I am not as Strong as I thought, In 2 ways

[KRC1959]

First off, I need to say that I have posted in the last two days, but not replied to others, and that is wrong. This is Day11 and I thought for sure I would be feeling so much better. I mean, I worked through it, Physically and Mentally and kept posting and had hope at about day 7, but yesterday and today are basically just taking there toll on me, Legs just killing me, Restless leg syndrome, doesnt matter if its day or night, Lack of energy, but I push myself like I have the energy, and I think it is doing more harm than good, Not sleeping well. Im past the chills and flashes and that, but I cant take this much more, I swear I wish I could just lie around for a week and see what that would do. Im going to give it a few more days and see if some miracle just doesnt happen.  My second Weakness, I am a very strong person physically, and fit, and Today at work, One of my workers yelled out,JAYDEAN, Jaydean, I turned as I was in an area this afternoon where there are not supposed to be any horses, People walk in this area and relax. NO HORSE my butt, A Mare had jumped her fence and came running through this area, As I turned when my worker yelled, She was right in front of me at a good lope, She hit me with her shoulder, I stood my ground like a Bull......... For a Tenth of a Second. Now you talk about Nadia Comaniche winning Gold medals in Gymnastics at the Olympics,  I flew through the air, twisting and turning, and I know I had to do a double gainer, and somehow landed on my feet, Then raised my hands, like in victory, and fell flat on my ***, and lied there until I caught my breath. So does my chest and shoulder feel it, yes, and I am  6.1, Took three of us to catch her, This horse normally is the sweetest horse, I dont know why she didnt run around me, and I didnt have time to get out of the way so just tensed my muscles that fast and bam, Mike Frigging Tyson, hit me. We laughed a little about it and it took my mind off of the WD aches for a bit,  Definitely will have a bruise on my right side chest muscles and shoulder. SO Those are my two weaknesses for the day.                                  JayDean

[Summer123]

You are an amazing person.  Can't believe that you worked so hard through withdrawals.  I feel like such a wimp.  I'm not even doing cold turkey, tapered just down to 10 mg of oxycodone, and feel like I've been run over by a horse, and you literally were.  Don't think I've ever met someone so strong.  If you can do what you've done, there is no way that you won't make it.  

For anyone to go to work (includes jenny8575309) and go through this is incredible.  You guys have my utmost respect and admiration.

[jenny8575309]

It's uphill from here JayDean, I promise.  hang in there your almost done.  When people come on here saying they can't quit cos they have to work, I think about you. I went to work, but I just sit at my desk all day.  Your really a strong person, and I admire you.  :)

[allaboutmary]

Dear Dear Jay.  You work too hard.  Then you get run over by horses. That horse was testing your resolve and you won !  I so wish you felt better. You really have been through hell. I'm recalling the sandman and sending a nurse instead.  You really do have my respect with all you have been through. Please stay with us bud.........  Big Big Huge Hug.   hope that didn't hurt your ribs.     Mary

[flmagi]

I'm so sorry about that horse running you down. Hope you don't feel to bad tommorrow. Can ya call in sick, one day, lol?  
Are you taking vitamins, Jay?  I guess I'm surprized your not feeling alot better by now.  Keep going Jay, its gotta get better.

[alexandra fox]

my china plate, you have my sympathy, me too thinking surely this must be getting better soon, and still weak as buggery (oh my goodness! oh my! buggery in australian is NOT a rude word - I just realised that I have been using it freely, as I do over here, it is just slang, prbably equivalent to hec k in the states - but it also means something else. Oh my, I do apologise if I have offended anyone else, so sorry - do you guys use it in the context of frustration or is it just a ...ahem... specific term?)

You have been a trouper to keep working throughout your detox - you know what I am trying to do? to stop counting the days, and just say to myself, it is today and today i feel x, y, z and that is what I have to cope with just for today. In my head, by day 7 I should be fit and energetic, and the reality is far from that.

Just hang in mate :-) just for today - can you take some rest?