How to show my face?

[jess8487]

Ok I posted earlier with the title " Got in some trouble" Well tonight we have to go to church..
(part of my treatment) and the person who reported me and his family will be there.
This is going to be so uncomfortable..I will be counting the minutes till I can get out of there!
How do I act like it isnt bothering as bad as it is?

[road2recovery]

I totally agree with your post!!!  that would be the place i would want to be in this situation...

[worried878]

I am not sure of all that went on before this post...all i can say is u have the guts to go and face ur demons...demons only can get us if we dont face them so u got it under control!  plus..u will be at church...to me no one can hurt me there under God's roof...just cant happen

[road2recovery]

wanted you to know i am thinking about you...Post when you can and let us know how it went....It will be ok....We are all here to try and help you through...

[DogLover723]

Just wanted to let you know that I am sitting here thinking about you Jess and hoping everything is going ok for you tonight.  I have been exactly where you are right now. Like I said I was caught stealing pills once too. I know the shame and embarrassment you are feeling. It took me a long time to realize this: you are not a bad person for what you did. You have a disease and you are not a bad person. I'm willing to bet that a clean/sober Jess wouldn't have done this right?  It's the sickness and the pills that made you do it. In the past, I could literally hear the pills talking to me and telling me that if I took them out of somebody else's medicine cabinet nobody would ever find out and it would be OK. The difference is that you owned up to it, I didn't. To this day, I still deny that I stole them.  You have tremendous strength and courage.  I hope you can find it in your own heart to forgive yourself.
  Take care of youself sweetie, we are all rooting for you!!!

[cathy5841]

jess, i agree witht he others..you are showing tremendous courage.  i would let them know EXACTLY how i feel and how embarrassed i am.  they will be willing to forgive if they know you are willing to own up to your addiction and get the help you need.  this is a huge step for you.  i will keep you in my prayers.

[jess8487]

I will post tonight and let you all know how it goes..Love you all..and thanks a bunch! Jess

[Mandapanda17]

aw, so proud of you, for going in the first place!! I'm going to read you other post, but as r2r said you have a lot of courage to go!!!! and yes MOST of us have done some pretty awful things regarding meds. I'm still worrying about what 'could' or 'could've' happened to me. I could've easily gotten in trouble with johnny law for sure! take care girl, and post tonight after you go and let us know how it goes for you! stay strong! :)

[DogLover723]

I have done the same thing Jess...many, many times. I did get caught once and pulled out my "big bag of addict lies" and talked my way out of it. You have so much courage!!  I don't know you but I am very proud of you!!!!!!   I am more than twice your age and you have way more guts than I do.

[jess8487]

I wish you could come with me too badydoll! It would so help! I could hide behind you! lol..Oh well once I do it the first time, the second time wont be so tough..I HOPE!

[road2recovery]

I have to agree with babydoll...I would act just as i feel...Listen, you are not some horrible person...MOST of us have done the same thing...I know i have, i just didnt' get caught...But if i did, I would have been devastated, and I probably could not try to change that , or the look on my face when i saw whomever....PLEASE remember you didn't do this to hurt someone, that was not your intention...This is part of the disease...
Good luck...And congrats on the courage to even go!!!!
r2r

[Babydoll71]

if it were me, i wouldn't try and hide how bad it was bothering me..........they will see that its bothering you and may try to help you even more.......you never know......wish i could walk in there with you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  you are showing TREMENDOUS COURAGE by walking thru that door and I APPLAUD YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!