First day of Methadone Intake in the morning, SCARED and curious
Hi everyone.. I am honestly hoping that someone would read this and reply. So here goes, I am going to begin Methadone Detox/Treatment tomorrow morning for intake. I was told this is a counseling session, bloodwork, etc. i have no idea what to expect, so if anyone who has been though this before could help me easy my fears I would appreciate it more than you could know. Are they going to begin me on treatment tomorrow? Or am I going to have to wait until who knows and go into withdrawl and stuff...
Hi...don't be scared. They might start your treatment tomorrow. I used to be on a methadone program & it helped me stay clean. It was the best decision I ever made. When I went to my first day, they didn't start me, but it took about two weeks. Once I had started taking methadone as prescribed it took about a month for me to clean up. I had fantastic counselling where I never felt judged only encouraged... I told the truth about what I was using & wanted to stop. The methadone made me feel heaps better and I didn't need to use to get out of bed.
The first couple of days I did feel a little out of it with my dose, but that subsided as my dose was adjusted. I remember feeling guilty that I felt out of it.
I really hope they can start you tomorrow...it's always nicer to start when you want, not to wait incase you change your mind. It was nice to still take something...that way I didn't feel as if I had "quit" completely.
Go for it! It isn't as hard as I thought it would be. There are some incredibly trying moments, but they pass & life is definately better without using. Its more real. I have some very down times, just this morning I was really unhappy, but it isn't that horrible gut-wrenching tormenting sadness that was almost a physical pain that I used to feel when I was using.
(I'm logged onto someone else's account...I'm Tallullah73) - I wish you the best of luck and honestly what I wish I had done every other time I tried to stop was just stuck it out the first time I tried, because to have any kind of a life, you will need to quit using & you may as well do it today...go for it.
Just logged as me...I haven't been monitoring this site for ages & know that there is a negative feeling towards methadone. I just wanted to tell you that it doesn't matter what other people think, you need to do what is right for you. If the professionals looking after you think this will work for you, then try it...I had tried just about everything & had just moved from opiates to meth when my counsellor said try the methadone program. It worked for me.
Good luck, I'll think of you tomorrow. It will work if you want it to.
HI and welcome to the forum....I was on methadone for 6 1/2yrs I will be happy to walk you threw the procedure but want you to think long and hard b/4 you go this rout ....if your just trying to beet withdrawals dont do it.....methadone withdrawals are far worst then most other withdrawals...it took a good 90 days for me to come back around after being on the stuff
and that was after a gurling 8 1/2 mo taper....methadone should only be used for the most chronic abusers that have tried repeatedly to quit without success it is ment for sever I/V and extremely bad pill habits....if your not in one of those groups dont do it.....it was never intended to be a ''get out of jail free card'' it is a program that will put your addiction on hold so as to give you time to build up a foundation threw consoling and meetings to get yourself strong enough to stand on your own 2 feet again without active addiction getting in the way...now if you fall into one of the groups methadone can save lives....its certainly safer then shooting up and in some cases it safer then taking 25 pills a day and killing yourself with acetaminophen...just do yourself a huge favor and stay on a low dose for as short of period as possible...there are a lot of misconceptions about methadone eventually you will want to get off of it and it is difficult to say the least
if I new then what I new now I would have never taken the first dose...please dont misunderstand me...I know it saves lives and can be a helpful treatment but I also know it is over prescribed to people that have habits that dont justify going to this extream to break free from...if your on pills your withdrawals will last a week or 2 in a month you will be a lot better on methadone your sick for a month you dont start to really get better for around 90 days...you have to decide does your habit justify going from the fring pan into the fire...if it does then so be it...it beats killing yourself...on your intake you will fill out a lot of paper work they will draw blood you will meet with a dr/nurse that will give you a physical they will check you for hep-b hiv and other chronic disorders common to addicts they will establish aprox how much they think you will need depending on your habit...after all that thay will take you and dose you with 30 to 50 ml of methadone to start with...try to stay on as low of dose as you can....you will have to go there each day to get your dose...one dose will cary you threw the day...if administered right methadone will not get you high so dont go to a clinic chasing the high after your first dose the will make you sit down and wait aprox 1/2 hr to see how it effects you...you may get extremely tired from it and ''nod'' off this is one of the side effects...it will take away your withdrawals but in a sense it really is only switching your DOC to methadone it is a replacement therapy you will be requied to drop U/As