wish you all the best!

[Ejm7263]

You amaze me. GOD working in you amazes me. I'm so proud of you many people can't do this with nothing going on. Your working it & such an inspiration to me. Day 12, I'm sure you remember how that was & how you don't want to do it again.
Bless you & your family. Lifting you all up in prayer.