Quitting OC

[Cassie415]

Okay...I am a freshman in college, i've used oxycontin for the last year but never was it a problem, and i did it probably seven times a month if even. Over the summer I started doing it several times a week, then when school started up I went back to barely using.  In december (2008) i started doing it every day but only at night this lasted until mid january when i stopped (Only did it about once a week). Then about 13 days ago I started doing it again, i do it when I wake up and all day long until I go to bed. The thing is it hasn't affected my life in a negative way. I have wonderful relationships with all my family members and extended family, good friends, and if anything my grades have actually improved. Ive also been working out even while on the OC. I have about 25mg left that I am going to finish tomorrow morning and then stop. I have no way of getting them where I am and I just can't stand this double life I feel like i'm leading. I love my family so much and value their relationships that I don't want to risk them finding out. I am going to stop but my question is do you think I will have withdrawals and if so how bad? Will I be able to continue my daily life while stopping?
Thanks for the help guys...it feels great to finally get this out.

[Cassie415]

Sorry i didnt understand this " how was you getting them for it to all sudden stop"
What are u askin?

[Holliee]

how was you getting them for it to all sudden stop... I wish you the best and you can do it stay strong first 72 hrs are worst for most but everyone if different. I have been there done it

[intothedarkagain]

Get back on the wagon man.
Just because you smoked it doesn't mean you are a user again.
I am working on my first day right now.
I feel terrible, but I am putting up a fight.
I can't stay still for more than 30 seconds.
No rest for the wicked.

and by the way if you are going into WD really hard and you take one more dose it seems like to makes the next set of WDs easier.
Now is the time to make a stand.

Rock and Roll.

JSmith

[Cassie415]

ijust smoked some of my friends who still has it from home. impathetic i cudnt even last a day!!

[Cassie415]

i feel hella sick today...i am cold and hot and i cant stay comfortable. i have a fever too. i have some suboxone do you guys think i shud take it?

[Cassie415]

Thank you so much guys. I cant believe how great these forums are and i am really appreciative that you guys care enough about me, a random person, to post responses. Thanks, and yeah I think you're right i shouldn't stop for a little i should just stop for good. I really do care a lot about my family and my life and I don't want to ruin it.

[aTtHeEnD]

dezdon HIT IT RIGHT ON THE MARK HERE. It is the delvils drug. God help you - RUN FROM THOSE THINGS FOR GOD SAKES, FOR YOUR SAKES

[cathy5841]

CASSIE, YOU ARE SO SMART TO STOP NOW.  I WISH I HAD WAKEN UP BEFORE I BECAME SOMEONE I DIDNT EVEN KNOW...if you do have some w/ds just say you have the flu and get this over with now...and keep posting if the w/ds do set in.  it helps to know someone has been right where you are....

[Trademup]

Stopping "for you little" to lose the tolerance is a recipe for disaster. You will not ever lose the tolerance. Maybe the first time you use after a long hiatus you might feel something, but after that you'll be right back to extreme doses. I used to take 1 or 2 80 mg oc's a day MAX. When I relapsed some time ago I tore through 10 oc's in 2 and a half days. I am lucky not to have overdosed. Going back and forth is playing with hot fire.

[Cassie415]

Thanks guys...I take everything you say into consideration and it is really nice to meet some non judgemental people.
Dezdon-Thank you for that picture because I do care about my life and I dont want to see it turn into that.
10356 - I agree with what you said about doing it only to not withdrawal and it not even being about getting high anymore. My tolerance has gotten so high now that I barely feel anything I do. Where it used to just be a fun thing i'd do and feel really good and energized, not it's just something I do to avoid a withdrawal. Obviously its not bad withdrawal just flu like symptoms but I hate the feeling that I lost control over something stupid and it wasnt me choosing when I wanted to do it but my body saying it neeeded it. That is why I have to stop now, at least for a little so I can lose the tolerance.
THank you everyone for the help.

[snortking0308]

if your quieting oxys dont do the whole 25mg.
space it out for a couple more days. like take little chunks of the pill and chewing on.
trust me. =p
one fully a addict of oxys it's hard as **** to quite..
just stop while your still not wanting that crave.
ive seen mannnny people mess there life up over oxys  like my old friends.
if your not supposed to take them meaning just doing it for the high.
then.. stop. if you say you cant you tryed.
your full of shiii you just have to want to quite befor you can quite. get me? =p
control ..

[10356]

This is the fallacy of opiates... In the beginning they seem to give us energy make us more social we laugh more.. this is the trap.. Your physical body becomes addicted and your emotional become dependent.. You sound like a intelligent person.. getting out now and not going back will be your only saving grace.. Once the hooks are in she does not let go easy.. You may experience some discomfort maybe restless sleep but consider yourself lucky as many never walk away... I wish you well and a truly drug free life.. all that you hold dear she will steal and you will not even notice until it is to late... Be kind to yourself.. lesa

[Dezdon]

Run! Run a far as you can from this drug! Your playing with fire. You wont even see it coming. Suddenly you wake one morning, you dont have anymore pills and withdrawels are setting in hard and fast. Their comsuming everything about you. There is no relief, none. You want to curl up in a ball and just die. The only way out is a dose of more pills. Then the cycle begins.You have to constantly be on pills to avoid the reched withdrawels. Soon, your whole life revolevs around them. Your friends, your outings, there all drug related now and you better make sure you have a good deep stash.Cause if your low, the anxiety will eat at you constantly.  You wont feel yourself or normal unless you know you have a hook up coming. And you will spend the upcoming days high and looking to get high. If you dont have any,or am low, it will comsume your entire being.  You stoppped being Cassie. Your life now revoloves around avoiding the withdrawels.  Its not even about getting high anymore, its about staying out of withdrawels.
Im just touching the surface here. This will happen to you. Dont let it. Its not a toy

[LostGirl321]

Yeah you don't have any problems now but you will if you continue to use TRUST ME is not worth it eventually you will be addicted to it and it is a very powerful drug. you can function just fine without using it. get out before it runs ur life and you deal with withdrawls