is there any more support out there????

[newlifeahead]

Well here is day 9 and really it is day 15 without narcotics but i took 10 tramadol over the coarse of last weekend so i think it messed w me a little not sure how many days to count here. anyway i have been posting the whole time and got really only a couple responses for support here they posted 1 time and dont come back i have been working through w a friend desperate which i am thankful for we have been sticking it out together but could use some more people here. I see all these other ones that have TONS of support and others not so much. I feel like its me psoting to myself aside from desterate posting too. i have been having a terribale time w restless legs wondering how long this lasted for others it seems to let up a bit but i have been really forcing myself to stay really busy even tho sometimes i feel like i cant even pick my feet up. I start the morning feeling pretty good then feel drained after a couple hrs. Not gonna psot everythign from my bcakround u can go read my other post but i will ad that i was clean for over 2 years so i have done this before and it was the best years of my life once clean i keep looking forward to the holdiays of being clean and feeling good and taking my 10 month old trick or treating for his fisrst halloween i LOVE the fall so i am hoping that helps and i start to feel better soon. Any thoughts, comments, or jsut support will help i like to here about others journies through this too. Cnat wait to regain my life and live a abundant life that Jesus died to give us i used to be really active in the church but the past year on htese pills have robbed me of so much congrats to all that r doing this i get so happy when i see another one taking their life back from these evil pills blessings

[selfinduced]

Hi There!  Kinda in the same boat as you with the on going battle to be clean. Just want you to know you are not alone. I'm more of a lurker on this site absorbing all I can to succeed. YOU can do this!! Sounds like your doing all the right things. Each day gets better and better. Your right, the fall is a magical time, Keep up the good work. Holloween is just around the corner and you can share those precious memories with your child. It's all up to you. Hang in there.

[Psychobillyqueen]

Hey i'm on day 11 of a 4 year prescribed methadone addiction. I have no one in my life that has been ever addicted to anything. I feel alone also. There is support on here it's whether or not someone can answer your question or not I find. Have you thought about seeing a counsellor or been to n/a?

[dominosarah]

It can be pretty quiet here during the day.  

Congrats on your clean time!  The energy takes some time to come back.  Try and move around as much as you can as that will help.  Are you getting any other form of recovery care?  You deserve to life a happy clean life.  It takes alot of work but it is so worth it.  Keep fighting and hold that clean time sacred~~sara

[newlifeahead]

thanks self induced i too lurked for a while then decided it will help if i can talk to people. Do u have any clean time in yet or r u getting ready to start? thanks for ur post it made me smile:) psychobillyqueen.... congrats on day 11 wow that is great i have heard a lot of nasty stuff about methadone.... My husband knows what i am going through and he is EXTREMELY supportive and helps me alot when he gets home from work he says lets all go for a walk tho i dont feel like it i do it i know it will help in the long run. I really feel GREAT as far as my emotions, i am starting to feel again and it is AMAZING i used to get mad if the floor creaked lol now i miss my hubby i want to cuddle and i actually feel again the mental part is NOT what is hard for me its all physical i am a baby when it comes to feeling bad lol i dont "crave" the pills when i was clean i LOVED it. I lost a baby at 14 weeks and they gave me pain pills i was pretty comfortable where i was so i didnt think it would hurt BIG MISTAKE over a year later here i am still taking these damn things it always wasnt for nothign i had a surgery in that time and some cysts i would get that were REALLY painful but i was addicted the whole time. As far as aftercare goes i do NOT do na i dont like the atmosphere i am not going to go into it too much but my faith in God is what i need and before i did go to a celebrate recovery at my church for a long time. I can check back into that and start going. anyway thanks for the replys hope u both continue to get better in this i know it feels bad but we have come too far we cant go back i LOVE the life of being clean and sober

[newlifeahead]

thaks sara yes i have been forcing myself to stay busy been doing lots of cleanign walking w hubby and baby went to store grocery shopping out paying bills grocery shopping laundry mat etc stuff i would NOT have done if God had not given me strngth to do. Anyway thanks for the reply:)

[dominosarah]

Keep doing what you are doing.  It takes awhile to get our organs all working again.  They got pretty lazy for awhile!  You are doing a really great thing here so just keep pushing forward.

[disFUNctional]

The ONLY thing that helped my RLS was to lay on my side with a pillow between my knees...put a heating pad on the pillow...the RLS was the worst so give this a try!!  Good luck and keep posting!

[Psychobillyqueen]

thats so awesome that you have a husband that supports you! I just met someone two days ago not that it matters i met someone it matters that that the feeling was there! it was so awesome to feel again its always great. when he asks you to go for walks go no matter how you feel!

