Need my medhelp homies to kick start me again!

[Gonnastop]

HOLY COW....the cravings and urge is almost unbearable right now.  My biggest fight currently is I thought thus would be well passed by now.  Since its not I'm freaking out that there's something else wrong with me. I know it's the wd but I sure could use a little more motivation and guidance. I did not anticipâté day 7 to be this bad.

One bright note...I'm not an emotional train wreck today. I was able to go visit my friend in the hospital today and was worried I would lose it when I saw him. I so much wanted to be strong for him and I made through the visit without crying.  I was able to speak with him, offer words of comfort and let him know that his 6 year old son would grow up to be a fine young man. It was the most heart wrenching experience of my life but i made it.  

I did however break out crying in the shower last night because I ran out of shaving cream and thought my world was ending.  Amazing how much damage this crap can do.

Still givin it the finger!

[meegWpaw]

You are very brave.  I think you are doing really great. :)

[Brightfutureahead]

Gonnastop...this post made me smile :) each day I feel a tad bit better than the last...it's a little over 45 days for me and I'm still dealing with some mild physical symptoms...but they are subsiding more and more everyday. I had horrible sweats and sleeplessness ...I look back and think- wow- thank goodness that's over with! (Sleep is like 60-70%..getting there). Pretty soon you will be 'looking back' and thinking the same thing!

Sorry to hear about your friend in the hospital...seems as though you were very strong (regarding the shower- not so much lol :) but hey meltdowns are just part of the process!

Think about how long you dumped those pills in your body. That 'fake' energy and euphoria may have felt good, temporarily, but they were waaay too excessive and unnatural...that's not how our bodies were made to function. Now we have to pay the piper...and it's not going to happen in a week or two! But as many have said...it's sooo worth it and a great learning experience...you will be a better person in the end :)  keep posting!

[Calikid78]

Hey buddy, im still here, checkin on ya all the time, sorry your having so mich trouble, but youve come this.far, u can do it im.sure.

[kyle505]

A week clean! A monumental event, something that you should be very, very proud of. I'm very, very proud of you.
Really, this isn't just to make you feel better...7 days is the point where your body and mind are given a little breathing room. You've fought the good fight and now you will reap the benefits. No, it's not over, but you will start to have flashes of natural, good feelings. And you will still have good days and bad days - such is life - but as I've said many times, for me even a bad day clean is sooo much better than the best day using. Finally, even if you didn't have to face the sad situation with your friend, your emotions would still be flying high. Drama is a big part of the detox process.
- Still givin it the finger - Classic.

[Bad Co]

Hey man- That must've been really rough in the hospital. I'm sorry you have to go through that at the worst times of all. As a dad myself, my eyes water thinking of your friend leaving a 6 year old behind.

As for your well being; Yesterday I was told by a friend to stop "beating myself up" and to start feeling good about the amount of time I have without drugs and for the suffering I have been able to withstand to this point. It helps to stop and think about it this way. I'm not fixed, but I'm way better today than I was 2 weeks ago.

I'm no doctor but, I think you are following the blueprint of withdrawals- First few days pretty rough, then a few days of agony, then a few days where you think "I might just make it" then a few days of discouragement because we expected to feel better by now. Then the actual healing where your strength is slowly regained. I almost sent the same cry for encouragement yesterday too. It is tough to still feel horrible after so long.
You will get better son. You will be your strong active self before you know it.