Fatigue

[Vibe1luv]

Oh I am so fatigued. This *****. I'm like what day nine off of thirty to fifty mgs of norco. My hips knees and ankles hurt some still. And rumbly belly. But this fatigue. And I slept seven hours solid last night.

[Vibe1luv]

So I come home from the hills and I can't help think my house is a trigger. Doh!! And duh. I went hard yesterday. Fished. Sun. Water. I had serious back pain last night. Wether from the recovery or from sittin in the boat to fish. I took an Epsom bath and was asleep by nine. Now three am and I'm wide awake. Grrrrr. I have to teach a spin class at nine and made a persona promise to myself to lift weights at 530 with my husband. This all will happen. Did I mention I've always popped half a norco before I teach!! Trigger!! I'm nervous and anxious just thinking about all that. But I gained three pounds in the past week. And I've gained ten sense the recreation use turned to daily. So this is a source of discouragement being that I had lost over a 100#s sense 2010. I had changed my life. Those pills destroyed a lot for me. Glad my family and wallet is intact.
I just had to vent. Maybe someone out there gets this aspect and can help motivate the personal trainer!!!
I have a lot of prayers happening and that means positive affirmation for me... I can.... I am.... Through the grace of my higher power goes ME!!!
XOXO

[Alldone30]

I feel like this today right at day ten! Just moving is a huge effort so I can't imagine camping right now!! Stay strong! :)

[VICourageous]

You are well on your way! It can only get better from here on out.
Keep posting and stick around. It is so nice to follow ones Journey on here.

Bless
VIC

[dominosarah]

The pills gave us a false sense of security.  I have always said it is too bad we cant see inside our bodies and see what our internal organs go thru.  That includes our brain.  Our natural endorphins have been numbed up and forgot how to work so everything is trying to heal and relearn to work.  Your hubby is right and no you wont feel like a 2 ton!!!  Hopefully tomorrow you will be down to 1 ton!!  Keep pushing thru~

[Vibe1luv]

My oh my again eight hours of sleep. I never slept this good when I was using. But woke up with the same sore back. But I am sleeping on an airmat in the woods :)
Going fishing then home today.
My awesome husband who caught his own meth addiction said we all get fatigue. It's what we do with it. You are retraining your mind to push through on its own. And it could always be fatigued but you compensate. And if you need a nap now do it. It helped put it in perspective. I don't think I'll always feel like two tons but I will learn to cope without hydro and that is awesome in itself.

[dominosarah]

I remember that heavy feeling and it does go away!!

[Vibe1luv]

Oh camping and fishing hiking and being in the forest. It's all so heavy. I feel like I weigh 300 lbs. I have to teach my spin class Tuesday. I guess I just buck up.
Thank you honey.

[dominosarah]

Energy is usually the last thing to come back.  Try to get up and move around as much as you can.  You are doing really great so keep it going!!