Today is day 7 since Ive relapsed a couple tines n the past month. Everything is beginning to register n my mind again and i've got that feeling of being unstoppable again. This is how I felt when I got up to 50 sum days clean. This time I have learned more and gain more knowledge of what I need to do and what I need to stay away from. Everything is clicking. God has sum big plans for me. Prayer works! God delivered me from my withdrawls the first time I got clean. I'm pretty sure he healed my mind and the way I was thinking this time around. I was getting ready to just give n to addiction again. This way is better, way better. At the time the party scene was fun, now that I look back at it and what I've done n the past month it's like what was I thinking? I wasn't! I let my addiction rule me once again. What can I say u live and u learn! After going thru relapse after relapse I didn't think I could stop. But I did. What a great feeling! I'm kinda proud of myself! Sorry if I'm bragging but it's just a great feeling being back to living clean and sober again. I 4got about how much fun my life is sober. It's a blast.!!! Things r gonna b different this time around. I feel it n my heart! God has given me the knowledge that I've been needing. I know he has a plan for me.! The more positive things I do and the more positive thoughts I have the better my days r looking.