I need help today

[hopinforhappy]

Today makes 6 days clean from tramadol.  I feel run down and tired.  It is my six year olds birthday today and I am supposed to make a cake and get ready for a party today.  I am really craving something.  Anything that will build my stamina.  I feel like I am socially akward unless taking hydos or tramadol.  I don't want to go backwards but I feel like I don't see the point in staying clean.  I know it is in my head but I am wondering, I have read Thoms detox but haven't started it and wondering if it is too late.  Also, could it be the colonapin (sp?) that is making me feel this way?  I was also started on anti depressant 2 days ago.  I appriciate all of you here and can't wait till I can be more of an inspiration than a problem.....thanks all.

[hopinforhappy]

Best of luck to you, I am impressed with your abbility to do this you seem really positive.  I sure didn't get anything out of it while I was taking lortab but once I was done with those I could really feel the tramadol.  Keep up your good work!!

[Debbie1054]

I am in the process of tappering off of oxy with the help of my doctor I was at 120 mg aday and I am down to 60 a day.  I have a great doc.  I told him I wanted to stop and he has helped me all the way. He said I should be done with the tapper in about 4 mths from now but I don't care I was on it for 4 years so what's four mths.  Thanks for the info on the ultram I have a bottle of it and like I said I tried it a couple of times and after reading all the people on her trying to get off I could not under stand what they got out of it to me it was like taking a asprin,  so thanks again.  

[hopinforhappy]

You don't get any buzz or anything on one or two pills but I get a better buzz off of three or four then I do on anything else.  I had surgery two months ago and was given dilaudid.  That is supposedly a very stong drug.  I found more relief with the tramadol.  The docs say because it is non narcotic (but has narcotic tendensies)  that it is safe.  You get addicted to it the same way you do everything.  The buzz and relief.  I have come to beleive that each persons wiring attracks to something though some are better able to control that then others.  My husband took one lortab 7.5 and ended up falling out of bed.  He stopped taking them because of how he felt.  To me, I feel "normal"  when taking them.  What is your DOC??

[Kova]

ditto.  i tried ultram and felt nothing.  does it give you a high?  is it a full opiate agonist or what?

[Debbie1054]

I hear all these people on ultram and trying to get off of it but if I may ask I don't understand.  My doctor gave me a script of ultram and I took it a couple of times to see if it would help and I got nothing from it so I guess just because I hear so many on here being addicted to it I don't understand please fill me in if I may ask,  I don't want to ask something that you don't want to answer I just am courious I guess.
Debbie

[hopinforhappy]

I called my dr for a refill on tramadol which he will be calling in later this afternoon.  As soon as I hung up the phone, I regretted doing this.  I know I won't be able to stop taking them.  I am not even in much pain, just tired of the blues.  I guess I haven't totally messed up because I haven't picked them up yet but I know the longer the day goes the more I will want to.  My sweet husband would be so supportive but I just can't talk to him for fear of embarrassment.  I know stupid reason.  I appriciate just being able to state my mind with everyone here and not to be juged.  I know at this point I am looking for support, not the drugs but I feel so alone.  Obviously I am not and not in the worst state either.  sorry for blabbing  on and on but I appriciate any advice.  By the way I did get up and make the cakes they are in the oven now!!!  And smelling delicious I might add.

[bandnmom]

You are not a problem. You are where each and everyone of use was when we came here. With that said, the best thing you can do is get up and start making that cake. Keep yourself busy and everything will fall into place. How does the saying go??...an idle mind is a mind that gets into trouble. somehting like that but i know u know where im going with this. It is hard but in the end it is so worth it. Not having to worry about making a cake or being social without your pills. Just getting up and going...all on your own!! You can do this and you will be so happy you did! I promise you that and it does get easier!!