[selfinduced]

YOU inspire me! Yes, This is my 3rd and FINAL time relapsing. I have 13 days clean and feeling great, just guarded. I am so sorry at your loss, that had to be so very difficult. It is weird how we all came to our addictions, isn't it? The storys are all so similar, illness, loss, curiousioty...then we are pulled in. So proud of your progress. The best is yet to come!!!  I can so relate to what you say about not wanting to move around, but I find it is a godsend. Go kiss that hubby of yours and thing of all the positives in your life..... xx

[newlifeahead]

hey dysfunctional thanks i am going to try that tonight i do sleep w a body pillow between my legs but that dont help i am hoping this goes away soon it is crazy it has lasted so long it just started again and it is only almost 4 UGH we r gonna go for a walk when hubby gets home hope it helps a bit.psychobillyqueen YES i am so thankful for my husband he really is a GREAT guy who loves the Lord too so we are blessed and he is absoulutley in love w our 10 month old:) so happy u jsut met someone is that is exciting yes it is so wonderful to feel again i LOVE it selfinduced hey thanks for that comment i am glad i can inspire someone right now it sure dont feel like it lol i have realpsed several times too before i quit for the 2 years i did it several times u WILL do it this time it jsut takes that determiantion and the sick of being sick u know?? thanks for the condolances for our loss it was a BIG loss to us we struggled w fertiltiy for a while but through God ALL things are possible and we now have a beautiful 10
month old boy who is pushing buttions as i am trying to type LOL... yes we all have similar hurts and things in our life which is a big part of driving us to these pills mbut NEVER again for me i will NOT ggo throught his again for me or my family them pills arent that good .... yes moving around has been a huge help i typically am not a strong person but when i felt like i couldnt do it i said another prayer and before i knew it had another room cleaned in the house or gave my baby a bath or got a shower all stuff i thought i could not do.... i cant wait until its not a struggle and it jsut comes natural and congrats on quitting again i believe in u that this will be the last time.. keep it going 13 days is AMAZING:) great job everyone lets keep doing it!!!!

[atthebeach]

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[Ann2497]

Hi - I followed you over from your original posting.  I didn't have a chance to post yesterday but I read all of your and desperate's posts.

Glad to hear you are doing so well.  Am I right that the RLS is better?  It would be hard to sit through church LOL!

The dinner you made the other night sounded great.  Made me hungry.  I haven't been able to cook since I started my WD so I admire you for cooking.  I don't know how you do it.  My energy is just shot.  I gained so much weight from opiates it has just depressed me and zapped my energy.  What about you, have you gained any weight from opiate use?

We should all pray for each other.  God bless you.

[missyjane10]

Keep up the good work!! Tomorrow will be day 10 for me!! I feel good for the most part, still having a little issues but it is a good feeling having support from a loved one, My boyfriend makes it so much easier for me. I also took Tramadol (ultrams) for the first week, but i still think im 10 days clean from hydrocodone (dont know if thats spelled right) just keep up the good work and dont look back. Congrats :)

[missyjane10]

ohh and i also have been praying, couldnt of done it without god :)

[desperatetobefree]

heyy gurl..lol...i finally found ur new post,im such a techno phobe,lol.
its 11 am here in green Ireland and it looks to be a lovely sunny day so far,and they come few and far between on this lil island i tell ya,so thats a good start,sun always makes me more happy,and God knows i need to feel a bit happy,a lil bit of anxiety creeping up,very slight cuz i really try hard to keep it in check thru prayer and good thoughts but im realllly struggling with temptation which is crazyyyy cuz im happier than ever so i dont get it,but im literally batteling with myself every hour not to use again,at least one of my previous addictions,ie,codeine,tramadol,or morphine,keep saying to myself i can just use one and ill be ok,,aaggghh,
i cant wait till this feeling of fear that im gonna use again goes away and also the energy thing,,,,well im praying that i can do more than just wake eat sleep and shower in the next few days,im sooo tired all the time,like lead to my legs,but saying all that im soooooo HAPPY i did this and about the feelings coming back,wow i have a personality at last and i actually laughed out loud at a joke my husband said last night,lol (cant tell u the joke,lol) and also not wanting to be too crude but marital relations have never been better,cant believe how theses pills were numbing every sense in our bodies and we thought we were happy,i am enjoying all my moments with my kids which i can only now say to fellow addicts that i used not to,and thats the evil of this pill,its deadens u from the inside out,IM BACK AND ALIVE AND FEELING AGAIN,plz anyone thinking of stopping or are in the early days,then DO IT AND KEEP IT UP,its soo worth it. newlife.........how are you todayyyyy?

[newlifeahead]