to check for illicit drugs as well as prescribed benzo's...if your taking benzo's some clinics wont take you it can be very dangerous to mix the 2 and you dont get a second chance if your wrong you go into respiratory failure..please think this one threw...dont go out of fear of withdrawals we help people off pills everyday here usually at home doing it them selfs with a little support you may be able to break free of a moderate habit on your own b/4 going this rout im only telling you what I wish someone would have told me...I dont candy coat it...I wish you all the best on your decision if you need it then so be it...when your ready to get off it this fourm will still be around to help you...we can also help you now if you explain your current situation you DOC and how much your using...I will at least let you know if methadone is your only course of action...keep posting I will look for your reply good luck and God bless......Gnarly
When I started the clinic I did it because I couldnt keep a job, couldnt clean the house couldnt do anything. I was either to high or to sick. Methadone was the best thing at first. I went straight back into living life. I thought it was great but I loved the high I got. I double dosed most days. I believe it to be more addicting then any other drug. After the first year my energy crashed and I was severly depressed which I think the methadone contributed to it. I went for the wrong reasons. I wanted an easy to find fix. Im an addict and Im addicted to instant gratification. I wasted 3 years to this and my life is out of control. The hardest thing to deal with is methadone made me numb. I had no emotions. I felt like a robot. Now that Im detoxing I cant handle my emotions. If I knew what I know now I would have taken the morphine withdrawls. I was shooting everyday and the withdrawls were no where near the hell Im in right now. I wish you luck and hope you make the right choice for you. If your like most addicts including myself you know what your gonna do already and no one is gonna say anything to change your mind. MOst have to learn themselves. I had to hit rock bottom just like everybody says. Good luck
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU...
I woke up this morning with a pit in my stomach, and I was pretty much blown away with the feeling I got. Cl early, you guys are strangers... but its like whoever wrote to me so far I feel love from you guys that I havent felt in a while. I have like a little glimmer of hope actually, I was thinking about not going, but I'm out the door as I write this... Thank you so much again, for the well wishes and prayers. Oh, and if anyone wants to read this or write for when I get home.. I'll get into who I am so you have an idea. My whole life I had almost a perfect life, straight A's, cheering and softball, school activities. But the party scene and people were where I decided to go. At this time, I turned 25 recently, have done every drug except heroin, it just scared me to be honest...narcotic pain killers is what I use...I need pills to function every day... My body kills, and I feel like hell without it. TTYL - xo - Heather
I was so hoping after talking with gnarly that you would reconsider. You are so young and just starting your career...life. I very much want to see you get clean and healthy. I just wish you would have done more research and listened to the members who have been there. My fear is that you think this is the only way and you are jumping into this because you are afraid of the physical withdrawal process and you were told this is the answer.
Well, I am rambling and you are already gone. I wish you the best and hope you use the program to help your recovery, meaning I hope you get counseling and utilize any other care that is offered to you.
This is one of those things that you can only learn through experience, but I hope and pray for your sake that you really read and consider the comments of the people on this thread. I had a Lortab habit of 8-10 pills daily (off and on for 4 years or so) and I ran into a point where I wanted off but just could not face the music. After consulting with a Dr., I decided to try the methadone route and was lucky to refuse being overdosed and stayed around 20 mg at the most, for over 1.5 years. Although at first it appeared to be a saviour and in many respects it was for me, it allowed the immediate ability to function and regain some sense of direction in my life. But very deftly (just like the pills) it became a crutch and a replacement for the pill addiction.
I am on Day 8 of methadone withdrawal and I tell you that is a complete ride through h----, I am not trying to scare, but I just fell compelled as part of my healing process to try and help those that are coming after me. I know you can not truly feel what we are saying, because I had to see for myself, but I really wish I would have logged onto this site and did some sense thinking before just running into the arms of methadone.
With all that said and in consideration that you are already in, my advice would be to truly use it as method to get clean which means realizing that you are still going to have to pay the piper in the end and the longer it runs, the higher the price. I wish you the best, I do not even know you, but I just felt compelled to let it out. Good Luck and God Bless You. Stay on the site, this is fantasic resource.
Like you or someone said, there is alot of controversy around Methadone. I've heard some people say it "saved their life," but they will never get off, because getting off Methadone can be really hard.
