30 days

[jenny8575309]

Hey guys I picked up my 30 day tag last night.  To tell you the truth, I feel more comfortable posting here than there.  I'm going through some isolation issues.  I guess I feel like they don't like me, and I'm shy and anxious around them.  I know it's stupid, but I have to be honest.  I try to talk to at least 5 girls everyday, and call my sponser every day.  So I realize that there is a problem, that it's me whose causing it, and I'm trying to fix it.  It's just that the girls there are so clicish, I really feel left out.  At least I have Mike, things are going really good with him.  Another issue I'm having is when I'm listening to people share the same **** over and over again, I start thinking, "This sux"  Most probably my disease talking to me, I gotta watch that and keep it in check.  I don't ever want to use again.  anyway guys thanks for being here.

[allaboutmary]

Congrat's on 30 days !  Keep it up !  Mary

[PromisedLand]

Congrats!  30 days is a great milestone!



Jim

[MICHAEL_777]

Congratulations girl.  That's awesome!!  I'll be looking for your 60 day post next month!!

[Needhelp59]

Oh Gosh, I thought at the time it was just me!!  I remember when I first stopped, I felt so alone and "unsocial."  I guess in hindsight it was because it had been years since I had been in any situation without taking xanax.  Now, after 10 months off, I feel so different.  My sense of humor is back and I feel so normal.  I had forgotten what it felt like!!

[david0263]

Congrats on 30 days.  I am having the same problem with isolating myself.  They tell me to keep coming back.  It will get better.  I have a hard time believing that but what do I know.

david

[road2recovery]

CONGRATS  on 30 days...I would look into finding a meeting where you are really comfortable...I am in the same postition..I use to go and never found one i felt a part off....SO i am looking for another smaller one...Good luck,
keep on going it only gets better!!!
r2r

[JustAYoungGirl]

I think you should try a different meeting if theres another one available where you live? Congrats on the 30 days! Its on of the little milestones! To me its still so far away that i cant quite imagine the sense of achievement il have when i reach it! Good luck wih your recovery and Take care! Keep posting it does help and the support here is amazing! xox. <3 Love & Hugs to you! <3 xox.

[lookingtofuture]

You are doing good!! I am only 19 days clean-but as far as meetings, so far-I haven't felt out of place yet. I do go to different meetings depending on my day, work-and bad craving day. Some I like more than others, but haven't felt in any of them that I wouldnt go back because of people at meeting(luckily). I don't talk yet-I sit and listen.I have alot to learn. Change up and go to a different meeting??? I have been told by other members that some you just for whatever reason aren't comfortable with-so you try another!! (same as angie269).Congrats on 30 days-have a good day!

[angie269]

Can you find a different place for meetings?  I know how you feel somtimes you think wil I  ever fit in!  Try to use it as a life lesson to never treat anyone new this way,  God will use this to turn it into good!  Hang in there and have a great day!