Day 6 - Thank You

[whiff]

I just wanted to take a second to thank everyone here for their stories and most of all, the support.  I found this site months ago and just lurked around and came across it again last week.  Reading everything that everyone wrote really scared me and I knew I had to stop and I did.  I'm on Day 6 now, I'm getting some sleep, some of my energy back and the chills are starting to subside.  I think the worst is over.  Now I just have to figure out how to handle life and my physical pain in a healthy way.  I just started an anti-depressant (which I've needed for years) and I really think things are going to change.  I feel stronger than ever and 6 days ago, I felt like the weakest person on earth.  There's something about taking control of your life again that gives you power.  I have power now and I haven't in quite some time because of these pain pills.  I have pain!  But I have power.  I'm going to start making GOOD decisions for myself and for my son and we're going to be just fine.

I seriously could not have done this without talking to everyone on this site, namely enemy48.  You all have given me strength and I thank you from the bottom of my heart.  My son and my family thanks you all too.  I will continue to come here every day to stay on the right path and to get support when I need it and hopefully GIVE support to someone else who might need it too.

Thank you.

[whiff]

I'm not going anywhere!  I was just feeling thankful that I was able to get through this and I really don't think I ever would have done it without finding this website and all of the wonderful people who have contributed their stories!  

And to toxictome: you are absolutely right.  My uncle who is a musician just bought me a ukelele for Christmas.  He plays it and considers it very cathartic so he got me one since I'm going through a lot right now.  I've picked it up and love it.   No Hawaiian music though!  I have a big song book of Beatles songs and stuff like that.  It's great!

[enemy48]

sniffle....That almost sounded like a goodbye note.

Please hang around a while longer...or at least lurk w/me right now.

I knew you were strong enough to do this.  Stay in touch.

Luv U much.

[toxictome]

Congrats...my story is simialr in that i wasn't taking huge amts.,(but i was taking them to "feel good") and reading some of these stories scared me, becuz i know how addiction works...i'm also a recovering  alcoholic. I didn't want to hit bottom.......

As far as staying busy...get  some hobbies or things to keep you busy. Is there something you used to enjoy doing that you stopped doing? Try to rekindle that connection...or just pick something new you'd like to learn about and do it!

It works if you work it!!!

[whiff]

I was taking Norco, about 3 pills per day.  Not that much but it was enough where I coudn't go a day without one and if it continued, I know it would've gotten out of control.  So I know my w/d was nothing compared to what some people here go through. What about you, worried878?  What's your story?

I am trying to stay positive.  I know that some of the mental stuff is going to come into play.  It already has.  I have no idea what to do with myself at night right now.  I'm just going to bed early until I can get back into some sort of routine.  Plus I'm going through a separation right now and a bunch of other stuff is going on, not to mention my back pain is back!  So it's not going to be easy but it's better than constantly worrying if my doctor is going to fill my next refill request and dealing with the guilt that comes with that sort of dependency.  It just feels so good to be free of that.  I still want them but I now I have the power to NOT take them.  Before my physical being couldn't handle not taking it.  I just went through a rough 5 days and am over that hill.  

Thanks again everyone!  

[road2recovery]

congrats...U really sound positive and that is a good thing...Mind plays a hugh part for me...So just prepare for some of the mental stuff..
Great job
r2r

[worried878]

what were u taking and how much?

[gizzy32]

congrats on 6 days. it sounds like your in a good frame of mind right now and you know what you need to do. it will only get better from here.

you are so right, there is something about taking control of your life again that feels so damn good and has now made you stronger. glad to see you on here for support, your doing great. take care and stay strong