Day 3 norco withdrawals

[ABalone]

Hi everyone. I come on here and read everyone's posts all the time, figured it was time to join. I'm 34 and have been on and off painkillers for the last 5 years. It started when I had knee surgery, I would get 35 7.5 Vic's at a time and they would last me a few weeks. Cut to a few years ago, I'm in and out of the er constantly for "back pain" (I broke my back when I was 18, no I never got into the pills then), really just trying to get more pills. About a year ago I found a pain doc, he prescribes me 150 10mg norcos or percs a month. At first they would last a few weeks, I was taking about 8/day. Well now I'm lucky if they last me 1 week, I'm taking 20-25/day. I have forged rxs (added pain pills to another rx), bought illegally, complained of "cough" to my doc to get codeine syrup when I run out of pills. I took my last norco 3 days ago, I really want to quit but I admit its going to be hard when all I can think about is going to my doc for more pills. I have to wait at least 2 weeks until I see him again, hopefully I will be able to be strong. Right now I feel so out of it, these few days have been total hell. I'm so depressed, sad, hopeless, anxious, have no appetite and my whole body aches, I feel like the biggest loser in the world. All I think about are these pills. Right now I've just been smoking lots of pot the last 3 days, taking ambien to help me sleep, taking lots of ibuprofen, energy drinks, water, bananas. I have an rx for soma that I might pick up tonight, but really nothing besides an opiate is going to get rid of this doomed feeling. Thankful to have my loyal dog at my side right now, he forces me to get outside for walks. If anyone out there can offer any support or tips to get through this I would appreciate it. I'm supposed to go back to work tomorrow. I wish I never took that first Vicodin :(

[ABalone]

Hey everyone. First off thanks for the support and tips and stories, you're all so helpful and NICE, it's great. Second, I had another horrible feeling day, my stomach has been hurting so bad and I have this weird feeling/taste? (It's really hard to explain!) from my tummy up through to my mouth. Plus just feeling so blah. But I just took my dog for a walk after work and found myself running around playing and laughing with him and felt really happy! It's day 5, I know I've got a lot of rough moments to come but it's nice to know there are good moments too!

[tramuser99]

I didnt read all the responses so maybe someone else mentioned this, but high doses of immodium AD seriously take away a lot of the physical pain, not just diarrhea. I am 6'0 225lbs and I would take 25 pills a dose once a day unless it was really bad then maybe two doses a day about 12 hours apart.  Walmart usually has the bottle of 200, 96, or 72 pills and you dont have to unwrap each pill like most of the brands of loperamide.

Kratom works really well too, but its technically an opiate and is addicting after awhile even though its relatively light. Since you are already on day 3 I dont know if its worth ordering, by the time it will arrive you will be feeling a lot better. Day 3 is the worst day of withdrawals for pretty much everyone. You get dramatically better everyday after day 3.

[1sorryperson]

Tell your DAD!
He probably has a hunch anyway if you are close.  it'll help, your worry is also draining your energy and twisting your tummy.  Take one burden off.

[VICourageous]

Hi! I just wanted to chime in and say the mental feeling is normal behavior. Please do not Beat yourself up or feel ashamed you got addicted to using these for this or that reason. This Disease is a well spread on throughout the World. It is considered a Disease now just like Cancer ect.I would like you to go in here or on the Web and look up the "Disease of Addiction and the Pleasure Pathway". This will give you a onsite on what go ones in the Brain.If you click on my profile you will see a bit I put in so far. I only put in the "Nature of Addiction" I am no spring chic and have used off & on for 40 years or so. The opiates led up  the Methadone and 2 other meds for the last 12 years. I did c/t and no it was no walk in the park. For me it got to the point of DO or DIE. It takes a lot of work as the above posters mentioned and YOU have to really want it. I sure do wish you the Best!!
PS I am now walking in my 10th month and it is good to go so far!
Also hit some meetings you will understand more there too!
Bless

[selfinduced]

Oh AB, I know how you feel. You have to keep marching on. You need to go thru it to get over it. As you've read, this dance with these demon frickin pills is a dead end street. PLEASE know, these edgy, crappy, dark, shaky days will be over very soon and what you'll gain will start your life on the track it was mean't to be on. Good, bad and the ugly.....but all with a clear head, a clear conscious and not a slave to some pills that will never fill the void. Our tolerance grows and our deception grows. Stay strong AB. You can push thu this.

[toothfairie]

i know it's tough the first few days...but just ride it out..and good for you fro going to work!  that's great on day 4-5...keep posting for support....we can help you