Day 3 of withdrawal barely hanging on

[Bones07]

I'm finally sick of withdrawals and I'm determined to make it through this time. I'm 27 been in this sick game for over 10 year. Currently I buy off the street which drains my check. I do it all perc oxy morphine methadone and heroine. Anything I can find for the day. I spend all my time searching so I don't get sick and I'm sick of it, I work more than full time 56+ hours a week and cannot take time off of work. In a sick way you could call me a functioning addict. Quitting my job or going to a detox/rehab is not a option. Saturday was the last day I officially used. Been clean Sunday, Monday, and today so far. Going on 58 hours. Hoping things get easier I'm miserable. Looking for just someone to talk to.

[jlannspr]

Just want to send some encouragement your way. You are further today than yesterday, keep up the good fight.

[Calamity2]

I was addicted to opiates for years.  I got clean on this forum .  We had some recipe for amino acids and other healthy suggestions.  But mostly it was like the worst flu with chills.   But honestly after several attempts I got 4 days again .   as I lay in the hot bath I laughed and said, come on satan is this all you got?   I felt relieved that the chase was over.   hopeful my sense of humor would come back.   I still don't take opiates.  I come in here every now and then .    I got the mind set the withdrawal monster wasn't near as bad as I thought.      It's so worth it.    Remember you want to stop the insanity.

[Bones07]

Thanks for everybody's encouragement .. I still feel miserable as ever ... I keep counting the minutes.. Waiting for another day. Hopefully day 6 is better.

[VICourageous]

Bones..You are not alone on the time frame. It took me a long time both physically & mentally, but I have used off & on for over 40yrs.
Try not to count the time and focus more on getting some outside Support. It is very important to do this, and especially in the beginning. WE can not walk this Journey alone! Call a friend or hit meetings or church or anything.

However, do not beat your self up. Pick your self up and move forward. This is a Disease and one that has no cure. It can be arrested at some point but a never endless Job to stay clean. Lots of things go on in the brain when we use and after we use. It all has to first balance out and then be worked on..If you get what I mean. I wish you the best!
Keep Pushing...Keep Pushing...
Bless

[Jerry198]

We are all different some post on here have had users taking piles of pills and have made it through with what seemed like ease to me and other had short term pill problems and struggled badly it just is what it is so stay in the mindset that you can do this and your body will start feeling much better in the next few days.... Day 7 was always that magic day for me but like I said we are all different stay motivated take your vitamins stay away from ALL energy drinks but if you want to eat go for it but stay on the healthy side if possible your body is looking for the new thing to give it that boost my favorite is bananas give it a try you are doing great chat with you later..

[charlie_coldturkey_tn2015]

Head up.You're doing great. Many have not reached Day 5.  You are almost there. Hang in there. It is getting easier. You will start to see a difference soon. The only thing that can stop you now is you.

I am now working on Day 24. Day 5 for me was so important because I was struggling with everything you are feeling and hurting and still scared. Would this ever let up? Would I ever feel right? What if my w/d is different?
The most important part of Day 5 was hitting that 100 hr. and over mark. To me, that was a point of no return. I did not want to go through the previous 4 days again and lose all these horrible hours I had just gone through.

I looked back on my posts from Day 5 and no, it wasn't a great day, but it was a lot Better than the previous 4. You will turn the corner. Don't give in this close to finishing this part. Is it easy every day? NO. But it is a totally new way of life without the drugs. Hang in there.

[Bones07]

Thank you Charlie it's so hard to feel strong. I feel very week at the moment. .. Well day 4 in the books welcome day 5!  I keep pushing minute by minute.. Withdrawals are still as nasty as they were on day 1. Mine haven't even eased up a tiny bit.. It's very discouraging reading peoples posts when they start feeling better on day 5 and 6.

[charlie_coldturkey_tn2015]

Stay strong. I just finished Day 23 and there are still moments when I need to count minutes and hours. It does get a lot better and easier. You are almost there. Don't give up, no matter what. I was sure many times I couldn't go any further, but I read and posted on here a lot and it got me through. You deserve to be drug free. It is SOOOOO much better.

Hang in there. You are doing great.

[Bones07]

3 hours ... And 11 minutes and I made it to day 5!

[Bones07]

I'm hoping it is Jerry I'm almost done with day 4. Just a few more hours and I'll be on day 5.

