Mind Treats

[swash30]

My mind is playing treats on me...Am I strong enough to get thru this, I feel like I might relapse

[lulu747]

Yep you are in the brand new phase of your new life and believe me- you have SO much to look forward to.  Dreams will come true that you didn't believe possible.  When we take impeccable care of ourselves and pull ourselves up from the darkness the Universe (others will say God) hears us and supports us.  One day at a time and a meeting would do you a world of good.  Surround yourself with as much support as possible and begin the walk of recovery.  If you do not follow an aftercare plan then you won't be in recovery really- just an addict holding on by the skin of their teeth praying to not use.  You deserve to be successful in this.  Follow all those that have gone before you and set yourself up for success.  Believe in yourself.
And be gentle and kind.  You've been through a lot.
Proud of you...
Lu

[swash30]

I can't believe I made it thru the weekend w/o being hi.... The fist time in ova a yr. If n e one reading this is taking Vicodins please put it down... Its not worth the mental abuse, the physical I can deal with but when ur  mind start talking to u, it can drive u crazy... Dear God thank u for hearing my cries...

[IBKleen]

You had better get into some form of aftercare ASAP. Don't sit around thinking about it because you will never do it and you are on the edge as it is. Decide what is best for you and do it. Hang in there and whatever you do just don't use.

[msdelight]

Good girl! Hang in there it's going to get so much better soon!

[swash30]

Thanks, I made it thru n didn't relapse. I deleted all numbers out my phone that were access. The physical part is over, all I need is to get thru this mental part...  I quit cuz my life was based around popping a V... when my script ran out I was on the hunt n I ask myself is this what u want it like to be... So thanks for the. Kind words don't know what to do for aftercare but y'all are keeping me afloat

[msdelight]

Swash your mind is not playing treats on you, your addict brain is playing tricks on you! You are definitely strong enough to do this, you just don't believe it yet. Hang on a few more days! I remember my day 8 was absolute hell on earth mentally. Then suddenly on day eleven I had a good day, even laughed and smiled a bit. It is going to get better every day as long as you just don't use. Ms Vicodin is a liar! She's not your friend and she never was. There's a reason you quit. Focus on that. Cut all sources and make sure you have no access.  You can do this!

[Sonrissa]

Aren't you on like day 7 or 8? You've now been through the worst of the physical stuff, do you really want to go through that again?  Don't, just don't relapse. Do something to distract you. Stay focused on your recovery. What do you have planned for aftercare, if anything?  You can do this!  Stay strong! Best wishes!