My Brother tried Methadone and for him it was a total nightmare. He couldn't get stablilized on a dose, was always "nodding off," plus you have to be there at the crack of dawn more or less to get your dose every day.
After trying it for a few months, he went into a Detox Program that took him off it in a week. His withdrawals were so bad he used to feel like jumping out of a window. It took him a year to get over the withdrawals.
I agree with the others that to approach this with extreme caution, or you can find yourself going from the Frying Pan into the Fire.
I totally agree w/ gnarly_1, and everyone else that says "don't do it". I'm in the middle of the worst detox w/drawals I've EVER been in and it's all from methadone. I kicked a 3 gram a day habit of heroin and it was NOTHING like this. I only joined because a "friend" said that methadone will help you " not think of getting high". That's exactly what I was looking for. Unfortunately, he never told me about the detox, because he NEVER could do it. Kept going back to H. Unlike Gnarly_1 who went through 8 1/2 months of hell(and that was just the detox part of it), I'm going on 1 1/2yrs of hell (detox only. I've been there for almost 5 years now,( nice, huh?), with another year to go, at least, and believe me, I'm not bragging.
Unless you've been trying to kick a habit for a long time and can't, don't go this route. There are too many things out there to help you (nutrition is HUGE), and you'll find a lot of it on this site, plus people who genuinely care and want to help you. You're not gonna find that at a "clinic". Plus there are NON-ADDICTIVE meds that will help tremendously with the w/drawals.
With methadone, there is a light at the end of the tunnel, you just can't see how far away it is. It could be 8 1/2 months, or 2 1/2 yrs, or you could become a "lifer", who makes it down to a certain point, but can't make it any lower, so they raise their dose and stay for "life". I know a lot. Most peple can't even believe I would even try detoxing again, and the clinic won't help you with that UNLESS you run out of $, then they just drop your dose FAST. That's all the help you'll get, and unless you get lucky, most of the councilors are useless. I use to bring in info I found on the intenet that they never heard about. Nothing like counciling your councilors. It's a joke.
If you have a job, fake a flu and get good friends and family around you for a couple weeks, explain your situation, and let them be your "slaves" until you kick this. If you need some persuasion, google methadone detox w/drawal symptoms, and hand them the PAGES of side-dffects, and give them a copy. That should do it.
Unless you're going to lose your job, family, house, etc, DON'T go this route. I so wish I didn't. Even if you do hop on the done, once you get down to the low levels, the w/drawals are almost as bad a going CT, just a LOT LONGER. It'll take you the same amount of time going from, say, 80mg to 20mg as it will for you to go from 20mg to 0mg. The lower the dose, the harder the w/drawals.
People always try to compare heroin w/drawals to a REAL BAD case of the flu. Well methadone is that, x's 10, and instead of 2 weeks of hell, depending on your dose of meth, you get anywhere from 1 to 2 yrs of w/drawal symptoms. Plus, methadone gets into your liver, kidneys, pancreas, fat cells, and bone marrow, so it takes forever to get it out of your system, nevermind the massively long half-life. Worst of all, you don't even know what you're dose will need to be, and they'll keep pumping that crap into you, and most clinics don't even care how high you go, and the ones I've gone to don't help w/ any sort of payment plan. The first place was, pay in full by Friday or we detox you 5mg a DAY. This one I'm at now takes cash ONLY, $15.00 a day or NO dose. They don't detox you, they just stop "serving you", CT.
This is my opinion only, but this stuff shouldn't even be legal. Everyone would be better off kicking CT, whatever their opiate of choice was/is. I don't care if your habit was 3 grams of h a day of 5 or 6 80mg oxy's. Two or even three weeks seems like a long time to detox, but when I add all the time up I've spent in clinics,( 9 years total), my entire life has been put on pause. I actually wish I could be back in bed, curled up in a ball, going through w/drawals from heroin instead of this journey. I'll be up @ 2;30am, on this site, just to make a 24hr day not feel like 1 month. Oh, good luck finding a dr. once on this. My PCP dropped me once he heard I was on methadone, and I can't find a dr. that will take me, nevermind a dr. with methadone exp.
THINK LONG AND HARD!
Wow, its just tragic to hear about others' suffering. I am so fortunate that I have never experienced any of these negative effects of methadone. I had a clinic, a counsellor and a doctor who is an addiction specialist, and community methadone dispenser, combined with a supportive family & partner and I have only found methadone to have benefitted me by allowing me to set up a foundation from which to continue to build on my sobriety.
