How on earth do I stop?

[ladymp72]

My question is I want to stay clean from opiates however I think my addiction to calling in prescriptions is part of the problem. The rush that I receive knowing I pulled one over on someone is kind of like a high. I know this may sound stupid, but any advice on this would be appreciated. Thankyou

[Rex1]

How ya feelin today bud?

Hope that ankle is getting better.

This, courtesy of my 11 year old, to help you feel better:

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What do you call a cow with no legs?

Ground beef.

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OK, so you may be worse now but we tried.

Everyone on this forum - feel better soon!

Love and bad jokes,

Rex

[Rex1]

I am going to make a bold statement here, and just hope you will trust me.

It has been my experience, and many others, that you CANNOT do this alone. This is the first step of AA/NA - "we are powerless". Yes this forum can help, but imo, you need a live body, someone close to you to help you. Who is that person in your world?

I do not know your family, but would be suprised if they acted the way you think they will. Explain the truth to them, thta you never saw this coming and didnt intend for it to happen. "Now I need your help".

Your doc might understand too.

At any rate, if its an NA meeting, where you meet a friend, or a significant other, tell someone - this will be such a relief to you, imo.

Rex

[bigmistake]

Thank you thank you Thank you for the Thomas Recipe.  I hope this works.  I had a flip out earlier today because I couldn't find any percs, but as soon as I heard I could get some, I began to feel better and was able to pull myself togther to go out and get them.  

I am so ashamed to admit that I have screwed myself so badly and gotten myself into a situation where I have to ask for help.  This is unacceptable.  My family would never understand.  I don't understand how I could have let this happen.  This is SO NOT me.  I am going to work my ass off this week and finally commit to ending this madness next Wed.  Until then, I am going to do my best to take less and less.  It is pathetic that I feel guilty going to the mall and spending a few hundred dollars on clothes for myself but won't think twice about spending that much on pk every week.  I must have wasted at least $20,000 on drugs in the last two years.  

I want to thank all of you for your support even though I feel so lame for having to come in here and tell a bunch of strangers how weak and pathetic I am.  You guys wrote back to me the first time so quickly and I seriously need to hear from you all so I don't lose my mind.  It amazes me that I have read some threads that sound like they came right out of my own brain.  Thanks!

[J. E. W.]

Doing good!!! Except for the fog in the head.. But it will pass in time..  Hows the pain management going? Good I hope. DONT WANT NO SUFFERING!!!! That would be soooooooooooooooo very hard to go through... Stay strong my friend..                         God Bless...     J.E.W.

[FINISHED!!]

Hey J,
How are YOU doing today. You've spent a lot of time helping others so you must be cruisen' along alright.

FINISHED!!

[J. E. W.]

Sorry about the 28 to manmy numbers my brains in a fog!!!!!!!!!