[Jerry198]

hey bones was it your last time? no shame buddy many of us have been there on again off again sometimes years others not so long and that's where this site comes in its not about judging but about helping so come back whenever you want be it day one again or day ? its all good

[Bones07]

I really hope this is my last time doing this. I can't do it anymore

[dedicatedtostop]

Hey your already 3 Days out!! I love that prase... Failure is not about falling it's about not getting back up. I was on day 5 2 weeks ago and ended up in the Hospital with a Blood clot in my leg... Needless to say, I am on Day 1 today so I can totally relate! You know what to expect, I just keep telling myself that this is the last time I will ever be in this situation again! Same thing for you!

[Bones07]

Honestly the pain was so bad I just wanted it gone so  I didn't tell the doctors anything. No i didn't score I got the shot and they gave me a script... So I did fill it ...
Took the meds on the day I broke it and the next day. Then got rid of them. It's been 3 days without anything. .. Thanks for the encouraging words..

[refills]

Hey there. You're not done yet. You want to stop the nonsense and that's a great start. Don't let a fall stop you. You had stuff happen and that's too bad That doesn't change your resolve I hope. Stick with a plan, fortify yourself with all the Thomas Recipe ingredients and remember why you want to be clean. You have an army and you were using it the right way. Stay close to us and keep posting. You are way too young to be throwing your life away. Your attitude is great and I wish you the best. You can do this. YOU CAN DO THIS!! Get a little mad at addiction. It's trying to hurt you........ike

[NeverAgain127]

Listen my friend:  It doesn't matter how many times you fall, only that you keep getting back up.  

It's progress, not perfection that we are striving for.   Ok, you relapsed. Broken bones are excruciatingly painful; I probably would have been tempted to take pain meds too.     Did you think about telling the docs/nurses giving you the shot that you were in recovery from opiates?   They might have been able to give you a powerful NSAID that was non-addicting...just a thought.

What happened after they set the bone and put your cast on?  Did you score?  It's not too late.  Just pick yourself up, and get back on the horse.  

We are here for you, honey.  You can do this.......

[Bones07]

Well to anyone still wondering I failed. I'm
Gonna start a new thread and try again....I fell at work and broke my wrist...ended up getting a shot of pain meds  :( before they reset it and cast it. I'm so disappointed in myself I was into my 5th day ... This is just heartbreaking :(

[charlie_coldturkey_tn2015]

Just thinking of you and sending prayers up .Stay strong.

[pillguy]

It's wonderful to read your story.  Keep up the great work.  The worst should be over soon.

[NeverAgain127]

Dont' use the Xanax...it's addicting.

You can do this...just put together a few more 24 hour pieces...one foot in front of the other.    All this hard work; make it count for something.

Can you go to meetings?

[spider6]

Grats on your new journey first off.

Sleep.....that's a good one.  For a lot of us sleep is like the last thing to fall into your ideal of "normal".......hey, you may be one of the lucky ones but on the off chance that you're not......try to stop worrying about it and just resign to it.  Nap when you can but you need to expend your excess energy and by that I mean "work your *ss off........anything to get you physically moving and burn that energy off.....workout routines are your best friend ........find something that suits your lifestyle.  Or dance it out..lol

You'll be turning a corner soon....it may have even happened since I started writing this post, .......you're doing awesome and I look forward to following and supporting your success.

Great peeps, advice and support here....you be in good hands friend.
Peace out. Spider..((((8))))

[Bones07]

I hope the sleep comes soon the first day and even the 2nd I didn't mind it. Now it's just ridiculous I want to sleep so bad lol but I know that's not gonna happen... I need be patient

[kyle505]

When I was getting clean I posted more about not sleeping than I did my withdrawal. I didn't find anything that worked for me; I resigned myself to being tired and was proud of what I was doing. The sleep will come. Be proud
K

[Bones07]

Thanks gnarly Kyle and Tina.
I'm still holding on the battle is defiantly getting more  brutal. Living without drugs sounds wonderful Kyle. The no sleep thing is a huge mind screw I don't think I can go much longer without sleep. I've tried every over the counter med and nothing works ...I wanna do some 1:1 therapy but not until I'm over these physical withdrawals. I have a small stash of Ativan ... 4 or 5 1mg ones. I have no more access to these ... Do you guys think it will be a good idea to take one ??