I am back the new relapse queen

[dedicatedtostop]

Not gonna go into detail so of you may know me. Ii was clean for over a year and all it took was 1 time. Well here I am a year later worse off than ever. With that said I woke up one day an realized how bad I was screwing my life up, affecting my family and etc. Not to mention the fact that I am lucky I am not in jail. So I took the plunge and dove in again. I am at the end of day 2 and all has been pretty much as expected.
The difference this time... I told everyone. My whole family. My family, well I like to say thick as Theives. With that said I am FORCING my self to eat and FORCING exercise. You get out of it what you put in right?!! I have 2 little girls and a family that is my world and I know if it don't stop I will die. Crazy thing is I wasn't raised this way and I know better. I have everything in the world yet I have nothing:(... What I do feel right now is no more guilt and no more feeling like I am living a lie. But man it sure does suck. I am fighting for my life here. Anyways, I am going in with a different approach and really just wanted to get back established here. The time I quit for a year I swear I could not have done it without this forum... Just looking for more support

[dedicatedtostop]

Sorry, I have been addicted to lortab, but in my situation, the answer to your question is... I was a better person, happier than I ever had been, made good decisions and overall a "better person".. I hope that gives u some inspiration. I am sure someone w experience w your doc will come along and give you better insight. Whatever the addiction may be..... You CAN beat it if you want to bad enough!!

[confusedkitty]

hi i was just wondering since youve deen clean befor can you tell me when you finally get off meth and get over all the withdrawls do you go back to being the same person as you were when you were on it or somebody totally different???

[confusedkitty]

hi i was just wondering since youve deen clean befor can you tell me when you finally get off meth and get over all the withdrawls do you go back to being the same person as you were when you were on it or somebody totally different???

[dedicatedtostop]

Wow thanks, I needed that boost. It's like one minute I am fine then boom feeling icky again and so on and so on. You will do great because you were clean for so long before your "slip" and yes a slip only. Thanks for the encouraging post, can wait to just go to sleep tonight and have the whole day over

[tavia14]

Awesome that you are doing this! You can do this! I have relapsed so many freakin times in the past 3 years there is no way for me to keep count!!! You would think since every relapse seems to be worse and the wds are living hell I would learn!! Ugh! Such a drug addict I am!

You are doing so great and day 2 is definitely almost over! I had 50 days under my belt and slipped up last week while at my parents house vacationing :( ...Anyway thats water under the bridge and I would like to look at it as just a slip up because I caught myself RIGHT AWAY and said no way I am not doing this freakin yet again. I to have a little girl and have gone through the wds everytime watching her :( Which is so hard. So hats off to you!! You are a rockstar and doing it. And in no time will be felling better and better and better. Aftercare is what everyone says I am still working on mine ( actually looking forward to it) Keep truding forward you got this! And like you I realized this last time shoot I am lucky to be alive!!!!

[dedicatedtostop]

One foot in front of the other....... I just keep repeating it