Day 9... Blah!!

[dedicatedtostop]

Day 9 clean and cherishing every moment. Each day gets a bit better but today has been just Blah so far. It doesn't help when it's so darn cold outside. I seem to accomplish a bit more everyday than the day before. I don't feel bad, don't feel great but do feel happy to be where I am. When I do get random thoughts of how I don't feel well, I quickly turn those thoughts around to what others are facing in this world. Childhood Cancer for example. Those moments I have is no comparasion to things of such others in this world are presented with. I have been in the bathroom the last couple days and I honestly wish now that I would not have taken the Immodium in the beginning. I wish I would have just rid myslef of all the " Poision " then. I will say, it has slowed down. I don't post too much a I find it therapeutic to reach out to those in need. I just wanted to make a quick post letting you all know that I am still going strong. Taking lots of Vitamims, drinking tons of water and I am actually eating more than I have in a long time. I have never ever been a big eater but I am forcing myself now bc I know it fuels my body. I don't really have any physical WD symptoms, just waiting to get a good burst of energy. All in good time though right!? I can't complain to much, my house I clean and my kids are taken care of. I long for the day I can get out of he house without it feeling like a chore.
Oh, and my back aches but still does not hurt like it did when I was ON the pills! You were all right on with that. Perhaps my surgery was a success afterall!

[dedicatedtostop]

Thanks All! I am going strong. Carrie, we think much alike. I actually had a good cry yesterday celebrating Veterans Day. Both of my grandfathers served ( they are still here ) and my Grandfather in law in Heaven served. They were all WW vets and I can't even put into words the admiration I have for that generation. If only the world still had those same values! All 3 of my Uncles served and 2 of them are in Heaven. I loved them so very much. I am getting a bit emotional just talking about it...

Anyways, I feel pretty good. I am thinking about getting on the treadmill here at home... But, not sure if it's a good idea since I am 4 months post op? Anyone have any thoughts on that??
I will never ever forget in early detox When I was complaining about my back hurting and Sarah said " hang in there, most people hurt less off the pills ".... Sarah, you were spot on! Carrie, I was the same way, when I was taking pills I would literally sit around and cry bc my back hurt so bad, I hobbled around like a duck. Now, it's sore of course but not PAIN!! And most certainly nothing Ibprofen can't help. I know there is going to be good days and bad but that's all part of life and I am willing to face that head on!
Sarah also told me a few years ago.. " you have to learn to be okay with being just okay for awhile ".. I have never forgotten that and I am okay with being just okay for now.

[dominosarah]

You are doing great for day 9!!  Your energy is coming back but we look for that instant gratification thing so be patient and keep moving forward!

[ScarrieAnne]

Hello Hello Hello, I am glad to see you post and stay positive, it is frigid here too, for TX anyway, but I got the fireplace going and Im still not warm, so I know how that *****.Its a good idea to put our problems in perspective when we feel hopeless, I always think about something happening to my daughter, so this is a cakewalk, or  I think of animals being abused, or our soldiers fighting for us. it helps, it might make you cry but I find a good cry is therapeutic.I wanted to tell you a brief story that happened to me on pain pills, I got on them after a serious rotater cuff injury, which I didn't have surgery for so now I have arthritis in that shoulder, when I was on thfe pills it killed me I couldn't even lift my right arm, Got of the pills and guess what? barely bothers me anymore, only in the cold wet rain.So I think the pills make it worse sometimes, Give it some time and I bet your back will feel better, just a thought, Im not a dr.! Best of luck to you today! xoxo CarrieAnne

[spider6]

Hey, great work on the 9 days!  You've got the right idea, all in time.  Soon you'll notice that the good feelings are longer and more frequent then the bad.  Keep kickin @ss! Hugs