Thank you that's what im gonna do, maybe run away to Spain, John
weaver is right.... focus just on your well being for now, be selfish and think of you now and only of you and your recovery, this is what matters, ponco and you are doing the best for you now, be proud of this and keep doing it !
Give yourself time to heal, you will have time to change other parts of your life after that. Try not to let yourself get worked up, you are doing all that you need to right now. Just don't use and the rest will work itself out in its own good time. You can do this. Just a little more time.