Its official

[oxysbliss]

By the end of the month, I will be homeless once again.....Nope I dont feel well.......No I havent used...YET......but I fear I will full force...I dont have any options..anymore.....this was the last stop..........th eonly one..before I went down hooker lane once again.......

I dont know how I am......IM just awake......and feeling shitty......Not sure what to do..If you dont hear fromme you will know why...............I have a couple of days to get my stuff together and throw it all away...Considering I can carry it on my back............

Thats my update......

[FLaddict]

Email me honey... I want to talk... Or call me if you still have my number..

Love ya

[LIZZIE LOU]

WTF?   talk to us sweetie...

huggs,
kim

[oxysbliss]

I dont know how much talking I can do here ladies...This is all coming out today......................its stupid and petty but its official...................

[FLaddict]

What happened???? Why do you have to leave?? What about the BF's place??  

[LIZZIE LOU]

if you email steph...add me too.   i am so worried about you.   please talk to us.   you can come here sweetie...but you know you'll have to clean up!!!!!!!!!

big huggs,
kim

[oxysbliss]

Well there is no sense it even trying to clean up...
I have a bunch of boys in my house its busy...Ihave been crying all day off and on..when they go outside and such......so right now talking and emailing is out of the question

I will email....

I dont know about the bf..him and Ihave been on rough ground since I didnt go down over my cousins hoildays....now i really wish I could have afforded to go

[FLaddict]

Talk to the BF maybe it could just be a place to crash til you figure it out.  He may be upset you couldn't come but he should understand that you didn't have the money to go.  Please mail me.. I want to help anyway I can.. even if that is just listening.. And if you are gonne end up homeless move down to FL  at least its warm..

[oxysbliss]

I couldnt get down int he states if I tried..but thanks for the offer............

[LIZZIE LOU]

WHAT HAPPENED OXY?   WHY DO YOU "HAVE" TO MOVE?   THOUGHT EVERYTHING WAS GOING OK WITH YOUR SETUP.  

HUGGS,
KIM

p.s.    oops...sorry about the all caps...not yelling :)

[oxysbliss]

I apparently add more stress than I do help out...........
Im getting the silent treatment and allI know is.....I moving...........
so no.........things arent well with my set up............

There has been ongoing fights in the house for a while now...that was apart of my stress..>I havent been chatting much about it..becuase I dont get a heck of alot of time on the computer.................And when i am on...im doing other things..........usually something for the house or whatever...........

I dont know Lizzy..........its just the way it is right now

[emilyanne]

I am so sorry to hear of your situation...I don't know anything about it, and didn't know that you were homeless before ( guessing you were because you used the word "again"). I know there isn't much I can say, but I am here if you need to talk. Did you say you have kids?

[oxysbliss]

I do have kids but they live with their father
Yes I have been homeless before..........and will be again.....soon....

[oxysbliss]

Lizzy I sent Steph an email my computer has been messed with so Steph can you email that to Lizzy thanks

C

[oxysbliss]

I have your IM but I dont have your email...at all.......

Ask Steph for that..maybe you are both gone I dont know........I dont have much patience and I feel like Im going to throw the computer screen out the window or perhaps my hand threw it so I am gonig to stop trying to send you that email lol now

[oxysbliss]

I just had to pick a day like now where no one is really around eh? Well I will sit here and talk to myself I guess.....urgh.....I feel so hopeless and alone.....I know there are people out there..ya know..but when you have been down for so long..and never finding your way out...no matter how hard you try..makes it hard to even want to trust anyone else....I remember the last time I was sent on the street it was because I had money problems none of my own...honestly.....and my mom was helpin me..after all I had taken in my younger sister at the time so she could go to a different school...My mom lied and said she paid the rent when in fact I found out later..that she didnt.......I was devestated.......

Now, because my cousin is stressed out..Im supposed to go...maybe I can take some ownership I know it has been stressful here..but while she has been sitting on her fat ******* ass for the passed two weeks, I have cleaned the house..taken the boys here adn there...and running errands........One night last week she left and didnt ask me if I would watch the youngest one...I did anyways..but was  upset......its just stupid petty ****....

The boys are hounding me...I must go for now...

[oxysbliss]

I just had to pick a day like now where no one is really around eh? Well I will sit here and talk to myself I guess.....urgh.....I feel so hopeless and alone.....I know there are people out there..ya know..but when you have been down for so long..and never finding your way out...no matter how hard you try..makes it hard to even want to trust anyone else....I remember the last time I was sent on the street it was because I had money problems none of my own...honestly.....and my mom was helpin me..after all I had taken in my younger sister at the time so she could go to a different school...My mom lied and said she paid the rent when in fact I found out later..that she didnt.......I was devestated.......

Now, because my cousin is stressed out..Im supposed to go...maybe I can take some ownership I know it has been stressful here..but while she has been sitting on her fat ******* ass for the passed two weeks, I have cleaned the house..taken the boys here adn there...and running errands........One night last week she left and didnt ask me if I would watch the youngest one...I did anyways..but was  upset......its just stupid petty ****....

The boys are hounding me...I must go for now...

[LadySundown]

I can't let anyone go homeless. You're a good person and you have good inside of you. I used to work part time for LaCasa. It was mostly for placing Mexican families in homes and apartments. The main reason for it was the spanish speaking people couldn't apply for jobs or assistance because of the language barrier. It's not just here in my state. I will look through my papers and see what other states it covers. What it does is cut through the waiting for the people that need housing allowance and food. I know people on the board and maybe they can help. I don't think I can reach anyone until Monday. My email is ***@****
Hang on. When things get this bad, they can only get better.
Hugs.....LS

[Sashey8]

I am new to this forum but has anyone told oxy about the suboxone treatment.Wouldn't that be great if she could get on that medacine to help her with her addicton? I get very upset when I hear someone has to go to the street. Its not safe  nor  good  for  her  recovery. ***@****

[oxysbliss]

Its all very kind of you..

the waiting list is quite high where I am from...I lose assistance here as soon as I lose the house over my head.....A women shelter doesnt no longer exist in this area for just homeless women, only battered...and I am certainly not battered......

I am from Canada and we dont have the Sub program here, nothing in that nature exists other than the Meth program, which is controlled..and if I am on the street they will more than likely provide it.......around here if you cant house them, keep them drunk, and high and soon they will die...at lesat from what I can see

there are programs that exist here, yet very little...my area in Canada hasnt exactally bumped up such as other areas in Canada

[FLaddict]

I sent you an email back.. Take a hot bath a relax for tonight.. Deal with it in the morning.. If you need anything you know where to find me..