quiting hydro's cold turkey(again)

[southerngurl2]

Hey everyone, I'm going cold turkey off hydros. I tried this last week and was doing okay. Then i don't know what happened.Well I do know what happened, I got around people that were doing it and well one thing led to another. And I hate myself for it. But whats done is done. I can only move forward and try again.  But I am determined to do this. I have to for my kids and myself. (and my pocket book) lol. So tomorrow will be day one. I scheduled to do this around the weekend, so that way I can feel like **** at home. I need all the support and inspiration I can get. I just want to be normal again and not have to take a pill to feel normal. I hate that. I want to be a better mom. A better me. I want my life back. The one thing that was so bad when I went ct before was the horrible back ache.. any suggestions on that. I've got the vitamins and have been taking them for about a week and a half now. I'm just dreading the pain of wds. So everyone pray that I have the strength to get thru this. And I know I can come vent here if i need. I really need to change the people i talk to. I think that would help me alot.

[Totsie59]

My prayers are with you girl..You already know how tough it will be and your ready to try again. Good for you! I am 17 day clean off hydro and It was my first and last time to go thru that. I thought I was gonna die for the 1st few days..WOW.It's good you will have the weekend to get you started.Good luck to you and your husband. I am so glad it was only me at our house. I flushed all of my hydro and went cold turkey..Hang in there..

[kim715]

Going back to church and attending NA meetings is an excellent idea.Keep posting here as well.Lots of help and support here.Stay strong.....Peace...Kim

[southerngurl2]

I was actually thinking of going to na meetings. And I would love to start back going to church. Yeah, my husband says he wants to quit. But he's not trying yet. I'm hoping that when he sees me doing it, he'll quit too. I worry bout him. He's been on them longer than me. And its his friends that use. So I know it will be harder for him. We both need to change our lifestyle.

[kim715]

I could never taper.If I had them I took them and then worried about it when I ran out.Some can taper with success.I admire their willpower.I think for most of us though in order to do it we just have to bite the bullet and do it.Do you have any type of after care in place? Is your husband considering getting clean?

[southerngurl2]

I tried doing the taper and ran out. So I pretty much had no choice but do go ct. I think it may work for some. I just couldn't go down lower than 2 a day. then i would go back and forth between 2 or 3 a day. So maybe this will be easier. Just get it over with.. My husband also uses. Some may know that but I have told him not to get me any. No matter how bad I get. And also to not use in front of me.

[beatingthis]

I thought you were doing the taper. Do what works for you. You can do this.
I am here if you need me.

T.

[corey411]

Good for you for trying again so quickly. Hopefully you see that you can not be around pills or people that do them. It took me a few relapses to figure that one out. Try using moist heat on your back and see if that helps. It should if it is muscular. During withdrawl and for awhile after it is common for pain to seem magnified. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Ditto on the above regarding aftercare. Their is alot to learn before you can win this fight. Stay strong. Corey

[kim715]

Offering up my support and seconding what worried said about the aftercare.I know we say it all the time here,but it's so true,that the getting clean is the easy part,staying clean is much harder.All the best...Kim

[worried878]

My prayers r with u...u know more this go around..things u can do differently..u will know what to expect this time...and do remember aftercare if u did not include that last time...lots of support here and the health pages r full of great info