I'm on day 39, right about there, and the mental was the worse part. I have dealt with anxiety all my life, and can totally understand worry that you don't know why. The impending doom feeling.
Mine is slightly better now, but all mine isn't wd related. But this spell is pretty bad.
Our minds produce fear at this time, fear of the unknown. And our imaginations can and usually conjure up scenarios that are way worse than anything that really can happen.
I see above you were given Clonidine, which I think is a great med for wds, and anxiety, but sometimes not enough. Perhaps look into Vistaril, a totally non addictive prescription antihistamine, but also given for anxiety, when benzo'd aren't called for, or you don't want to go the benzo route.
It doesn't really cause sleepiness either, so for anxiety, it's given usually three times a day.
Your fear of the unknown, in this case wondering if you changed for good, and wondering if it's going to be lifelong, is contributing majorly to this.
Keep going! I had to and still do tell myself there wouldn't be stories on here of people with 6 months, and I had seen one three year, if it didn't get better. It does, or everyone would have given up.
Hugs
Can you go see an addiction specialist or psychiatrist? Lay it all out there and see what they say? Seems like it might be a good idea.
I think you are suffering from anxiety and panic attacks which happens after an opiate withdrawal. If it gets really bad, go back to the ER. I think you went before and you were prescribed clonodine which would have helped. Tell them you are too afraid to take it and maybe they will either prescribe something else or reassure you that the clonodine is okay to take.
During a panic attack, you do feel like you are going crazy or about to die. They are very scary. Try deep breathing slowly in through your nose and out through your mouth. I think I have told you this before but if not it really helps. I have had many, many panic attacks and they just come out of nowhere.
Hope this helps.
OK rest assured that this is not paws this is still part of actual withdraw
Rest assured that you need more than 12 days to get better mentally.This feeling will not last and you will get feeling alot better soon.Just hang in there and give your brain the time it needs.Great job on the 13 days don't go back
I don't either. I just hate feeling like this i was good then all the sudden my head is going crazy. Making me think te same I was. It almost makes me think it's not from the pills :( my mind is trying to control me
I can't believe hydros took over my brain this bad
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