if it were me, i wouldn't try and hide how bad it was bothering me..........they will see that its bothering you and may try to help you even more.......you never know......wish i could walk in there with you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you are showing TREMENDOUS COURAGE by walking thru that door and I APPLAUD YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have to agree with babydoll...I would act just as i feel...Listen, you are not some horrible person...MOST of us have done the same thing...I know i have, i just didnt' get caught...But if i did, I would have been devastated, and I probably could not try to change that , or the look on my face when i saw whomever....PLEASE remember you didn't do this to hurt someone, that was not your intention...This is part of the disease...
Good luck...And congrats on the courage to even go!!!!
r2r
I wish you could come with me too badydoll! It would so help! I could hide behind you! lol..Oh well once I do it the first time, the second time wont be so tough..I HOPE!
I have done the same thing Jess...many, many times. I did get caught once and pulled out my "big bag of addict lies" and talked my way out of it. You have so much courage!! I don't know you but I am very proud of you!!!!!! I am more than twice your age and you have way more guts than I do.
aw, so proud of you, for going in the first place!! I'm going to read you other post, but as r2r said you have a lot of courage to go!!!! and yes MOST of us have done some pretty awful things regarding meds. I'm still worrying about what 'could' or 'could've' happened to me. I could've easily gotten in trouble with johnny law for sure! take care girl, and post tonight after you go and let us know how it goes for you! stay strong! :)
I will post tonight and let you all know how it goes..Love you all..and thanks a bunch! Jess
jess, i agree witht he others..you are showing tremendous courage. i would let them know EXACTLY how i feel and how embarrassed i am. they will be willing to forgive if they know you are willing to own up to your addiction and get the help you need. this is a huge step for you. i will keep you in my prayers.
Just wanted to let you know that I am sitting here thinking about you Jess and hoping everything is going ok for you tonight. I have been exactly where you are right now. Like I said I was caught stealing pills once too. I know the shame and embarrassment you are feeling. It took me a long time to realize this: you are not a bad person for what you did. You have a disease and you are not a bad person. I'm willing to bet that a clean/sober Jess wouldn't have done this right? It's the sickness and the pills that made you do it. In the past, I could literally hear the pills talking to me and telling me that if I took them out of somebody else's medicine cabinet nobody would ever find out and it would be OK. The difference is that you owned up to it, I didn't. To this day, I still deny that I stole them. You have tremendous strength and courage. I hope you can find it in your own heart to forgive yourself.
Take care of youself sweetie, we are all rooting for you!!!
wanted you to know i am thinking about you...Post when you can and let us know how it went....It will be ok....We are all here to try and help you through...
I am not sure of all that went on before this post...all i can say is u have the guts to go and face ur demons...demons only can get us if we dont face them so u got it under control! plus..u will be at church...to me no one can hurt me there under God's roof...just cant happen
I totally agree with your post!!! that would be the place i would want to be in this situation...