Day 6 of withdrawl! Will just 1 really hurt me?!?!

[Livngstrong]

I am on day 6 (cold turkey, no tapering) of opiate withdrawl, I am trying hard, but I just want one! I am a 36 year old female that has been on any pain pill I could get for the past 3 years! I never really had any pain with my withdraws. I had tiredness, irritability, sadness! I pushed through all that for my 3 kids! Couldn't let them know I was dying inside! Mine at the moment is the mental part of it! I could go to about 5 family members and get just one percocet! Would it really set me back or just take away the craving!?!?

[motye51]

STOP.....alright, your letting your drug addict brain get the better of you, thats all.  It's time to find that inner strength that we all have....you just have to find it.  Not even kidding, when my brain would start messing with me like this I would put my headphones in my ears and listen to anthem type music, push yourself music, even techno music, just to get a good positive beat!  I would also go in the bathroom and yell at myself in the mirror....tell myself to not be such a pansy!  Suck it up...it will pass, but your stuck in it!  You've got to get out of your head right now!  Music helped alot....push yourself, it's just that your brain is crying out right now b/c you've not put the drugs in it!  That's all....it's a ******* mind game!  Dance, jump up and down, yell, punch a wall....I don't give a ****, but get some of that built up angst OUT!!!!!

[Livngstrong]

No, I didn't cave! I wanted to, I want to bad! Still do! I have overcome and conquered a lot in my life! I had all three kids with no medicine during or after! I have always considered myself a strong person! I will admit, this is the hardest thing I have ever done! I feel weak towards it. I still haven't been to my families house for fear I won't have the power to not take a roxy 10! My brother needs me tomorrow and I can't tell him no! I guess I will see how truly strong I am tomorrow!

[dominosarah]

1 is too many, 1,000 isnt enough.  There is nothing glamorous about this addiction.  We have 2 choices...either we decide to live or we die.  You are not exempt from this.  Death is the bottom line.  You have everything to gain by getting involved with some form of recovery care.  I hope you make the right choice.

[Ndetox]

Hey girl! Please tell me you haven't caved! IBKleen is right about the detox getting harder every time. It got harder and harder for me too. I could take 3mg of Xanax at once and I would still feel horrible! I'm on day 6 of no opiates or Xanax. I'm on day two of no soma. It's really hard!
I did go to celebrate recovery last night! There was a meeting at 6pm and it lasted till 9pm. The hardest part was walking in the door. Everyone was really nice and made me feel very welcome. I believe that Jesus died for my sins and I have a personal relationship with Him. I think that is why I liked the way Celebrate Recovery is set up. It is a small group(9 people) so the next two weeks there will not be meetings because of the leaders going out of town. I'm going to find some other meetings in the area. I think I'm going to try an AA meeting Tuesday night.
I got my first blue chip and was very encouraged because everyone there has many yrs sober:)
I highly recommend you get to a meeting hon.(I'm from the Deep South;) lol)
Please keep us posted!! Praying for you! --Jess  

[msdelight]

So just like yesterday, you need to wait, redirect your thoughts and push through until the feeling passes. It will be okay. You may meet with these parents and actually get to know them now that your head is clear.  Don't give up!

[Livngstrong]

I think I would rather take my chance on the "just one" than to feel this way! It started at my daughters party. I walked in and realized I have never been around all those parents sober!