Thanks for sharing that Marla. I would say that yes, your body is going through quite the adjustment! I never used Cocaine or MDMA, but I hear that is more of a mental addiction that physical. You are a strong woman to make all these changes at once. But that is the right way to do it. Your brain can't heal if you keep using substances that affect your dopamine levels to mask the withdraw of another. You ARE doing this and you are doing great! :)

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Marlatt07

That's a good way to look at it.
I'm gonna just lay it all out.
For te past 3-4 years I've been a huge user and drug abuser. Mj EVERYDAY literally and during last summer I did cocaine and Molly a bit and I drink alot. I'm just curious as if maybe I'm having such a hard time because I quit ct on everything....

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YesLife4Me

Hi Marla,

The anxiety seems to heighten all of our other 'symptoms' or what we perceive to be symptoms. When I have gone through withdraw and recovery the only thing that really seemed to help me was to have some kind of structured day layed out in front of me so I had other things to do that kept my mind busy. Without a plan or structured day, I would tend to want to sit around (which is normal since you have no energy) and then anytime I felt anything different with my body, I would wonder if it had to do with withdraw. Maybe some of those things were there before but being on the pills I just didn't notice? As far as the anxiety goes, that IS real. I know because I suffer from it as well. Part of it comes from the unknown and that is why having some sense of control over your time or day helps. Yesterday I was having anxiety all day, but had made a plan for a day trip. I went ahead with my plan and most of the time I didn't pay much attention to my anxiety and the symptoms of PAWS that I was having. As the day progressed it passed. When it hits me I just keep telling myself 'this too shall pass". I remind myself that I don't ever have to do this again and that perhaps it is a temporary reminder of the he11 I went through so that I won't forget.

Here is a good analogy. You know that little wire inside a lightbulb that causes it to glow? Imagine that being the dopamine receptors in our brain. When we abuse pain meds it short circuits that wire to where it burns out just like a light bulb. When we are recovering after detox, our brain is trying to mend that wire so that our bodies can function like normal. Of course we have more than one wire to mend, so our bodies are doing all kinds of strange things in the process. As the 2 ends start to come together and connect again, the light bulb light flashes on and off, sparks, etc., giving us more symptoms. This process will continue for a bit until a permanent connection can be established.

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Marlatt07

Hey guys sorry I didn't get back in yesterday I was jut having a really bad day and was trying to do anything I could to not think about it. So can someone help me?
I always have weird vision like it feels like I'm high yet I'm not. Sometimes ill hear ringing in my ears but just for a brief second. I feel like everything is really starting to get to me. And I'm not liking it. I was getting better and it hit me again. I'm hoping today will be better but it's hard to tell. How do you all cope with feeling like this? I don't get it, when my anxiety hits I freak myself out so bad that I think I have no where to go or nothing todo.

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