I had also been through the wringer with drugs and medication and I credit my recovery to the methadone. I couldnt have done it without it. As we are all unique, it is impotant to remember that different programs work for different people, and as so many people on this site seem to wish that they had been prevented from taking the methadone, I on the other hand, wish that I had been introduced to it much earlier, rather than go on the wild goose chase in search of being clean that I had to go through.
Whichever route one chooses, I think its important to stay focused on the one goal, which we all share, of eventually being clean from drugs.
Hi everyone! I'm alive and well... I first went Wednesday Morning, then got evaluated and got lab work, blah blah. Yesterday morning, saw the doctor- told him about my daily drug activity, but now in retrospect I realized that I did not get into my entire life's drug history.. I'm not sure if im supposed to, or what. Then, when I drank my first dose I said wow, that was like hamster food. This older gentleman almost spit his out at the nurse because he began laughing so hard. I'm a person who, when I'm nervous I over talk and play down any negative things im going though. I've been told before that it's a fault of mine, but hopefully as I grow, I'll deal with this issue. I think they started me on 30mg yesterday, and 29mg today.. i THINK. Know what else, I got home today and checked the messages.. A doctors office said that theres 120 pills prescription ready... this wasnt expected and I'm going though it right now.. if anyones on and has anything to say Id really appreciate and look forward to advice and some words.. thanks again guys - even though still "strangers" just knowing that people have been talking to me and I actually can say all this somewhere, not just words into blank air has felt TREMENDOUS. xo-Heather
Im happy your well. When I started at the clinic it was the best thing for me at the time. i could finally hold down a job. I could be a mom. But it didnt help for that long. The methadone depletes your energy after a year or so. You can also go way up but then its harder to come down. I was addicted to methadone on the street when I went. I love methadone but it is like a fog that covers everything in life. My best friend that I got addicted just started at the clinic. I fear for her cuz her life is to good for this. Everything is great with methadone but read up on the withdrawls. Its nothing like any other opiate. Im on day 17 and Ive been told by the people here that this will be like months till Im recovered. I would take heroin wds compared to this. The only advice I can give you is stay on a low dose and get off quick. Im not trying to change your mind about this cuz it is a good thing for a while. Mentally I needed to get it from a doctor and not hunt on the street.
Wow. I just read your note and have to say, I concur. You can pick up on my info from the note I sent to DonewithDone. I am some 10 months out in my journey and looking back, I can't believe that I was able to stop taking methadone CT with NO medical help whatsoever. I agree that this drug desperately hurts more people than it helps...it is frequently prescribed for chronic pain, which was my situation. I was worried about the tylenol in the vicodin affecting my liver!!!!! Methadone is uniquely malevolent. Technically, it's gone from your body in a few days but no one I have talked to has recovered in less than 6 months. I am only now sleeping (most the time) most of the night. And I work out like a maniac and have a very clean diet. It is HUGE in recovering from that drug to have the best nutrition you can manage and to exercise. I recommend yoga. So sorry it is taking you so long to get rid of the symptoms!
Strength and Honor
You call getting on methadone getting "cleaned up?" Ha Ha, your taking the same substance (heroin) just in synthetic man-made form! Know wonder you feel "wonderful" and back to normal!
Ive been trying to shake methadone addiction for 12 years without luck and coming off of it, is the worse feeling in the world that maybe only heroin users can relate to. Methadone makes you also develop amotivational syndrome and users go into a slump where it takes years for anything if nothing to ever get accomplished.
Don't fool yourself, your replacing one addiction for another. And to me, methadone is worse than heroin, because it's half life is so long there is a greater chance of overdose. Look it up, its the number one narcotic, that slows your respiratory drive to breathe than any other drug and causes more deaths per year now than any other drug. Sorry to break the news to you, but now you even have a bigger bear to try and conquer. Suboxone would be your best bet, NOT heroin's sister drug Methadone. Good Luck!
