Hate this...

Hey guys, starting to get the sweats :( this definitely sucks...I forgot how hard it is, but I just keep trying to think of how happy I'll be when this is all over. I've been sleeping and watching movies all day, Im home alone right now and this is when its the hardest. I just keep thinking I could call my friend and go buy a few and it would be as simple as that...I dont want to though, so I just keep sitting here arguing with myself. I hate being alone during this but I dont really have a choice...so it helps to come back here and read what you guys have to say...I hope you're all doing better then me.

[Sophie20]

Hang in there!!
You've made the first big step
Maybe a hot bath? Make sure you're drinking plenty of water too

Keep going, keep going!

[GoingToMakeIt]

Your not alone if you have us!
Keep up the good work. You really can do this.

[lostmarbles]

post as much as you want and when you want to... there's always people here, as the above peeps said keep going.. you really can do this.. just a few more days xxx

[toxictome]

When you start to think about going to get more..make your self think about something else..just switch gears..

.Keep posting and reading ,...that can keep you busy for hours...LOL

YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!...I'm rooting for you!!!

Keep your eye on the prize!!!

[Bossman80]

Yes the sweats are certainly uncomfortable but stay positive....its sure beats the nausea though doesnt it?  Just remember everyone that has posted plus thousands and thousands of others have been where you are.  As everyone has said stay positive as hard as it is.  The end result sure beats the heck out using.  We're right there with ya.

[Tiffany55]

Thanks guys...trying to remember the good outweighs the bad can be hard since the thing thats been making me happy for the past 2 years has been pills, I know once I'm done I will be happier then I was before the pills, but its hard to remember that when thats what Ive been counting on to be happy for so long...im trying though. Trying to stay positive and trying not to make calls and go get pills. I keep calling and texting my mom while shes at work so she can tell me not to go...and then coming on here reminds me that its not going to get easier. It hasnt even been 24 hours and I'm already feeling like this, I know the worse has yet to come and that scares me.

[duckandcover]

lostmarbles is right on.  When it gets tough come on here and write about it.  Thinking about it and concentrating on putting it into words helped me a TON.  It got me over the worst of it.  Feeling better, a lot better, is really just around the corner.

[cathy5841]

tiffany, sorry you are having a rough day.  we are rooting for.  try taking a nice walk.  that always helped me.  it helps clear the cobwebs and you can think better.lol  hang tight..this too shall pass.

[cat9841]

I know what your going through, I myself was there only 3 weeks ago, it is hard. I too, watched movies, and went through detox a movie at a time, watching the hours go by, counting down hour by hour then day by day. even "one day at a time" was to long for me, so one hour at a time is what I had to think of. I drank green tea, watched movies, and it is better every day. hang in there, hey at least you found this fourm while detoxing, I didn't find it till I was done.
CAT

[worried878]

Hang in there sweeie...I detoxed at home alone as well....drag your self out if you can and take a walk tomorrow...stay focused...pamper yourself and let yourself just rest and feel bad for a few days...you will feel so much better in a couple of days

[NautyOne]

I've been following your struggle for a while.  your so young, and pretty.......you can do this. Those pills will just take away your beauty outside and inside.  I know it's hard, sweetie.  I have to tell you that when I heard you say you were arguing with yourself.......thats a good sign.  It was for me.  That was a turning point for me when I started doing that.  Hang in there.

nauty..................

[Tiffany55]

Im really glad I found this forum...big help!! Now if only my bathtub would work, then I'd have it made!! My body is really achey (achy) right now, I need a personal masseuse :) Any other suggestions besides baths because I really dont have one...also any suggestions on the whole leg cramp issue. again I know i say it over and over but thank you guys for all the backup, i know I dont write back all the time but I definitely read it all and it always makes me think..so thank you :)

[GoingToMakeIt]

Lots of bananas helps the legs. Calcium and magnesium too. Walking will help the cramps. Drink lots of water too. Hang in there! You will make it.

[Flutterby111]

I too went through this 3 weeks ago tomorrw-cold turkey......you can do it!!!!!  YOU CAN!!!!  Try heating pads for your legs!!!  Try a warm shower?  heated blankets....my feet were icicles...wool socks....massage your legs if you can muster up the energy when this is through treat yoursefl to a massage!!!! That's what I did.  Gatorade....bananas-goingtomakeit's right.... I couldn't walk, but if he says so-try.  I'll be checking on you tomorrow...remember...getting more pills will only drag this out and make what you've suffered all for not....be strong...you're tough as nails!!!!!  <3

[road2recovery]

I have been her almost a yr...And i have seen you post before, and then leave and come back..Which is really a good thing...I think some people will never understand how a forum can get you clean or help get you clean...I  know i never thought...BUT this has helped me more then AA or NA...I have no idea why but it just does..Maybe for me it is because every meeting i can never get up an talk...But here i can say EVERYTHING....
U can do this...And with you coming back means you want too...Remember you have to want this , and put it in your mind that u will be stronger than these damn pills..
The life i had of counting, chasing, money etc....Are just not being able to go to family functions , or my kids games etc.....was  bad...BUt that is the drugs not who we really are...I promise you, make your mind up do it, go threw those few days of bad, and come out on the other side...We will be here for you...every step of the way
r2r

[road2recovery]

no bathtub is rough..My worst thing was RLS, in arms too..SO i really feel bad for you with no  bathtub...I think you need to go the shower let the water hit you legs, as soon as you get out, wrap them in a towel and jump in bed.....And repeat...That  is all i can think of, maybe someone else can help...I just wished you had a tub..
Do u have heating pads???  to wrap around you cavles?
or a heating blanket?
i am thinking of anything right now
i am rooting for you
r2r

[Jacqui805]

I'm sorry for this struggle you're in.  I know how crappy it was for me, and I did get here to day 41 somehow.  You can do it.  Keep up with your nutrition, you'll probably be super hungry after the initial anorexia leaves you.  I used a heating pad, mental distraction (after the initial brain freak-out phase passed), and this forum the most.  It will all pass, in stages.  I swear to you it will, I hated the RLS and the only thing that worked a little there for me, was wrapping a heating pad around my legs, like r2r suggested.  Hang in there!

Jacqui