Feel it

[comfortquinn]

Fearful as I can be of repeating painful history, it is important for me to understand that in a very fundamental way, it is impossible - the forces of nature are against it. In this alive world, billions of neurons are passing through each moment, altering the probabilities constantly. If I can release my self-defeating patterns, nature will do the rest. Dysfunctional patterns get passed on when I am in denial of my real self, when I can't look at and be with who I really am. If I was hurt by a certain behavior from someone as a child, I need to feel that hurt and own it as my own; otherwise, I will constantly see the world as doing it to me. I will project my pain and continually re-create the experience. There is no need for me to do this if I am willing to feel all my feelings surrounding a particular situation. This is my best weapon against repeating dysfunctional patterns. This teeming universe can come in and fill the vacuum created by my release and fill the space in me where an old wound used to be.

The world will help me to heal.

You could not step twice in the same river.
Heraclitus

[comfortquinn]

I hope you are doing the same! We will be so much stronger!  

[comfortquinn]

Yes, I am going on 3 weeks today!!!  Thanks for your support!  For me, I have to do a 1-80 with my attitude.  I see miserable people so much more clearer and it makes me want to be happier.  I want the miserable people to be happy to.  I just wish everyone could find what makes them really happy, like am FINALLY doing!!!  I really don't know if I could have gotten this far without this site and all of your support!  Thanks

[Innerstrength67]

Love your post comfort!!!
Keep reaching out and being brutally honest.
Your doing great!!!

[Dav125]

Almost 3 weeks! Thats big Comfort..At first it was one day. And now look where your at? Keep that attitude going..And keep up with the meditation and breathing..It will release alot of anxious feelings that will continue to cycle in and out for awhile to come. The great part? They become fewer and farther between...Have a great day..Dav