Another tramadol mess

[MMarty]

I am so sick of this tramadol addiction and have tried several times to quit. I have tapered this time because I went 11 days CT last time with no relief and could not continue to work through it as the sole care taker of my 5 year old and a business owner. I went on the lowest dose I could function with and am on 3.5 , 25 mg pills a day. I got all excited yesterday after reading these posts and thought I would just jump off since it was only 3.5 pills a day. I suffered all day yesterday but it wasn't anything I couldn't handle. My problem is I become mean and explosive and really can't control my temper. I am so even tempered normally that I scare everyone when I am out of control. I was suffering through the night but I can deal with the discomfort. The problem was that my elderly dog was having a bad night and waking me up a lot. He is old, deaf and about blind and only weighs 4-5 pounds. He is so precious to me but I was horrid to him last night for waking me so much. I could have hurt him and I could not control my anger. At one point I was screaming at him and shaking him then tossed him in my yard. I have dedicated my entire life to wildlife rehab and animal rescue so this might give you an idea of how out of character this was for me. I was too scared to let my daughter wake up and get this ugly with her so I took a half of a pill before I woke her. What am I going to do? I can't be this crazy and out of control. The last time I tried I never got any less explosive after 11 days so I have no idea what to do. Should I go on down to the least amount I can again and go see my doctor? If it was just affecting me then I would suffer through as I deserve every bit of it but I can not risk hurting my daughter or my animals. Does anyone else get violent? Any suggestions? God bless you wonderful group of angels! marty

[MMarty]

Thanks all. I just needed to know that I am not alone with this issue. I am so not an angry or mean person so it's shocking to me when I have tried to stop and find myself out of control at times. I am going to have to talk with my doctor before proceeding because I can not deal with being so out of control and volatile.

My dog is fine, thanks for asking. The guilt I felt this morning was profound and as out of control as I felt I don't believe I really hurt the dog but the idea that I felt like I could have was scary. I have saved thousands of animals over the years and protect my daughter like a mother bear. I just can't take risks like this so if I have to take another route and admit for once that I just can't do everything alone then I will. Thanks for the advice. Marty

[badshadow]

I think alot of people detoxing off an addictive medication would find their "nerves" on edge.  I know my patience and tolerance level is definitely off balance trying to detox.

It's hard to say whether to keep on with a CT Withdrawal or to go back and taper some more.  We're all so differerent in how it affects us.

I had such bad Anxiety trying to detox of Tramadol that I went on  Vicodin and I am tapering off that.  None of it is a picnic that's for sure.  I'm still antsy, on edge, have problems sleeping, and then when I stop altogether who knows what it will be like.

Be kind to yourself, you weren't born with the goal of becoming addicted to drugs.

I agree wih Tramhater about talking to your Dr.  I got some really cheap plates, and when I feel like I'm going to lose it, I go out in the back yard and smash them.  I tell my Daughter that I'm going to make a Mosaic out of them so she doesn't think I've lost my mind.  LOL

[LeaAnn807]

Hi!  I have been off tram since early March, and I can tell you that it takes a while to get back in control of your life!  I didn't have the anger problems, but I was very emotional during the WDs.  It might benefit you to talk with a doctor about this.  That kind of anger is obviously not a good thing when you are not used to dealing with it!  I do think it will get better, but it does take time and some MAJOR patience!

Tramadol is the devil!  Good luck to you.  I'm cheering for ya!

[tiny7]

Im in this fite wit you everything is goin to be ok animals,kids,family can tell when its a differents in the ones they luv so just think of it like this the dog was only barkin bcos he can tell sumthing was wrng wit the one he luv that one bad time is not goin to make him stop luvin the person that luvd him...I hve to boys they always know when im hvein one of those days they always go in the family room an call me to watch my favorite movie so just hang in there ill be prayin 4 u an ur family remember you are sumbody just hang in there ur goin to get threw this plz pray 4 me too

[buzzhorn1]

Yes, I lose my temper and if I got to the point where I couldn't control it violence would ensue.  I know how that guilt feels.  Even though the guilt is deserved it doesn't right the wrong.

You might want to talk to the doctor about switching to subcutex and then weening off that.  It's my understanding that the different suboxones don't get you high, they just satisfy the chemical receptors in your brain that make you go bonkers when you quit.

Nutrition is important so check out the amino acid protocol.  There's a link to the health pages on the upper right side of the webpage.  There's a link to the exact articel on the lower right of the webpage under "most viewed health pages".

I have a lot of your fears.  I have a son who's older than your daughter and I'm the primary care giver.  One thing I know is that they deserve better and shouldn't be scared of us because we love them.  It's a sacred duty for us not scare them or be mean.

Lotsa Luv, Good Luck, Stay Strong!

[dominosarah]

The effects of this tramadol just keeps getting worse and worse it seems.  Some of the ones who have come off this will be on at some point today.  I hope you are feeling better now.  Is the dog okay?