I think i can do this

[mandy618]

like I said before my mind keeps telling me this is not going to end without using again. What is considered a high dose because I havent had any of the runs or tmmy stuff just a lot of muscle burning no motivation. Generally very uncomfortable....I was taking anywhere from 2 to i guess some days 4 10.5 mg vikes and if I didnt have those i would take 6 to 8 darvocet a day is that why the physical  isnt as dramatic is this a lot for an adict

[mandy618]

this site is such a help I feel like you ppl commenting on my posts care more for me than I could even imagine. Being a full time and mom and student and working full time too I feel as if I was only surviving with the meds....Heres a ? How do I get my fiance to be there for me and understand that his bitching is the last thing I need I am edgy and complainy and sucky but I know I wont be that way forever. I do kinda feel like somewhere along the way I lost me and I am not sure I can remember what me was without the meds.Thank you all ur advice and support gives me strength i will be looking for some meetings I want this to be over. I know that opiates effect the neurotransmitters in the brain so happiness is difficult to reach right now seeing as how my brain doesnt know what to do. How long did it take to feel normal again is there a normal...?

[worried878]

AA is good too
NA isnt a fit for all
aftercare will help ur mind mandy...and it will most likely be ur mind that does u in

do all u can do to make this ok...to get clean and stay clean..it is so worth it

[janet19]

1 is to many and 1000 is never enough. It does not matter what the dose is most people will suffer some WD. Just be glad you had a mild withdraw. I believe the amount a person takes does not put them in a different category of addiction.

Why do you think you will use again? You are here so evidently you are wanting to stop. Which is the greatest thing in the world. Addicts do still have cravings for drugs yrs after they have used. That is where it takes inner strength to stay clean. I agree with worried, a lot of the addiction has to do with your mind set. You have to want to be clean in your mind.

If I were your I would look up a aftercare program like NA to find more support. NA meetings are held all around the world. Just go to narcoticsanonymous.com and find one in your area. The members will welcome you with open arms and make you feel very comfortable.  Listen to others stories and you will find some similarity with your life. Thus by listening and sharing you will find ways to get clean and stay clean.

Good luck and God Bless on your way to a healthier and productive new lifestyle. Also keep posting here you will find some good support and advice.

[worried878]

It seems I saw this post earlier???

Ur mind will do u in mandy if u do not take control
I do not mean to be cruel...but ur convincing urself u r gonna suffer tremendowuly...and most likely u will not

Ur words in ur post say u r convinced u will not make it..and it is ur mind that is keeping u from being clean...

There is a choice to getting and staying clean..and u gotta want it..u have to take the steps to try ur best to make it come true//and even then u may relapse...it can b a lifetime struggle for an addict/specially when u convince urself that u can not do it!....but in reality u can either give into this or try ur best
Aftercare  of some type may help u lots even tho ur dose is very low
what have u tried so far?  do u have a plan?