Day 3 norco withdrawals

[ABalone]

Hi everyone. I come on here and read everyone's posts all the time, figured it was time to join. I'm 34 and have been on and off painkillers for the last 5 years. It started when I had knee surgery, I would get 35 7.5 Vic's at a time and they would last me a few weeks. Cut to a few years ago, I'm in and out of the er constantly for "back pain" (I broke my back when I was 18, no I never got into the pills then), really just trying to get more pills. About a year ago I found a pain doc, he prescribes me 150 10mg norcos or percs a month. At first they would last a few weeks, I was taking about 8/day. Well now I'm lucky if they last me 1 week, I'm taking 20-25/day. I have forged rxs (added pain pills to another rx), bought illegally, complained of "cough" to my doc to get codeine syrup when I run out of pills. I took my last norco 3 days ago, I really want to quit but I admit its going to be hard when all I can think about is going to my doc for more pills. I have to wait at least 2 weeks until I see him again, hopefully I will be able to be strong. Right now I feel so out of it, these few days have been total hell. I'm so depressed, sad, hopeless, anxious, have no appetite and my whole body aches, I feel like the biggest loser in the world. All I think about are these pills. Right now I've just been smoking lots of pot the last 3 days, taking ambien to help me sleep, taking lots of ibuprofen, energy drinks, water, bananas. I have an rx for soma that I might pick up tonight, but really nothing besides an opiate is going to get rid of this doomed feeling. Thankful to have my loyal dog at my side right now, he forces me to get outside for walks. If anyone out there can offer any support or tips to get through this I would appreciate it. I'm supposed to go back to work tomorrow. I wish I never took that first Vicodin :(

[ABalone]

How are you feeling on day 19? I'm so worried about the next few months, I started abusing painkillers to deal with my depression and IBS, now I'm just waiting for all those painful feelings to come back. I'm going to have to find new ways to cope, that's gonna be hard.

[glamisgirl]

Hi, glad you decided to join in. I can relate to everything you are saying. I had to C/T so many times because I could never make the pills last until the next refill. With each refill of Norco I found myself going through them faster and faster, counting pills every day and the dreaded feeling of knowing withdrawal is coming because you know you can't make 10 pills last for anther 2 and half weeks. It just never seemed to be enough. I'd been on that roller coaster for the last four years and was finally confronted by my husband, family and friends because my husband outed me to everyone. It finally put me at a place where I want to quit and am now on day 19. If you really want it....It can be done. You can do this but first you have to want it!!!

[ABalone]

Thank you so much. This is the first time I've admitted I have a problem ( I told my boyfriend a few days ago, he has never had any drug problems and really doesn't understand what I'm going through. He keeps saying its "no big deal", just stop taking them), I can't tell you how much it means to have support from someone who understands what I'm going through! I started crying reading your response, hey I guess some emotions are coming back, that's gotta be good. Does the Thomas recipe really work? Is is expensive? My boyfriend and I are currently living in an expensive motel (we live in one of the most cutthroat rental areas in the country)and are completely broke, but if the Thomas recipe really helps I will find a way to afford it. Thanks again, I can't stress how much your simple
Response has helped me!!!!!

[OpenMind24hours]

You can quit with just willingness. I think you've come to the fork in the road which is stop or sink deeper and deeper into something that isn't working for you anymore. I know the feeling. I tried to ration my supply just to feel "normal" without running out and it got worse. I'd run out sooner every month and what I was taking didn't get me buzzed at all anymore. So I took the road to recovery and have never looked back.

If you look below on the right click on the Thomas recipe and get those items ASAP and start up on them. Also, hot baths with epsome salts are the ticket to get you through the WDs. We're here to support you. Post and let us know where you are in the detox process and how you feel. Sharing really helps. You're not alone with this.