I wish I could stop thinking about it!

[WhoIsThisPerson]

I'm new to the site.  I posted earlier today for the first time on the other community called social something so if you want to see my entire story it's on there.  I have been on vicodin for over 4 years and have had to detox from it sooooo many times, not because I wanted to but, because I ran out of pills.  I take a lot of vicodin...a lot.  Pretty ashamed to say how much but we'll just say that I can go through 180 in about 10 days.  Like I've said earlier it sucks that my body has gotten used to w/d because this time hasn't been that bad...I mean don't get my wrong it totally sucks, but has beed the easiest thus far.  And it's only day 1.  Honestly though I think it has been easier because I got on here and got my thoughts out.  They always say the first step is admitting you have a problem, and for me earlier, I hit that first step and after talking to beenthere24 I feel better.  I know what to expect with w/d and one of those is insomnia.  I wasn't sure if it was going to happen this time but as you can tell it's 2:30 am and I'm on!  Thank you to this community to help me feel like I'm not alone.  It's so nice to know that there are people out there that have not only been through it, are going through it right now, and we are there for each other.  I'm looking forward to talking to people on here...I really need to!

[toxictome]

Welcome to this forum. This is an awesome place to get clean and stay clean. I'd put it right up there w/ going to an AA/NA mtg.(That's after you've found a good one you like)! There are a lot of people here juts like you...our stories are all different, but yet the same...hope you stick around and let us help you thru this..so you can help the next...

Good Luck!

[bandnmom]

Welcome. This forum and everyone on it are lifesavers. I am 2 months clean from those lttle ******* vicodin and i can honestly say I don't think I could of done it with out this place. make this the last time you withdrawl. Stay clean and strong. The world is so different sober. I'm still learning and not ever day is as easy as the day b4 but its worth it. When i have an urge I post.

[WhoIsThisPerson]

I've seen so many people on here thanking you...now I'm saying thank you as well.  I plan on being on here as much as possible, it is my little miracle :)

[GoingToMakeIt]

You are doing good. Keep it up. Stay locked in to this forum. It is your lifeline. OneEagle mentioned the Thomas recipe. It is in my journals if you need it.

[WhoIsThisPerson]

Talk about mood swings and how it can change from hour to hour, minute to minute.  I just posted a journal entry that made me feel a lot better too.  

I want to learn more about this site.  I think it is going to help me get through this.  Getting my story off my chest, and hearing other's.  You will be seeing a lot of me around here.  I want to be that veteran person on here telling people like me "you can do it! If I can do it, you can do it"  I need friends and people who understand what I'm going through.  I've been searching for awhile and I think I might have finally found it :)

[WhoIsThisPerson]

You have made me cry, a true cry to know that I'm not alone, to know people understand me, people I don't even know care about me...thank you soooo much!  You truly don't know how much it means to me (well maybe you do! LOL)

Today in all honestly ******* sucked!  I wasn't THAT sick but the mental cravings I have are outrageous!!!!!  I can't think about anything else about those stupid pills.  They are stupid.  When I take them not only do I actually feel shittier but I am rude and not patient at all.  But yet I would do almost anything for some right now...I say almost anything but that list is very short on what I wouldn't do for them and this isn't me...this isn't me.  Why do I think I need them?  I tell myself I don't need them.  I give myself examples over and over again why I don't need them.  The things I've done in my life, things I've gone through without them and yet still like I keep saying I crave them more than anything.  I have such a mental craving unlike I thought a human could have.  I'm emotional because this is how I get when I wd...I have a headache and that is the only excuse as to why I say I need them.  But even for a headache I don't need them.  Why? Why? Why?

[Chi_Chi_Lover]

Sorry you have been through this before. Once was enough for me I hope. The site really got me through the first month and gave me the support I needed. I had no idea what to expect from WD. I was taking 30 10mg lortabs a day for almost 5 years. I have been clean for over 11 months and for the first 6 I tried to justify being clean. Now I hope and know I will never go back to that. If I can help you in any way let me know. I'll be in and out thru the day. You have been in this hell a long time you have to make your mind up to stop it's up to you but we are here to support you and lift up

[worried878]

found them...sorry

[worried878]

howdy...all of your messages are gone from my inbox?

[oneeagle]

Have you checked out Thomas Recipe on the forum? Use benadryl, sleepytime tea (celestial seasonings) maybe melatonin - for sleep. Warm/hot baths and showers relax for sleep. Heating pad on legs helps RLS>>>> watch a comedy, read a book, ride a bike, maintain an active distraction even if its a bubble bath.....do the vitamin & supplements - zinc helps RLS and niacin and others kelp foggy heads. Maintain hydration - use immidium if needed - use emetrol if it helps stomach - keep posting and you will get lots of help and advice.

[Lotsatrout]

I'm in the same boat as you only my DOC is Oxycodone.  I ALWAYS run out early and go through WD's every 2 weeks or so.  I've posted this before so I won't be longwinded but I can share your "ease" of WD's.  I remember the first time I went through them and it was absolutely terrible but as time went on I noticed that I only experience very light withdrawl symptoms for maybe 36 hours or so.  I've asked around before to see if anyone else thought that maybe our bodies build a tolerance to WD's but no one seemed to think that was the case.

Trout

[Clamity2]

Hi ! I'm glad you're here too. God and this forum saved my life. I had been through wds before because of runout and had the "flu" many times.
But I never felt like I was going through the change of a cocoon into a butterfly before. YES I really see I am going to be a much happier, better mother, family member and friend. Life REALLY gets so much better. The peace I'm starting to feel is so worth every painful day I have put into this extreamly difficult change. GRATEFUL to ALL of you.
THE PEOPLE WITH 1 DAY ARE JUST AS HELPFUL TO ME AS ANYONE. Although ibkleen, mary, hopeful, ohio, hops, addict, oxy, and all of you I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!!! Thanks

[sandee1818]

I am glad your doing somehing about it and your body is too, as thats alot of tylool for the body to process. I have always been told your body can not be revived from a tylonol overdose, so that too is a great inciniive to stop. I am proud your doing whats best for you and your body.

[flmagi]

CAUTION: this forum can be addicting.  
Have a good day at work.
Magi

[WhoIsThisPerson]

Thank you!  I understand now why people say keep posting.  I'm amazed on how much better I feel.  I'm off to bed to most likely toss and turn.  I already can't wait to get home from work tomorrow so I can come back on.  :)

[flmagi]

Welcome to the forum. We're here for you. So, I take it you have jumped in and started cold turkey. Way to go!!!!! And don't be ashamed by the amount of pills or anything. We're not here to judge you and there's always someone who has done more and been worse. The point is we're all here to try to get clean and support each other. I had gone thru withdrawels before, but not until I came to this forum did I get educated about addiction and withdrawels and what it does to our brains and body. Hang in there, stay strong and keep posting.
Magi