I am feeling ALOT better mentally Thanks for the support...Was just a bad day I suppose!!
I am in a lot of pain but my spirits are high...Thanks for all the advice and kind words...did wake up to dry heaves again though???
i am feeling better thanks!!! slept some...thanks guys
Heather I am so sorry you are going through this. Maybe feeling any better by now? I am a little over 90 and you may know I have been really and I mean really struggling. Its a hard time. You have a lot you are dealing with, many issues from the past as I recall, and it sounds like you have a very difficult job, draining even. Watch out, take care of yourself, you and your recovery come first. Let yourself cry and emote but try to look at why all this is coming up as well and try not to subject yourself to any of it that is unnecessary. Rest, be good to you and I agree, that diet? Umm, don't know if that's the best idea right now. I have read some of your journals and I seem to remember some of your struggles but still .... your emotional, mental and physical well being come first. You're amazing! Treat your amazing self with care. xxoo
Aww hunny! I'm sorry that you had a " no good, very bad day!" You're such an incredible woman. I just adore you. Why don't you have some ice cream and watch a funny movie? The movie, " knocked up" always cheers me up. I'm giving you a big bear hug! Xoxo
Awwww sweetie, I'm so sorry ur feeling like this!...like all the others said, u need to take time for YOU!!!!...You do so much helping others...watch a funny movie, listen to some music....everything will be OK!!..you have my number, call/text ANYTIME!!!!..love ya girl...
I agree with the above comments....deep breaths and listen to some relaxing music etc....take some YOU time....all the work can wear on you mentally AND physically...you have to have some down time....take it from someone that works alot too...you will burn yourself out if you don't rest some too.
I'm here if you ever need to chat/talk! take care of yourself girl...you're so giving on here so now it's time to take care of you.
Heather, this is totally normal. Right around my 90 days I started having extreme anxiety, panic attacks, and my first real cravings for alcohol in over 2 years.( And horrible sleep, but that's the norm for me.) I was a mess and seriously thought I was having a breakdown. I had some really great people who held my hand through this and walked me through the bad days. This will pass. Lack of sleep and crazy work schedule are probably exacerbating everything. Please do anything you can to relax (except use!) and break the cycle of anxiety. We get caught up in the vicious cycle and just keep feeding it. Please know that we are here for you. You will make it through this. Lean on us anytime you need to. I am so proud of you for reaching out and posting. Sending peace, love and lots of positive energy your way.
Hey sweetie!! You are one of the most amazing people I know! Like I told you earlier, you are making a huge difference in peoples lives and its taking alot out of you!! I soooo wish you were closer so we could have a girl day! REMEMBER that you have to take time for HEATHER!! YOUR EXHAUSTED and WORN OUT! You should tuck in early tonight BC you have to do it all again tomorrow! I love ya girl and you know how to reach me anytime!! Hang in there! SLEEP is YOUR FRIEND!
thanks Annie i have been trying breathing exercises im not tired now but all day i am i do need a laugh lol...my dogs are in bed w me now!! Lilahs kissing me!!! the weather is amazing...windows open
Hi there, Heather. Glad you're here & glad you posted. Big Breath now!! Exhale....You're gonna' be fine. You're under stress. It's as simple as that. You haven't slept that much (I know exactly where you're at.) Do you know when things are particularly stressful for me even now, that I get symptoms like watery eyes, fatigue, weakness & sneezing. (Particularly if I don't get 4 or more hours of sleep.)
So, we've got to find a way to get you to decouple from your stress. What you did here was great. Can you redirect in other healthy ways? Can we make you laugh? Can you listen to something soothing or play with your dogs. Deep breathing or meditation videos on YT? Yoga? Whatever it is...it's got to be the opposite of 'stressing' the stress -- meaning winding yourself up about it.
Hope you're a little better now that you posted. Don't worry about the dream. The subconscious has a great deal of power over your actual body so it's not really surprising. Before you go to bed tonight, listen to something really positive/soothing. Think good thoughts & set a good intention for rest. (You can also access 8 hr YT tracks of rainstorms, ocean sounds, etc.)
Thanks...I hope tomorrow is better
Also not getting enough rest can play Hell with our emotions
Sorry Heather ! ;( You are just a good person having a really bad day and I am sure it's not withdrawals .Watch that diet ! A friend of mine was a wrestler and he went on a carb diet once and said He was crying at commercials . Try to set aside some time for you ;) You deserve it and hang in there my encouraging friend ;) Tomorrow will be better
sorry you had such a bad night.......like all of your angels are saying, you've had a lot on your plate lately and who wouldn't be stressed.
You're an old pro at this now though, so what does little Heather do,
You....take that stress crunch it up like a paper ball, set in on your
shoulder and give it a good FLICK!!! SMASH, right into the wall and
bounces right in the garbage can....right where it belongs....
haha...stress....time to take the trash out!!
Yes....you are amazing!! keep being you.
peace and love and hugs.
xoxo