Hi I started going to a Dr for my back problems and broken bones from a fall. Right away he prescribes me oxys I had no idea how addictive it is or that once you take it you can't stop or else you start feeling really bad ( withdrawals) I'm not a drinker or do I like the feeling of being high on these. I didn't take it because I wanted the buzz I took it for the horrible pain. Being a hair stylist I couldn't stand on my feet all day without my back killing me. So when I started to take oxys it helped and I could work. But now I want off and told my doc, and he prescribed me methadone along with the oxys and told me to just cut back on oxys and take methadone twice a day 10 mg each. It's been a month and now I'm reading all the post and I'm thinking he screwed me again that maybe I should just try and wean off of the oxys without methadone. I'm trying to get off this stuff, not add to my stress ,its only been a month of methadone... can I just not take it and keep on taking the oxys and slowly cut back on oxys. Will I get sick if I stop methadone while still taking oxys. I'm really mad and scared I take the oxys pretty much just not to get sick I don't take it for the high , and I just want off. I'd rather deal with my back pain and problems. I'm happy if I can just take an ibuprophen. I'm so scared and tired of this. I don't have an addictive behavior just didn't know anything about it and listened and did what my doc said. What do I do how do I get off this stuff now??? It seems like the doc just keeps on writing scripts when I tell him I would like off. I mean if he's gonna write a script what should it be to get me off this stuff without getting me dependent on something else horrible. So depressed and scared that I'm hurting my body , I have kids and I've tried getting off the oxys on my own and I was so sick I couldnt take care of them. I heard of a place that helps by sedative and they put you to sleep pretty much through your withdrawals ...Idk help
Tomorrow i start methadone, I am on a 20 to 25 perc 10s a day i want off and i am terrified i dont eat any more ive lost about 50 pds I hate percs i never thought i would be one of those people but here i am. I tried cold turkey a few times to no avail so this is my last chance. wish me luck.
The problem with methadone, even though it does work for a lot of people to get them off the drugs, is that you are then stuck on methadone.
A better answer for some people, IF they qualify, is a Buprenorphine taper program, where if successful a person could be drug free in as little as 21 days, and not have to go through serious withdrawals. many people report mild to none at all.
If methadone is your best option, I agree. it's a lot better than being a junky. But drug free would be even better. Buprenorphine treatment isn't for everyone, and isn't free.
It could be used to get off the methadone later as well. Everyone's situation is different.
ok so im on month 3 of meth and have not relapsed once and i have had no desire to take a pill but i have to admit i dont like the feeling at night i am fine all day till about 7 or so i started on 50 of meth and im on 40 now but i will do it good luck to all.
the dose your on as far as an addiction in my opinion does not warrant going on a terrible drug like methadone,,believe me im not knocking you in the slightest to each there owne,and this may be a terrible addiction for you but do me a favour even though you probably already made up your mind ,,please please talk to (gnarly_1) before starting in on methadone,i am only asking you to do this to save you from a world of hurt,,,there are other ways and as bad as i was i wish i chose one of those other ways,,i read the books on methadone and read all i could about the help it can give ,,but i never read about the bad it does,,please take my advise and get ahold of him he is great and knows more about this drug than most and can help you ,,,this all comes from the love i have for addicts because im one and there are so many
its so stupid of me to try and help others that have had there posts up for years ,,what was i thinking ,,i never botherd to look at the dates when i started writeing people ,,by now these people are the ones wishing they chose another route,,best wishes to any that read this
I have to agree that each person responds differently. I was just recently discharged from a inpatient chemical dependency at a hospital. The hospital detoxed me with subuxone and it worked great but they discharged with no further help. I was listed as a high risk so no outpatient program would except me and with my job and child I could not do the MICD program. I really wanted to do the outpatient for help but the hospital counselor would only contact 1 place and was told they denied me and being high risk no place will take me. I left the hospital still having withdrawal symptoms and huge cravings for opiods, oxy, vicodin, percs, ect.... I spent the weekend searching for subuxone clinics for help and found 1 that called me back right away, scheduled me in the very next day and close to home. After meeting with the intake person they felt methadone would be better suited for me since I suffer with chronic pain. They explained with chronic pain subuxone will not help with the pain part and I run a high risk of relapsing, methadone will help with the pain and the cravings once my dose is found. My insurance covers it and with the pain controlled and cravings I can begin to get my life back. The daily visits suck but there is the possibility of going on a monthly script in the future. I am currently looking at being on methadone for a very long period of time, however I can ask to be tapered off at any time and yes it is a very slow taper but I feel that is best, it allows time for my mind to adjust and get used to the fact I am tapering off. I have found in the past a fast taper just caused me to relapse and the mental part of my addiction just wasn't ready. There is also the option of switching to subuxone (yes there is a waiting period and I'm sure other steps to take) but if I no longer need methadone for pain maintenance I can switch to subuxone for awhile and taper off that way. The most important thing for people to remember and think about is you have to do what is best for you not what others think, you have to be comfortable with your decision. Just because 1 person didn't like methadone or had trouble coming off it doesn't mean it will happen to you. Find a clinic you are comfortable with, a doctor you trust and go for it. I just started this program today but I went from feeling hopeless and depressed yesterday to feeling good about tomorrow. I hate the day to day visits but I want my life back and will do what I need to do to get that. Inpatient CD has not helped me in the past, this is my next option and have high hopes. My clinic is helpful, clean and from what I can tell they want to help me get my life back and willing to work with me any way they can. Even telling me that relapsing on the program is not the end of the world and will not cause me to get kicked out. Be honest with them, tell them what you did and move on.
