Most mentally challenging thing I've endured

[PoochieRachetToe]

Hey everyone, been reading and trying to gauge some sort of time frame for a few withdrawls of Demerol, Percs and Hydrocodones...... Six months ago I started these with a prescription. I never really took X amount of pills daily. It always varied and some days nothing. Well, with my wifes help I quit cold turkey 5 days ago. I feel like days 3 and 4 were better than today. The only things that are bothering me is the lack of sleep and elevated heart rate. The chills/sweat I can deal with. Sleep and heart rate worry me. My Doc knows and knows I'm a stern S O B. He's just ask that I text him updates. I thought I would do okay after "only" six months. Bwahahahaha! I was stupid. I have a small son that I still devote time to everyday through this process. I still work my full-time job while going through this as well. It keeps me active. Today is the first day I noticed muscle soreness. Maybe because I was less busy today? Lots of walking and using of the muscles in my job. I lost 20lbs in these six months too. I am taking a multi-vitamin, fish oil, B-6 and drinking enough water, Gatorade and Cran-Grape(for the vitamin C) to have peed 13 times in 9 hours. I did however take a phenergan 25 last night to sleep. Made for a rough first half the day. Tonight is an OTC sleep aid night!  Never took benzo's for long times. They do nothing great for me. Yet, I did take a Soma today for the muscle soreness. They do not make me sleepy in the least.
I really just wanted to give some background and ask, what am I looking at time wise for improvements in sleep and Heart Rate? I was originally trying these to stop my Migraines which don't seem to respond to Triptans(sp)? I have found its easier to handle repeated headache pain than go through this nightmare. I have an excellent support system including my wife, brother and sister. I read everyones story and say DAMN! How did we all get here? Thankfully, I'm at six months. It was my idea to trash the sh!t and go cold turkey as I will not forget this too soon by going this route.
Thanks everyone

[pharma9]

Poochie...You are a wonderful person and so right.We teach by example and can not be dishonest with ourselves and others.When I decided to stop there was no tomorrow...I fizzed my stash in javex that day and started on my adventure.I remember the detox and thought to myself"this is what it is like to be Jonesing".I got through withdrawals and they taught me a lesson.Drugs do this to you.
I knew from my studies,but now the experience was personal.
I drew from that and have a real understanding of drug addiction and detox and have more empathy with others pain.
At the same time..I sometimes have a little disappointment with others because you know its the old statement"If I can do it anyone can"
I do realize that everyone is not the same as me and have great empathy for other addicts and wish to help everyone
If I did not I would not be on this forum.
do it...anyone can"

[vicki595]

Hey Poochie~~~You sound good!    :)

Vicki  xo

[PoochieRachetToe]

I agree. You really need to tell him. My wife was surprised and angry for about 5 minutes. She much rather help me through this than to find that I was having an affair. Though I could never have an affair, just too wrong. Anyway, the time has come right now. You need to let your husband know and let the kids know you have a bad case of the flu. I cannot find any excuse for waiting one, single,solitary day longer to get started. The day you choose will not be any easier than right now. I will be back to check on everyone but, I will not be back to discuss relapse. My wife by my side, we will always tell the Docs in my future as to what happen. I will never hide this as I'm not ashamed any more, only proud of my accomplishment. Its a feat that is difficult but so is raising my son to be a honorable, respectable man. How can I do that if I'm not one myself? The time is now, the place is here! Do this and get your life back. This is my day 7 morning. Lorazepam and phenergan let me sleep about 4 then 2 more hours last night. Haven'y had that since Sunday.......It was vedy, vedy nice! My 1 1/2 year old son was crawling in the bed touching and saying eyes, nose, belly button. This is the important sh!t! Be brave and follow us through that dark tunnel towards the light at the end...........there is nothing to be scared of. Get your Doc in on this. Hopefully he/she is as good as mine. If not, and also.......we are always here.

[freedom007]

First...you need to tell your husband.  The lying and secrets just keep you sick.  You will probably be pleasantly surprised by his reaction.  Even if it is a little harsh...it will be much better than for him to find out another way.  I found that out the hard way...I lied to my wife for years and was left to do this alone.  He will be able to help you and the challenges you will face over this period.

Second...attack this with everything you have.  Research amino acid protocol, vitamins, exercise, etc.  The more you do, the better you will feel.  Your body and mind need to be "jump started"...even though you will feel like doing nothing.

Third...you will get past this...and life on the other end is wonderful.  Yes, it has it's up and downs...but it is real and it can be amazing at times.

Keep posting, reading and checking in.  There are some wonderful people on this site...and we all love reading success stories.


As I always like to say..."Come and Play!"


~ Free

[tbjl]

I am going to start my cold turkey detox soon from vicodin 5/500 approximately 6 pills a day.  I am scared.  I have a wonderful husband, but I do not want to tell him.  I also have 4 children with exhausting schedules.  It is going to be so hard to keep up.  I have been reading the posts, and am inspired by both of your comments.  Taking a week off work is doable for me as I am only part time, but I will have to schedule it.  I will crave the vicodin a again when I am exhausted the next day after work, and have to take care of the kids.  This is the scariest part for me.  The wd is just a challenge that I WILL make it through if I don't work during this time, and I can post for encouragement.  Please help me.  I have not set a date yet.    

[taperme]

Sounds like you and I are in the same situation...sneezing and all! You are a day ahead of me...and it sounds like you're doing an amazing job. I've had the beating heart and sneezing as well and am definitely looking forward to them both ending. But dont' you just feel so much better about yourself at this point? Keep up the good job.