Hi, i just wanted to put my two "cents" in on this subject.... .. Ive lead a life of addiction....to the fullest extremes...... I started smoking cigarettes at age 12....(still smoking..) then at about age 14, started smoking pot.... Then at around age 17, I started snorting cocaine...very heavily I might add..... I would go day to day with about 1.5 to 3.5 grams of coke daily... After about two years of coke i got sick of feeling so paranoid and sick of just letting drugs control my body altogether. I was clean (minus the pot) for about two years. And by the way, I am married now, and the person i shared my addiction with was my current girlfriend, whom is now my wife. So we both quit together....and life was great.... But i never got over the psychological problems of being an addict, i just swept them under a metaphorical rug.... So i ran into an old buddy from high school, who was seeking his high from opiates (percs at first.) I started with percs and loved.... i mean loved how they made me feel... I felt like I had ambition in life again... The ambition i had before i stated doing coke in the first place. But then it wasnt enough... 4 perc 5's a day just wasnt doing it anymore, then 10 wasnt enough.... Until I was introduced to snorting oxycontin... I remember the first time I snorted a 40mg pill.... I puked all over the place, the buzz was so intense.... well i know this is already a long story.... but to shorten it up... (sorta) I got all the way up to about 5 80's a day...(yea i know expensive at 30-40$$ an 80, but i had a great hookup...) And by the way this was all behind my wifes back..... So what did i do, i reached out to my wife for help when i hit rock bottom (when i couldnt afford to support my habit in the dark w/o her knowing....) Well that was a bad idea all together....Turns out she herself never filled the psychological void of quitting a drug that insists on taking over the human mind.... (coke).... So at first she was so pissed off at me for hiding this from her...which then turned to curiosity about what i found so appealing about oky.... Again long story short....but she ended up just as bad as me on oxy... So then, we wanted help, by now we had an infant son, and didnt want drugs to control ourselves like it did just a couple of years ago. So i got in touch with a suboxone doctor... At first everything was great, the sub helped with w/d and made things bearable..... Everything was great again..... Until i relapsed while in outpatient suboxone treatment.... So then i was doing oxy again....as was my wife....ya know... just one more time, then were gonna start doin sub again.... Til it was about the money.... I would take subs when i couldnt afford oxy, then when we would get oxy, we would stop the subs and buy more...... Thats been about three years of that now,,,, our son is 3 years old now, and we are both in the very terrible situation of abusing both oxy and suboxone....so the point of this whole drug and alcohol induced ramble is to be careful... Suboxone is great!! but only if your psychologically ready to quit..... Im sorry for rambling, im just at wits end.... I dunno what to do anymore..... Subs dont take the edge off as much anymore.... Im scared.....