Methadone withdraws???? They brought me down 5 Mgs per week and it was an easy slip out of it. Just a little more sweat than normal. In the peak of the heroin addiction I was using anywhere from .5 to 2 grams a day(whatever I could get my hands on) methadone was my savior. I have gained freedom....I tried suboxone but it made me nauseas
Hi I have my intake apointment to get into a methadone clinic tomorrow morning then on Monday I see the doctor, I have no idea what to expect tomorrow, I don't know if I'm suppose to go in withdrawing or if I'm suppose to go in with opiates in my system. I'm so scAred i will get refused for one or the other. Since you have recently been through it I was hoping you could share with me exactly what the process was like so i know what to expect and what I need to do. Thanks so much
Hi i am 28 new to this
Ive been taking heroin since my 16th birthday.
But i found love 6 yrs ago and moved away from the area
Ive been taking methadone for 5 and a half years.
I tapered down over the last 5 years from 120 right down to 5 mils
I started a home detox with tablets the doctors gave me but my withdrawals were to emmence from the right off and i felt my brain wouldn't couldn't function i couldn't even talk to my daughter who is 8 i couldn't even get up or be awake in them 10 days so i would miss out my antidepressant cause i was asleep and sleep i needed.
I gave up because i felt i was alone and took 5 mils of methadone after being in pain for 12 days.i was in bed wacked out on the tablets the doctors gave me to detox for 10 days i couldn't do anything.and when i told my worker i had taken the 5 mils i was shouted at and that made things worse.the anxiety was emmence so much so i lost weight in a month after i started bk with methadone i was a size 12 uk now im a size 6 uk and fit into 10-11 kids clothes uk
But now i am doing things alone cold turkey my docs dont know of this yet my last does was on the 9/11/13 that was half a mil i have been feeling very cold agitated pain in my legs arms anxious but its not emmence as of yet i have been using 1 zopiclone at night . And so far have been able to take my antidepressants.
I have an appointment tomorow to see a doctor this is not my usual one but im needing to tell them what i am trying to do.
Ive done a cold Turkey off heroin before i mean with nothing and i successfully made it through for months without anything but the depression kicks in and i went bk on it.
Methadone isn't a drug to be taken lightly i know this now but didn't then.
I'm able to write today and it would be nice to have someone to talk to anyone out there that has done this and comeout the other side please give me advice.today i have taken a multi vitamin and I'm not sure if i am ment to but i took a 20mils dose of beechams all in one the reccomended does.
Anyone that will help to tell me if or what more i might expect i will truly be greatful.
