Intervention

[Madisonjsmom]

Can't my family see that I need this!  I would love to walk in a room and see my husband, mom, dad, brothers, mother in law, brother in laws, sister in laws, with ther arms open to me, saying they will help me.  My mom has told my brothers of my addiction, so I guess thats why they won't see me,  you think it would be the other way around.  I love them and their families so much.  I feel like such an outcast. I guess it's not their responseability.  Maybe I'm grasping at straws, or maybe i'm crying out for help.  It as a hold on me really bad!  I hate this damn addiction!!!

[kim715]

I think it's just sometimes our families don't know what to say or what to do.They don't know what we need from them.Have you tried just coming out and expressing to them ,in no uncertain terms, what you need from them?.They're your family hon,theres nothing wrong with asking for their help.I know we're not your real family but just know you have a ton of open arms here who want to help you.Talk to your family,let them know how you're feeling....Hugs...Kim

[HelpinUtah]

I agree with Kim.  Maybe you could ask your husband to have everyone come over and tell them all that you need their help.  Tell them you love them, but you can't do this alone without their help!  Sometimes, just getting our feelings out helps us so much!

I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. I wish I lived near you, I'd come over and hug you for as long as you need!!!  

Please be strong.  I know this is a mental struggle and that you are tired, but honey, this will pass!!!  I promise you it will get better.  Take it one day at a time and remember that the future holds great things for you, especially being clean!

My prayers are always with you!!!  Lots of love to you!!!

[owhatamistake]

Hi...What are you addicted to?  I am addicted to Vicodin.  I have been for two years and I HATE it.  Last week end I "told" on myself....to my sons and my husband (who is a Dr.).  I was terrified and SO ashamed as my husband had NO idea and only one of my sons knew...or at least had an idea.  I have tried since last week end to find a Detox Center, but have had no luck so I have started to taper by myself today...actually have cut what I was taking in half.  It is just SO nice to be able to do this in the open and talk about it....although (shockingly!) my husband doesn't really get it or is in denial and only somewhat supportive.  Too bad...I AM going to do this!  Maybe you should set everyone down and tell them what's going on and about your pain and how much you want to be free of your demon.  Maybe ask for their support in this very difficult time.  They might surprise you.  I'm not gonna lie...I AM suffering, but trying to keep my head in the game.  I SO wish I had never done this.  I have been reading this board for a couple of weeks and this is the first time I have posted, so I am now committed and totally serious.  Thanks to ALL for the great and helpful posts!
The best of luck to YOU!

[road2recovery]

I have to agree with KIM....Some families just dont' know what to say...and they don't want to say the wrong things...I just feel bad for you, because you are asking for help....WE can help...:) But i know you want your family's support...I am so sorry!!

[mr.lucky66]

I think interventions are way over rated and not that effective as evidenced by the many failures in the reality show of the same name. What's better is support from family or friends while or before treatment

[Mandapanda17]

I used to CRY when I would watch intervention, because I knew I needed help so bad! you're not alone on that one, during the last few months of my using I would cry ALL the time to my fiance, and my roomate about how badly I needed help and needed to go to rehab. they were supportive of me quitting, but not leaving to go to rehab. They were afraid that everything would fall apart if I left for even 30 days. you know, bills, house responsibilites, and all that! So, I guess I understand where they were coming from, but I was literally crying out for help, and nothing.. I motivated myself enough, tapered down to 6 pills a day instead of 20 and did it cold tukey w/ minimal vacation time. 55 days now and I feel much better. i'm so sorry you have to go through this too, what are you taking? maybe I could help you with some sort of a plan :) xoxo

[Madisonjsmom]

I am 18 days clean of opiate addiction.  I am proud of that but the mental part is so hard for me.  I cry, I crave, but I didn't cave!  Instead I posted!

[Mandapanda17]

sorry, I forgot you were already clean. lol, I'm obviously struggling mentally too, I'm also on a xanax taper currently. thankfully my dosage never went about 2mgs a day, but I don't want this to be the same as the opiate addiction was. Hang in there, it really does get easier after a while. I'm sure you're still feeling some of the physical symptoms, fatigue? that was my worst problem, and sleeping. I'm so glad you haven't caved. I caved one time in the last 55 days and took 2 pills, in a desperate attempt to control my shoulder pain, then realized that the pills honestly don't even help my pain anyway. I regretted it for days after taking them, I believe it was on day 35 for me. keep posting, stay strong and know that so many of us know EXACTLY how you're feeling!! xoxo and congrats on 18 days!!!!! Thats something to be very proud of!!

[NautyOne]

I cry ..I crave, but I didn't cave.......I love that !! , Madison......!!!

Hugs
nauty.........

[worried878]

caving?  caving in on ur standards and beliefs..ur goals for a bit...not a good thing...caving to me means giving in and never a good thing....but u can cave and come back to reality...goal is never to cave...never ever...but most do for a sec or 2 here and there....thing is dont cave in to the point of giving up....the next day it is time to get back on track

[broknbck]

It is better if you tell the people around you and explain to them what you are going through. most people do not have a clue how bad it is and just assume that all we want to do is get high.

I just told everyone as i saw them not together that i had gotten caught up in this mess and what a nightmare it is(was) and they all were very understanding. and helpful.

they will come around. i am sure that they just don't understand.

Hey, great job on 18 days!