Dream or I guess nightmares

[gullysquid]

So I'm on day 11 and I got rid of all my friends and anything that deal with drugs. But my dream last night was me getting like 6 pills and hanging out with my old friends. This was sad to me because I feel that I have done a 180 swing and fully against drugs and the life it brings and this is the first time my brain has thought of this. When I woke up I didn't feel like doing drugs at all but just a shot to my confidence. I believe that alot of this fight is mentally and the confidence that you won't do drugs ever again,like a strong stance. It made me feel like my stance/defense isn't that strong. To me it is a great feeling being sober and doing things sober that you couldnt do without being high. I was feeling good about things,I knew I wasn't in the clear yet but I felt confident that an awesome sober life is ahead of me. Anyone ever have this happen to them? I still feel strong about being sober and still very motivated but it just shook things up that I would have a dream about it or like I said a nightmare.

[gnarly_1]

HI......using dreams su ck.....I have had many....I have spent entire nights going in and out of dreams about scoring and using.....it comes and goes ....when I wake im so glad it was just a dream the key here is to not let it come into you wile your awake....it is very ez to start to romancing the high....first it starts out as a thought then it becomes an obsession if not stoped it can very well become an action ....just because you stoped taking the pills does not me your well ......as addicts we need to learn how to change the very way we think to get well
both A/A and N/A offer free programs that will teach you these skills and give you the tools to remain clean and sober....detoxing is the ez part its staying clean that takes the work ....I wish you all the best in your recovery congrats on 11 days clean ....become pro/active in your recovery and you will make it to long term sobriety good luck and God bless......Gnarly  

[rockbottom1970]

I read your post on my thread about maybe slipping in and outta my son's game and I want to thank you for the idea.  That is an incredible plan because I can sit by myself, still watch my little man and I don't have to deal with the anxiety of the "main crowd".  I love it, you have lifted my spirits and I thank you for that.  I'm going to do it because i don't want to miss it.  Thanks again gully, And you too are a motivation for me.  I truly wish you all the best!=== K.J.

[rockbottom1970]

In my opinion, and it's only mine, I dont think you can go a predicted amount of time without dealing with thoughts or dreams or cravings.  From what I've been reading in this forum is addiction is a lifelong struggle.  I have read that people with years of sobriety still think and have cravings about the substance of their choice.  I'm not an expert but just ask some of them and they will tell you, it is a long struggle and that is my problem, I start to feel comfortable and then I'm back in the game again. Be strong and don't let your guard down.  Good luck!

[gullysquid]

Thank you all. I didnt want to do the meetings as most of the time I'm not really a social person or being in social situations but Ill check it out. Thats why I go here. I was thinking I am overconfident,I just wanted to feel good like its over and lift my head so to speak but Ill keep myself in check. I have had a few great feelings of "It feels so good to be sober!" I feel good about things but I realize it's not over so prepare now. I just cant wait unitl I can go a month or a week without thinking about anything dealing with drugs etc

[ang_811]

Dont beat urself up over this. Using dreams is just another way of ur body cleaning out ur system. Congrats on 11 days. U sound good but there is such a thing of bn to overconfident. I learned that the hard way. My cockiness got me to let my guard down and I relapse. I was saying I'll never use again just like u r now. What helps me now is believing at anytime I could slip up and that keeps me on my toes and keeps my guard up.

[justneedtotalk]

I have had those dreams as well.....Do not be alarmed!  Your brain is making the adjustment from high to normal....You have to consider how much the opiate use consumed your life and mind.  If you are anything like me it consumes every minute while using.....Do I have enough, where do I get more, do I have the money, can I make it until my next score etc.....Do you have a support group or attend AA or NA meetings?  If not I would highly recommend seaking them out....They are crucial for long term sobriety and you can talk about things like dreams and urges.  Keep the faith, you are doing great!  As soon as you start getting closer to a month sober you will REALLY start to feel better.  Soon you will start doing the things you used to enjoy while high....SOBER!  For me that was the biggest thrill was to actually enjoy myself without the use of pills.  It had been so long that I did not even know how to react at first.....Really consider looking into some kind of aftercare and I wish you the best of luck!!!  God Bless!