I just simply need a little support

[mybabytwins]

I am a first time Dad of twins, 51 years old, with both of my shoulders having full rotator cup tears. Approx. 5 months ago I went to a pain clinic with MRI's in hand and was given a script for hydrocodone 10/325 - 6 per day. Well as time went by I found myself taking more and more until I ran out last weekend. My last pill was Saturday. I have been getting a few from a neighbor to hold me over however this time he was out. So I am on day 3 now and last night with some help from Melatonin I got some sleep. My wife works as a full time nurse and I stay at home with the little angels. I am suppose to go to the clinic on Thursday but considering the hell I have been going through I don't want to take them anymore. I want to be the best Dad I can be. I do have a past (9 years ago) cocaine addiction that I was able to stop via a 60 day treatment program. I don't want to be these pills anymore, I want to be free and clean from the daily schedule of living my life around a pill. I was probably taking between 7-9 10's per day. My head feels cloudy, I feel anxious, my shoulder pain is tolerable. I am taking Imodium for the runs and that seems to be helping me, along with some magnesium and potassium for the RLS's. I guess my question is....how long knowing that I have been on these pills for 5 months now will it take for me to begin to feel like a normal human being. I will not go back to the clinic. I want to be the best Daddy I can be to my little babies. I love them sooooooo much, and they give me the strength to stop taking them.

[tooter212]

Oh thank you for that post !!! We all need t be uplifted, God Bless

[mybabytwins]

Man I've got to tell you what....I have both shoulders with full thickness tears and my pain on a scale to 1-10, 10 being the worst is about a 1. It's amazing what happened to my pain. I have no more!! "Thank you Lord for understanding that I was so sincere when I reached out to you and asked for help. Not only did You get me off these terrible pills, You seemed to have reduced my pain to nothing".

[ariley13]

Great job on 6 days clean!! That is amazing that you are sleeping good. Treasure it, because you are very lucky. How is your pain doing without the opiates?

[mybabytwins]

Day 5..Great night! No problems falling asleep. Moving on into the 6th day with no hydros. Thanks for the support, it really helps.

[mybabytwins]

Thanks so much! I will not be taking anything other than Advil. More than likely I will have my shoulders injected with Cortisone for the pain. I am never going to take another prescription pill of any kind.

[tooter212]

Do not let them give you tramadol. It's harder and takes longer to get off of. They will tell you it's not additive but look it up. People on here have had a awful time coming off it.