Help... I need to know why

[brandiroars386]

I need to know why I have been craving alcohol.  It is NOT my drug of choice.  It's like I can taste it, I am ashamed to admit that.  I have thought about it for the past couple of days, and it's not even noon and I am thinking about it now.  Why would that happen?  I did like to drink and I would drink when I chewed my pills, but I have never felt like I HAD to have it, ya know?  I have not had anything in my system for 136 days, not even alcohol.  This just seems so strange to me.  Any comments/advise would be greatly appreciated.

[Pat1956100]

Now I'm checking the ingredients in my GATOR ade.

[Pat1956100]

Stop my stomach is already upset.  

[msdelight]

Road kill soup? Wasn't that a rolling stones album?

[dominosarah]

So you go and get road kill and boil the bones?  

[brandiroars386]

Thanks!  I have always liked to drink in moderation, socially whatever.  I guess maybe I can't do that anymore, idk.  It's a very frustrating concept.  My husband and I talked at length about this at dinner.  He told me he always thought I drank alcoholically.  I was like WTF.  I didn't drink all the time, but he pointed out that when I did I did it up.  He pointed out that the bar tabs were always high, and mind you he was always the one who couldn't drink much bc he had to drive.  He also said it was hard to tell when I was actually drunk.  I was floored to say the least. It never affected ANYTHING in my life though.  I always went to work, hardly ever had a hangover the next day.  I didn't drink everyday until I was using the pills.  that's when I started keeping vodka in the house.  Up until then I never did.  We have been together for 18 years and he never really said anything to me like this. Kinda upset that he didn't.  Wow, unbelievable.  I drank throughout taking Suboxone too.  Not often, but I did.  The last time I did my friend and I stopped at her sisters bar at 1130 in the morning and didn't leave until around 9 pm. We were supposed to be going shopping, that didn't happen obviously.  I was very functional, and was gonna drive but her sister called my hubby to come get us.  OMG was he pi$$ed.  That was the last time and 2 weeks after was when I quit the subs.  I guess what i'm getting at is the truth is there mite be a problem there.  I had a hard enough tome admitting I was an addict, ya know? This is very depressing.

[brandiroars386]

Thanks for the advise Tswana.  I hadn't heard that before.