I didnt say I dont want to-- just that I'm not ready yet. I've been using for the last 6 years, been trying to quit for about a year now. I've given up the needle entirely and with time I'll get better-- I stopped taking the subs for a blood test (which came back normal) Support groups and counselling havent worked for me-- I've tried a dozen or so times and I'm just not that type of person. I dont believe in God (except for when I think I'm dying, like right now) but thats not the issue at hand....
I'm about to call poison control because my headache is getting pretty bad...
i live in new jersey and know a free rehab if you want to go.
not a lecture just some thoughts.
you dont want to quit-- but have been trying to quit for 6 yrs?
you are doing better now?
what means did you use to try to quit? on your own? a detox? rehab?
do you go to counseling or a support group?
with the sub program you should be receiving counseling. the subs are supposed to help stabilize you and work a recovery program.
you stopped taking the subs?
why you wanted to get high?
the poison control is supposed to be confidential.
Poison Control
The National Poison Control Center (1-800-222-1222) can be called from anywhere in the United States. This national hotline number will let you talk to experts in poisoning. They will give you further instructions.
This is a free and confidential service. All local poison control centers in the United States use this national number. You should call if you have any questions about poisoning or poison prevention. It does NOT need to be an emergency. You can call for any reason, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.
See: Poison control center - emergency number
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please break it down better for me ...how many have you taken in one day and if your last doses were Tuesdaty night anfd today is friday? I am just not understanding....how long have you been using? and have you not used since tuesday?
I am not ready to quit. I know there is an antidote but-- my understanding is that at this point the NAPQI metabolite has reached or is near reaching its maximum -- I have no health insurance as of 4 days ago so I really cant afford a trip to the ER. I asked my mother about it (shes a former nurse and pharm tech) and she said I would be fine but I dunno. That being said I've had friends who've swallowed 20 hydrocodone in under 3 hours and been perfectly fine....
Right now I'm sorta freaking myself out I think and I am very thankful for the concern-- and to debbie-- no- I'm not ready to quit. I mean I've been trying for 6 years on and off shooting heroin and popping other opiates etc. and right now is actually the best I've been doing in a while. It would be funny, in a sort of morbid way, if it wasnt an acute overdose of street drugs that did me in, but rather this. Ha.
Anyway I'm thinking about calling poison control but will they automatically call 911? If an ambulance shows up here my father will assume I'm on dope and kick me out and I have no ride of my own.... also, as I said before... I just cant afford it. I should have just moved to Canada like I threatened to do a long time ago...