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Death, Depression etc...............
I need help today, I found out yesterday that my uncle died, now thats not a huge issue however, once again it brings up bad memories of losing a good friend and this morning when I woke up I was miserable, I ached everywhere and I couldn't get out of bed. I was late for work and I have to go to a wake tonight, I can't handle this right now, I feel like I have become an intravert in the last 24 hours, I don't want anything to do with anyone, i just want to forget about everything including my life and just sleep. I don't know what I will do in the next two days, but I'm very upset and more scared then anything........
GWH
GWH
Hi groovy...I'm a good witch, I guess...there really is no such thing as a bad witch. I'm Wiccan, otherwise known as preChristian European Shamanism, but it is pretty ecletic these days. I don't discuss it much here, as we all have different views on religion and I tend not to talk about it unless specifically asked. It's a life affirming, peaceful religion that focuses on the Divine inherent in nature and celebrates the seasons of the earth, and a whole lot more that I won't go into here..but it's all good stuff.
Jenny, I'm rooting for you woman. Just stay focused on the goal, and take Kip's advice, I am convinced he knows what he's talking about. We're all in your corner and I'm sending you strength and love.
JB..as ever, your words always reach me right in the gut. My prayers and thoughts are with you.
love,
WW
Jenny, I'm rooting for you woman. Just stay focused on the goal, and take Kip's advice, I am convinced he knows what he's talking about. We're all in your corner and I'm sending you strength and love.
JB..as ever, your words always reach me right in the gut. My prayers and thoughts are with you.
love,
WW
Hi JB,
Hope you are doing ok.
I couldn't help but really be affected by your words about the 'little deaths' then adding up to the 'big death'.
You are so right about that! Just running and hiding behind a bottle or a pills just to make it all go away temporarily, but taking such a big toll on your life just for such a short time of enjoyment.
Then, BAM, you're back into reality again, then what?
Waiting to do it all over again, and dedicating your full day to this, and this only.
Your only real focus. Sure we may work, take care of kids, go about our daily day, but me personally, i know what i'm always waiting for, to get high again, and for what, just a very short time to feel numb for a while.
It does all add up and it does catch up to us, all of us, no one is immune. Some it just catches us earlier, others it moves slower, but it always catches us sooner or later.
I've been behind my husband this entire time. I took a break with a pregnancy, plus, he was always a bit more 'active' shall we say in his drug use. I'm looking at a man that looks like he so close to death it scares me. It scares me because i am now in places that i've seen him go through and never throught i'd reach that point, never not me!!! So when i look into my husband's eyes i see my future, and it's not a pretty sight.
My husband went to detox this morning, and he's going to have help getting all the toxins out of him and hopefully find a way to stay clean once he comes home. I'm left to do this on my own, and i do have a plan. I just hope to god that god is kind enough to spare me the full brunt of withdrawal because i have to work, and my kids need their mom.
We shall see. I just wanted to tell you that you words are so true.
Addiction is a powerful beast, and i was warned, but unfortuately, you just don't believe it until you've lived it.
Good luck to you and thanks!
Lv Jenny
Hope you are doing ok.
I couldn't help but really be affected by your words about the 'little deaths' then adding up to the 'big death'.
You are so right about that! Just running and hiding behind a bottle or a pills just to make it all go away temporarily, but taking such a big toll on your life just for such a short time of enjoyment.
Then, BAM, you're back into reality again, then what?
Waiting to do it all over again, and dedicating your full day to this, and this only.
Your only real focus. Sure we may work, take care of kids, go about our daily day, but me personally, i know what i'm always waiting for, to get high again, and for what, just a very short time to feel numb for a while.
It does all add up and it does catch up to us, all of us, no one is immune. Some it just catches us earlier, others it moves slower, but it always catches us sooner or later.
I've been behind my husband this entire time. I took a break with a pregnancy, plus, he was always a bit more 'active' shall we say in his drug use. I'm looking at a man that looks like he so close to death it scares me. It scares me because i am now in places that i've seen him go through and never throught i'd reach that point, never not me!!! So when i look into my husband's eyes i see my future, and it's not a pretty sight.
My husband went to detox this morning, and he's going to have help getting all the toxins out of him and hopefully find a way to stay clean once he comes home. I'm left to do this on my own, and i do have a plan. I just hope to god that god is kind enough to spare me the full brunt of withdrawal because i have to work, and my kids need their mom.
We shall see. I just wanted to tell you that you words are so true.
Addiction is a powerful beast, and i was warned, but unfortuately, you just don't believe it until you've lived it.
Good luck to you and thanks!
Lv Jenny
are you a "good" witch or a "bad" witch? hahaha - just kidding. what kind of witch are you? are you a wiccan (sp?). i'm very curious about that kind of stuff...sorry if my questions are ignorant, but i guess that is what i am in this area.
Wren! Wow, another Witch on this forum! Yay! It's nice to not be the only one..lol. Nice to meet you you..mm and bb , as we say.
Are you by any chance the same Wren who used to post last summer?
If so, welcome back...if not, I wonder where that Wren is? I lost her email address and think of her often.
love,
WW
Are you by any chance the same Wren who used to post last summer?
If so, welcome back...if not, I wonder where that Wren is? I lost her email address and think of her often.
love,
WW
Wren, I was just wondering if you could possibly be from Colorado. At any rate, I think you are trying to say that we should stay in the here and now state of reality and get on with life. That's some good advice so stick with that, Wren. I used to feel the same way, once.
Sure, I arise each morning full of physical pain but feeling so hopeful that today will be decent and tolerable. And you know, for the most part, every day is a treat for me! Most days are well worth the effort.
I've forgiven myself of so many things lately that I can't help but be kind to myself. Kind of like the way I treat my old hounds. They are thirteen this summer and can't hunt anymore, and I can't bring myself to put them down. They bear all the scars and injuries of many battles and like me, they are survivors. And they love me, I know they do!
J.B.
Sure, I arise each morning full of physical pain but feeling so hopeful that today will be decent and tolerable. And you know, for the most part, every day is a treat for me! Most days are well worth the effort.
I've forgiven myself of so many things lately that I can't help but be kind to myself. Kind of like the way I treat my old hounds. They are thirteen this summer and can't hunt anymore, and I can't bring myself to put them down. They bear all the scars and injuries of many battles and like me, they are survivors. And they love me, I know they do!
J.B.
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