1 month clean off hydrocodiens

[Gunner817]

**** yeah, turned a corner

[Gunner817]

I understand perfectly what you all are saying and I respect it. Although I've been a casual weed smoker for awhile I quit a few years and decided to smoke again. Honestly yall I know you might think this is my addict brain talking but, I was really just wanting to kick the hydrocodien. I never had the intention of quiting weed. I think il be a Willie Nelson old man pot smoker when I get older. I just don't like alcohol and I don't like most drugs besides hydros and weed but the hydros took controll over me that's why I want to knock them from my life. Ya I crave the pills every now and then but it's not worse than the first 3 weeks of W/D. It's 35 days today. I just set short term goal like my goal right now is 2 months clean (off hydros) so 27 more days till I reach my 2 month goal.

[CATUF]

Congrats on 30 days off the pills -- that's a big deal.

Good article on PAWS at http://www.tlctx.com/ar_pages/paw_part1.htm  PAWS kept taking me BACK OUT for years.  After my last rehab I was waiting for it every 30 +/- days and KNEW that it would soon be over even though it FELT like I had hit a brick wall and couldn't keep going anymore.

I never smoked much of the evil weed, because it always made me sick.  But I have many friends in recovery who swear that the Marijuana Maintenance  Plan not only kept them from the rewards of Recovery, but it generally leads back to active addiction on the drug of choice.

"The only way to keep from returning to active addiction is not to take that first drug.  IF YOU ARE LIKE US you know that one is too many and a thousand never enough.  We put great emphasis on this, for we know that when we use drugs in any form, or substitute one for another, we release our addiction all over again.  Thinking of alcohol as different from other drugs has caused a great many addicts to relapse.   Before we came to NA, many of us viewed alcohol separately, but we cannot afford to be
confused about this. Alcohol is a drug.

We are people with the disease of addiction who must abstain from all drugs in order to recover.

NA Basic Text - How it Works.

Maybe you're different . . . but "if you are like us" . . . . .

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[keith600]

If you think a 12 step meeting is hugging, crying and just talking you should go to a meeting cause its way more than that.

[nursegirl6572]

It's crazy how diffrent you feel and how you look at things now that your sober.

But hon, you're NOT sober.  You're using weed, almost daily.....that's not good.  It's just reinforcing your addict brain, which can absolutely cause the cravings.

You're really putting yourself at risk for a relapse with pills if you don't reconsider what you're doing.  I really hope you do.

[Gunner817]

Well getting close to 34 days and last night and this morning I have been craving the hydros more than I have in the last 2 weeks.. Idk if it's PAWS or if it's because it's 30 degrees outside and rainy, (which were the days I loved to pop hydros) a good lazy day type. I have been working out pretty hard the last 4 days, really hard!!! Maybe my energy is just so high I'm looking for a high I guess. I do smoke weed, but only at night and maybe 4 days a week, I get up at 6 am every morning and I go workout then work till like 7pm then get my personal crap done, then usually home by 10 and that's when I would load a bowl sometimes 2 and crash by 11. I know someone was talking about weed fogs up your mind so hopefully it's not the weed making me crave the drug more. It's controllable but I'm just saying seems like those cravings just pop right back up out of the blue.been under a lot of stress to with work and my son so. So I'm sure one of those things I listed is the reasoning but damn it if I don't feel like I could take over Texas with all the energy I have.. I've always been ignoring my girlfriend lol idk if it's cause now I'm sober off the pills and she's not as interesting as I thought she was or I'm just still going through withdrawals. It's crazy how diffrent you feel and how you look at things now that your sober. I'm just running on but anyways ya everyone tells me go to NA and I will but the times on my area are ******* horrible and can't really make it. It's only at 8pm every night I got a son and a full time job it's hard to fit it in there. I just don't see how talking to people is going to help isn't it basically the same thing I'm doing on here with you all??? Cause I heard they give you hugs and people cry and that's fine but I won't be doing any of that. When I hear aftercare classes I automatically think of the movie "Fight Club" with brad Pitt and I think of when edward norton is hugging and crying at one of his support groups with big bob. Idk as you can tell I'm hyped up but anyways hope to hear from yall!! Have a good day,,, stay warm

[motye51]

WooHoo!!!  Congragulations to you and all your hard work!  Take a bow....you've earned it!

[gnarly_1]

Hi  those thoughs of pills will come back to bit you in the a ss you need to put some form of aftercare into your life  I have tryed most of them  but N/A has been the magic bullet it is a simple program and it is free the meeting are only a hour long I cannot over emphasize how important this is... as for the weed smoking it will increase the longer your pill free and it is just enough of a buzz to lead you right back to the pills it fogs your judgment  I love the stuff but now I no longer chase the buzz.. btw congrats on your clean time.........Gnarly

[Gunner817]

Thank you all!!! Yes I do smoke a few bowls every now again il go a few days not smoke and sometimes on the weekend I hit a couple bowls. I don't consider weed my NA, I was saying it was more my way of just rewarding myself on something none addictive. My energy came back around 24-25 days and I sleep a good 7 hours each night and night I smoke a few bowls I sleep like 11 hours. I'm not 100% but 80% for sure, today I thought about the pill more than usual.

[spider6]

Awesome sauce !!  It's a milestone to be sure!  Can't wait till your next one.
Grats bud. Hugs

[dominosarah]

Congrats on the month off hydro's.  I read your other post and you mentioned that you smoke a few bowls on the weekend and consider that your NA meeting.  This really concerns me on a lot of different levels.

[jifmoc]

Dang, already? Time goes. Great job. Are you doing aftercare yet?

[Oxymoron35]

Congrats on 30 days!  That is great.  I have been following your progress as I'm just under a week behind you at 24 days...  While each day is better I'm not quite "there" yet and am looking forward to day 3-0... Have you seen a marked increase in motivation, energy and / or less depression/anxiety?

[dedicatedtostop]

YES!!!!! Congrats to you! Celebrate your success! You deserve it! I am so proud of you, keep up the great work! You inspiring others! Again.... A HUGE CONGRATS!! No turning back!