One of those days when you don't want to wake up!

[jenny8575309]

God damn ya'll I'm having a f ucked up day. I haven't been sleeping well for weeks.  My eyes are red and sore, I don't think i slept at all last night.  So I go to work, and i start off making mistakes at work, one of those my boss was standing right behind me questioning me while I was doing it.  My heel broke, and then the stupid lady in the store took like 10 mins making a taco, i wanted to buy a lighter and smoke a cig, but my break was only 15 mins.  On top of that she tried swiping my CC like 20 times and it wouldn't work.  I said forget it and left.  Came back up here stressed out.  Then my stupid x bf calls and stars **** with me.  Then I log into my bank account and find out that i'm $140 over drawn.  I thought I had a little bit of money in there, I knew I was stretching it.  Each fee is $35, and I have 3 of them.  So I only went a little over, but the fees are way more than i spent.  I'm not even sure if theres any more. It sux so bad, because I fkn need that money to feed my kids, and pay my rent, and my light bill.  I have no fkng idea what i'm going to do now. I'm so exhausted and tired, i'm at the end of my fkng rope.. why did this have to happen?  Why now?  Why can't i f-king sleep!  God I NEED TO SLEEP. today f-ing sux so bad i wish it was over, or better yet, i wish i called in and slept all day.  

[anotherfinemess]

to imanaddict:  don't know 'bout anyone else, but I did your breathing exercises, and I feel much better...
to Jenny, you have ALOT on your plate, I hope you realize that.  And if you're anything like me, you're growing psychotic from lack of REM sleep :)
I'm concerned about you; I hope you are opening up to someone at the meetings-  don't isolate yourself, it makes things worst.  And we have got you to sleep at night.  What have you tried?  the melatonin that dissolves under the tongue is good, as is tryptophan or benedryl or tylenol pm.  I just think that the lack of sleep makes you us so much more vulnerable to the sh*t that life throws at us.
Hang in there, you're doing it-  no one said it would be easy...
*hugs*

[IBKleen]

WOW..I am shaking just reading this post.

The highs and lows are unbelievable. Lady, you ke this up..you are going to crash and burn. You have to slow down.

Most of things that you spoke of are just "life things". When we get clean we think that everything is going to be magically ok. It doesn't work like that. We need to re-learn how to live life on life's terms. That is a process and it can't be done in one day.

In the last few days you have read the Basic Text..fell in love.....etc., etc. You are running at full speed, and you want everything right now. So do I, but I find it desn't happen in my time frame.

I am honestly concerned for you. Please relax. I know how hard it is to function without sleep. You need to take time and relax...sleep will come.

I hope you are ok.

[jenny8575309]

in exactly 40 mins

[lorcetloner]

I am glad they went from being a total mess to being ok.... that is progress....maybe you can try some unisom..(I buy the generic brand)... I took two last night before I went to bed... it took until 2:am but I did sleep from then until about 6... better than the night before.  The warm milk does help me too.... Maybe Tylenol PM will work for you..but I can not take it ... it makes my legs hurt.... I hope you can rest tonight.... What time do you get off work?

[jenny8575309]

thanks, there just ok now, I'm just really really tired.  Can't sleep for **** ever! tired of it. but thanks for your concern

[lorcetloner]

How are you Doing???? Hope things are better!!!! Keep Going!

[natalile]

hi hun
remember me yesterday? it was 1 thing after another.But YOU got me through it. These are day's none addict's have aswell & they cope. Your strong minded chick you no you don't want to relaps so yes rant & rage vent & let of some steam. Go outside & scream your lung's out then breath in though then nose out through themn mouth go on in & out in & out, Now make your fave coffee or tea. sit in a room by yourself ask you oldest if he/she can watch the other 2 for 20 min's right that done noe put your feet up relaxe feel all the tension ebbing away the tension head ache is easing your feeling calmer now. You'v had a s**ty day it's over you've done it tommorrow will be better trust me. You've had hundreds of day's like this but coped with pill's or whateva you've been addicted to now you've got to learn yourself a new way of getting through these day's. Pick up the phone & call you sponser or phone a new freind enyone who will make you laugh would be good. Laughter is exellant for feeling better you can be having the c**pest day in the world but if you have a real proper laugh you instanly feel better i'll chat again soon. this is the first time today i've been in forum so i didn't even no you where haveing a bad day. You need sleep, why is it you carn't coz of w/d or just carn't sleep? i don't no the pill's people have suggested we don't get them over here if we do it's a different name. If you don't want to go that way them play with you ear lob press it  and rub with both finger's it's a trick i learn'd in alrenet therapy ( i'm a terribale speller god ) lol. Have a hot milky drink horlicks is a realy good 1 let me no how you get on i'll send you a message when i've got kid's chilled out for the night, Hold on in there hun i've just sent you a big hug ha ha. best i could since we live thousand's ov mile's away ha ha see ya l8tr natalie keep smiling xxxx

[TJack]

2400 mg. Valerian ande 3mg sub lingual melatonin (never heard of the sub lingual type before.)  I know i can't continue to take 2 lunesta or 2 ambien crs a night.  Can i take the val and mel with a lunesta?  Do i need to go to a health food, vitamin store for these?  Thanks.  I have been fighting this sleep thing also, but it has never sent me over quite like it has Jenny.  TJack

[NautyOne]

as long as your not taking any opiates or benzos.  

[NautyOne]

I take 2 400 mg. Valerian and 3mg sub lingual melatonin.......it knocks me on my butt.  Worth a try.

[imanaddict]

Jenny....STOP and BREATHE for a minute! LOL!! count to 10 or 20 or 100, however many it takes to regain control. Your day sounds EXACTLY like one I had not too long ago. I couldn't stop crying and complaining, and no matter how many times I said,"It can't get any worse"  it did!

If today doesn't get better, tomorrow will! Hang in there girl, we all have these days from time to time.

*BREATHE IN* *BREATHE OUT* *BREATHE IN* *BREATHE OUT* *BREATHE IN* *BREATHE OUT* *BREATHE IN* *BREATHE OUT* *BREATHE IN* *BREATHE OUT* *BREATHE IN* *BREATHE OUT* *BREATHE IN* *BREATHE OUT* *BREATHE IN* *BREATHE OUT* *BREATHE IN* *BREATHE OUT* *BREATHE IN* *BREATHE OUT* *BREATHE IN* *BREATHE OUT*

Doesn't that feel better??

[avisg]

Franklly I am quite concerned about you ... what kind of support system do you have ..It seems as if you are very over whelmed .... Have you talked to the doctor about not sleeping ? You do need some rest ..... Who do you have to help you....
avis

[lorcetloner]

Hang in there sweetie... It will get better..... Keep posting !!!!   Keep posting !!!!! keep posting !!!!! get all of it out..!!!!.... The Lord will not give you more than you can handle!.... I know it is easier said than done .... just sit back... take deep breathes......We are all here for you!

[what2donow]

Calm down and take a deep breath.Im sorry everyone in your world is stupid right now!!Maybe if you take some tylonal pm and get a good nites rest you will feel better and be able to think clearly!

Lots of love!

[allaboutmary]

So sorry you are having a rotten day.  Just remember the pills won't make any of this any better. They will just cost you money you don't even have.  I know you go to N/A, can you get to a meeting and be with some people that will make you feel better ?  I have found in life usually a really bad day is followed by a good one.  Hang in there girl.  We are here for you !