Enough of my ramblings its just a bit about me
hey, its nice to see all these posts from people who are in the same boat as I am in! being a heroin addict, I have gotten so so used to not having anyone to talk to that understands what people like you and I are going through, so thanks! I know this reply is a bit late, but, hey, better late than never right!?...im a heroin addict, 30 years old, and been using opiates for fifteen years now, heroin for six years...I have been on suboxone four different times, the first time I was on it was for addiction to pain pills like vicodan, Percocet, dilaudid...things like that and sub worked wonderfull for me for pain pill dependency! after detoxing from subs, and going back to using three times, and getting into heroin, and than going back onto subs after becoming addicted to heroin, I found that suboxone does not work well for heroin addiction at all, it does not by any means help whatsoever! I am now going to my first methadone appointment on Monday, five days from now, I have never ever tried methadone, not legally or illegaly, but, I now feel I have no other hope whatsoever other than to get on methadone! I can not wait to take my first dose, I am so tired of being a slave to heroin, the needle, and the dopeman...I am sooooo excited to begin methadone maintainence, I am more than ready to put the dope down and continue on with my life without being a slave to the dope and the needle...I am very lucky to be alive even, after many overdoses, and, abcesses, I have scars on my arms from abcesses and having to get them drained and having holes in my arms...methadone sounds like a god send to me after trying many many countless amounts of times to get clean...only to get sicker and sicker and sicker every time I try to kick...I just don't seem to be strong enough anymore to kick on my own...the only time I was successful was in 2011 , I kicked cold turkey and stayed clean for three months...it was wonderfull but I just cant seem to do it again, ive tried so many times just to fail...now, methadone feels like the only chance I have to get clean, I feel if I do not get on methadone, it is only a matter of time before I become another statistic of the number of people who die every single day due to heroin od...I can not say enough how excited and happy I am to begin methadone treatment and put down the needle and get on with my life and my family life once again...or instead of saying once again, I should say, finally, or, for the first time...I know im rambling, but, I am just so happy and excited!!~ heroin is so aweful, how we get into it, I do not know how or why, I just know that I would like to tell as many people as possible that heroin and all other drugs are just a waste of time and a waste of life...it will take your life over, it will ruin your life and everything in and around your life, it is the devil...do you have any advice for me with methadone clinic? any advice on how I can talk to my family, and try to help them understand my addiction without getting mad at me, or without me hurting them anymore? I have hurt them enough already, I just need them to try to understand...family is all I have in my life...idk what im trying to say or ask in this long *** paragraph... I guess it just feels good to ramble on...thanks everyone, hope to here back from you all soon!!!
I believe for some users it's an answer but for others it's the worst , I call it liquid handcuffs and I feel like another I read I'm numb , my emotions out of whack , just living and that's it I barely laugh , I'm anti social , I was an out going funny girl once , now I feel like a robot best I can describe it , going to try my luck at comming off meth again , I'm at 20 lowest Iv been was 8 and couldn't take the withdrawl while having to be a single parent and work too , the constant nausea is terrible for me nothing takes it away , I cry I can't get out of bed , I honestly honesty think methadone is the biggest mistake of my life , my opinion thou
! I started methadone in my late 20's and it's been over 10 years. If someone would of told what I know now. I would of taken methadone for a few months and tapered down!
I think for some people they have to take it to function and to help
with the cravings. But for me personally I'm not an addicted. I'm
Physically addicted but I don't crave drugs. I started on 80mg methadone not knowing any better and realized I have to go down. So
I did 40mg and 20mg and now I'm on 10mg methadone. And the withdrawals from 15mg to 10mg are the WORST for me. It's been 3 months of pain. I wish I could go back and have tapered off after 6 months. I wish someone could tell me how long the horror will last!! Every muscle hurts and my ovaries feel like a horrible toothache and I want to rip them out!! My back hurts, abdominal hurts, and depression has kicked in. I'm laying in bed with a heating pad. Any advise?
Hi I am a paraplegic I must keep my identity private, I have had 2 full spinal fusions from scoliosis. I suffer chronic back pain. I became addicted to oxycontin, it got worse and worse, changing mood, needing more. After only 8 hours the withdrawal would hit.
I am different than many addicts here, although i was also an addict. However I replaced demerol, fentanyl patches, MS Contin-morphine time release and oxycontin "just time released oxycodone".
I can have any drug I ask my doctors for and as much as I want. & years ago I changed to Methadone, 10mg pills 2 X3 per day. Methadone saved my life. While on methadone I became CEO of the family company with 75 staff members and the company has grown every year under my control.
I take methadone for chronic pain because there is little high, you actually forget to take the pills, there is a long half life, you wake up fine, not needing pills right away. Actually this is who I am now, I will be on Methadone for the rest of my life and I recently got married to a vascular physician.
My methadone story is a story of success. I do not use breakthrough pills like percocet because there is zero effect. The methadone cancels any high from opiates. However, I don't drink, smoke or do anything negative to my body. I drink green tea all day long and eat right. Mentally i'm sharper now than I was before my operations. This year my company was awarded as a top 25 small company.
All I can tell you about methadone is that is should be the 1st choice for chronic pain. Its cheap and there is not a high that maker you become emotionally addicted like Oxy did. After 7 years on Methadone at 60mg per day I can tell you I have no intention on changing anything. I wont ever stop taking it and I like the person I am when Im on Methadone.
