Day 8,but ...

[sadinmichigan]

is it possible by just knowing these pills are in my reach right now cause me to have (mental) the feeling of the physical aspects of withdrawal? Or am i crazy?! I am still plugging away but right now I am really not feeling good. Has anyone had that type of feeling when you know it's in your own house? This is making me very sad.

[confused456]

I am soooooo happy you finally got some sleep!!!!!! Great news for you!! Whooo-hoooooo!!

[sadinmichigan]

im a hangin'. i finally slep 3 1/2 hrs WHOOOHOOOO. You hang in there too! you almost there..I mean nothing worth while is easy and it doesn't miraculously change on day 5 but you should start feeling better from day 4 and a little more everyday now!!  I truly believe i would be fabulous by now..but that was a big mental set back for me..and it became physical. i caught my self even to try to come up with a good reason to just have 1.The mental part is everything! i literally have huge signs around my house,on my bedroom mirror,bathroom etc...simply saying..You can do this..and other things that help me. I believe in God, which means i believe in satan..so i also have a huge sign that says..satan wants you to FAIL and he's laughing at you!  it may sound crazy to others...but whatever works..right?keep on here. isn't it crazy..just to take a shower and feel like you really did something? LOL (yeah and the stench starts getting to you LMAO)So many people are pulling for all of us!!

[melly33]

you hang in there! I am in day 3 and I know if there was something in the house I would be freaking to. I did sleep but I have ativan. My legs were shaking so bad last night and I am crying all of the time, but this morning I made my self get up and take a shower (man did I stink!) and get dressed and now I am sitting in the living room completely without energy. I took my vitamins and now I am drinking an energy drink. I am still counting to 20 when the urge to swallow a pill comes on and I am doing that a lot. You are a strong person to be able to do this knowing your hubby has them. My best friend has them and I moved 3 hours away from her to get rid of the temptation cause I knew on the 3rd day she would say oh just take one it won't hurt and I would because right now I am that weak. You hang in there.

[sadinmichigan]

I did last night. Maybe I didn't take enough. I will try it again. Sorry it took so long to answer. i was just writing a novel to katy about methadone. You have a friend on it too right? please read what i wrote. i get so worked up about it..now i really am wide awake.how are you doing? I hope good. I have just started reading some of you entrys. Your kids have a good daddy! none of us are perfect..right? I constantly have to think about my kids to get through this. thanks for writing me...hugs to you.

[newmanagment]

hey sad, have ya tried melatonin for sleep help?

[sadinmichigan]

man oh man OH MAN!! Up again!! I actually was tired at midnight and was certain i would sleep alot longer than 3 hrs! Bad enough I woke up twice during that. AARGHHHH. Why can we not sleep? What is the deal with that. I have tried everything besides having someone knock me out cold.LOL I seriously have tried,and you'd think...being up since 1 am yesterday would have helped ..and the night before that etc....I had a nightmare ...my whole mouth was filled with broken pills and the jagged edges were cutting my throat!! I woke up in a sweat. I have noticed that when I do sleep I have some real wicked dreams. Very disturbing, so I don't think thats helping me .(except that one with Kurt Russel)(smile).Anyway,let the INSANITY begin!!WHOOOHOOOO going to be starting day 9. and still thinking about those @#&*@! pills. I know its still early in the game. I hate giving them thought.they certainly don't DESERVE any more of ME!! And to toxic....I AM wired like that pole!!!HAHA