Day 8,but ...

[sadinmichigan]

is it possible by just knowing these pills are in my reach right now cause me to have (mental) the feeling of the physical aspects of withdrawal? Or am i crazy?! I am still plugging away but right now I am really not feeling good. Has anyone had that type of feeling when you know it's in your own house? This is making me very sad.

[house1]

what part of michigan are you sad in?

[house1]

Does day 8 mean you have been clean for eight days?
and the other part of your post but your gripping onto a hand full of pills at the same time?

[worried878]

glad i did not have that...you must be really strong...you have done so great..hang in there

[sadinmichigan]

yeah, he locks them in his tool box at work, but always has some on him. He actually tried giving me a few when he first got his script a few days ago. I was very very mad,but threw them at him. I guess it's just the knowing. Like I told opi,at least i'm not totaly insane. I really do feel worse than i did 2 days ago. Thankyou for writing. I have relapsed too but I am hoping this is the real deal. I want it to be done with really bad.

[troubleinohio]

yes i think it makes the symptoms worse..i remember more than once when i was in the throes of the worst WD symptoms, i was trying to score more pills..i was standing there talkiing to the guy asking him if he had any "spares" and when he said yes, i remember the pain in  my legs getting even worse and my whole body was just whirling with electricity or something, I could barely walk into his garage to get the pills, the few seconds it took couldnt go by fast enough so i could get some pills in my mouth. it was awful to feel so powerless like that. At that point in my life, I bet i would have followed him off a cliff just to get a few pills down my gullet. I am so glad I am way past that part of my disease. I relapsed several times before making it as far as I am now.. never thought Id make it either but I did, thank God.   WIshing you the best of luck and strength. Im not sure how you can deal with it since your husband uses them still...cant he lock them up somewhere else outside the house or anything?

[sadinmichigan]

thanks for writin' me. I definately am feeling like im back on day3! All the stuff you said is right on.(thank god i'm not totally insane yet)LOL. i really wish i could get rid of them,but..my husband went and got his refill after he was already on day3. i know he has to work and **** but it is making it very hard for me.Really hard!! damn. he has a problem with them too but I can't make him quit. i know he's got to when he's ready. I know he wants to,but has no plans as of yet to do it. it makes me really mad. These things have already ruined alot of our relationship...and to top it off I had 2 refills left when i stopped. so..not picking them up next week will be another test. this just sucks!! how long has it been for you? Are you feeling better. anyway..thanks again i really appreciate it.