I wish everyone well, don't be afraid of this drug. You will have to stop taking Methadone one day I wont but I know the drug well and I recommend it for opiate addiction and especially chronic pain.
Dear Para ,
You HOPE you don't have to stop taking Methadone! My husband has been on it for 12 years for chronic pain caused by cancer. He was on 4, 10 mg tabs 2X per day. His cancer hasn't relapsed, but since his cancer has no cure, he sees his oncologist every 6 months. The oncologist started him on Oxycodon & Oxycontin 18 years ago because the cancer caused holes in bones which resulted in the muscles overcompensating causing excruciating pain. Six years later, his job was eliminated and we had no insurance. Since methadone was so cheap, his doc prescribed that to replace the Oxy. Now 12 years later his oncologist is being forced to stop prescribing pain meds to patients who don't currently have cancer. The doc will prescribe for two months, cutting each quantity. He was on 240 per month, doc cut him to 180 the first month, then 90 the second month, to 0 the third month. Our primary doctor won't prescribe it, but will send him to a pain management specialist, who we've heard won't prescribe pain meds either (apparently, none in our area will, because of the high rx abuse in our state). Our primary doc told us this is happening everywhere. Last year, rheumatologists were forced to stop prescribing pain meds to their rheumatoid arthritis patients. Narcotics are only being prescribed for up to 90 days for severe diagnosis & surgeries, then you're cut off. So, even if you have severe chronic pain, you're out of luck. Hubby has been cutting his doseage, but can already barely function due to the pain. I'm thinking a methadone clinic may be his best or only option. However, he's very worried about going to a clinic. He's heard they treat everyone like crap. That you must wait hours to get your meds and he's afraid his job will find out. I'm worried too, but what else do we do?
Just reading all these comments...... sigh.... once you take your first dose, & u feel great, you won't wanna listen to anyone. That's what I did 12 years ago. It made me feel "normal".... no one told me anything about this drug 12 years ago, I thought it was a miracle. It wasn't long before I increased higher then decreased then you become a shell of a person, I no longer wanted to go to family BBQs, parties, all I wanted to do was go to work and go straight home. I isolated myself from family & friends. I was no longer my old self after a couple of years. I stopped communicating with my husband... we nearly divorced from my behavior on methadone... and I've known him since we were 6.
Just knowing someone starting on this drug makes me anxious & my palms sweat like crazy.
If only u could see me detox, then watch me go cold turkey off of it a month ago.
I sincerely hope everything will turn out good for you.
Please be careful, at least u have everything u need to know here on this site. I wish I did. I had to learn the hard way.
All the best.
hey everyone I have a question, I am currently taking at least 4 24mg hydromorph Cotin pills a day. Crushed up and sniffed. Need at least 1 just to get out of bed in the morning. Then have to use threw out the day just so I dont start to feel like crap. I no longer take these to feel a buzz. I take them so I am not violently ill with the worst w/d 's I have ever had in my life. In my teens I experimented. After I had my girls I did NO DRUGS what so ever, didnt drink, honestly I couldn't understand how people could fall into addiction and not be able to help themselves. Now look at me right? ahah maybe its my karma for being such a judgmental *****. Started off my eating a couple perks. I had severe stomach pain that none of the docs or OBGYN's were helping me with. Quickly that became more than a few up to about 10 a day and instead of orally i would crush and snort. From there I went to Morphine 30mg tablets. Didn't like them so much. then to daulidid 8mg breakthrew pills. at the very least 5 a day. After I was introduced to the hydro-morphine Cotin it got really bad really quick.... Long story short, circumstances have changed. I will no longer be able to keep myself medicated. This has been ruining my life for quite some time now, and I think maybe it's a blessing in disguise and is going to give my that extra push I need to get help. I have been contemplating going to the methadone clinic for a long time now. Im scared. Im worried about how I will feel while my dose is being stabilized. im worried about becoming tolerant to this as well and just having a new battle to deal with. I am prepared to use methadone for a long period of time, if that is whats best for me....But i need something to help me pick up the pieces and get my life back together. Being sick is not an option as ashamed as I am to say this I have 2 young children that need me to be able to function on a daily basis. I have no help, so even being sick for a day is a huge deal. idk exactly what I should do I know this is an old thread just looking for someone to talk to and get some support since I cant find it elsewhere.
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