@ ann yes i have gained weight but i also had a baby 10 months ago lol i just never had the motivation to lose the weight after... my evergy has been drainded too i FORCE myself i dont even think about it i jsut do it i keep moving partly because i dont want the RLS to kick in and i know it will if i jsut sit aorund. I remember u posting before buyt cant remeber how many days do u have clean??? Just keep doing it i tell myself EVERYONE has to stop sometime if i didnt stop now i would still have to stop eventually and i was soooo sick of the life that i jsut stopped it i keep reminding myself a pillw do NOTHIGN for me except se tme back to the beginning which is NOT worth it. Yes the RLS has seemed to ease up a bit i slept ALL night last night w the exception of bathroom trips but went right back to sleep i prayed until i fell asleep GREAT idea about praying for each otehr prayer is SO POWERFUL i do say a prayer for everyone on the forum i dont list all the names but u are all in my prayers everyday God know u r heart and he is ahappy u r quitting he WILL bless u esp if u believe in His son Jesus. If not u shoudl try my life was a MESS w out Christ i jsut oneday gave my life to him and told him i would follow his lead i was tired of doing it on my own WOW what a relief... keep posting here Ann i would love to hear from u and keep doing it u R doing it God Bless CONGRATS missyajne i am sure u r feelign a world of difference i too have support from my husband which i am soooo thankful for:) Keep it going girl u got  this and thanks for the encouragement.............at the beach thank u i will check my message in a bit desperate SOOOO  happy to hear from u:) i am kinda envious of u because ur time change lol ur a day ahead of me i kinda like night because i now it is ANOTHER day gone that i am clean and getitng closer to feeling A LOT better... The temptaion is normal i here everyone say like i said i dont struggle w the cravings alot only when they r in the house otherwise i know it is too much work to go get them and it is not worth it for me i keep seeign how better i am and i WILL not go back. Just keep pushing through the cravings PRAY Them through u can do this... remember how the past few days have been and how u dont want to go back there again tkaing pills will NOT give u the same feeling it will depress u then u have to start all over... i slept all night last night thank GOD.... i feel pretty good but it is still early gonna clean today then i think starting tommorrow we wll go to the YMCA so glad u like urself again it feels GREAT to feel again and YES those pills block EvERYTHIng it is amazing how we can jsut live like that for so long and think it is ok HA r we crazy have a great rest of the day i will check back later

[selfinduced]

Thinking of you today, So happy to hear your still fighting. You have this girl! Have a great day!!!

[jlannaa]

:) day 13 here from perks, your doing great i'll say a pray for you :)

[newlifeahead]

thanks selfinduced and jlannaa i can def use the praeyr and YES i am still fighting and will cont. great job on day 13 i LOVE seeing people getting there life back:) Hey anyone jsut a qucik quest about the cal, mag, zinc tabs does that work for the restless legs??? also i see everyone say take it at night is there a reason for that? I started it yesterday i know i should have started it a long time ago but was just wondering what it is triggered to help?? thanks blessings to u all and keep it going:)

[dominosarah]

I am really happy to hear you got some sleep last night.  I remember the first night i got sleep, i felt like a million bucks the next day!  Laurel really knows her supplements so hopefully she will be on at some point today and can answer your question.   Stay strong, you are doing great!!       sara

[newlifeahead]

thanks sara:) i have had ups and downs today all physical stuff. I feel great and get some cleanign done then i start to feel REALLY drained... this day seemed FOREVER hoping to get out of the hosue tommorrow to the YMCA and hopefully that will help thinking of taking the baby swimming at the Y he loves the water. I will be soooooo glad when i have a month plus into this i really am tired of feeling like a yoyo here. Noone has answered yet about the cal mag zinc pill and if it is desgned to help with restelss legs??? I am hoping it calms tonight even more last night was not near as bad as it has been and been doing well w it today too... also is there a reason everyone says to take that cal magzinc at night??? well i have to get going and start supper gonna make a meatloaf tonight dont feel 100 percent but dont really mind cooking. Hubby will be home in a hour man do i feel better when he comes home to help w the baby it has been really challenging taking care of him all day by myself cant wait till that isnt so rough either blessings to u all hope when i come back i will have some good reports from u all KEEP GOING FORWARD

[Ann2497]

I can't decide whether to say I am on day 11 or 13.  I guess technically I am on day 11 because the last two days I took 1/8 of a 5mg Vicodin pill which is an inconsequential amount of an opiate dose but even a small amount is using so I will go with 11 days clean.  

The exhaustion and a sinus infection are the main symptoms bothering me right now.

Taking care of a 10 month old is a lot of work.  I could not do that right now so I admire you very much.  Your son sounds so cute.  I hope you get to take him to the YMCA to go swimming.

Meatloaf for dinner sounds good.  Nothing better than meatloaf and mashed potatoes.

Praying for you.

[newlifeahead]

hey ann thanks yes it is def hard work but worth it and he is REALLY spoiled he is the boss in our house but soooo adorable:) meatloaf was GREAT and i did make mashed potatoes w it:) day 11 or day 13 doesnt matter much but GREAT job on that. I have decided i am counting form the day i have had NO narcotics which has been 16 days i took tramadol over the weekend not this last weekend but one before os i had been counting like day 8 and 9 but screw that i only took total of 109 tramadol and that was not my addiction vic and percs were so i need to give myself more credit than that. So day 16 here but the restless legs is still going on (doesnt seem NEAR as bad but they never fail to set in on one leg around 6 pm) i am starting to get a ltitle worried because i would think it would totally be gone however my mind wont let it rest i am so fearful of when it will kick in i wait for it i dont know how to jsut forget anout it it would prob be gone if i could stop fretting it soo bad. I think the longest i saw someone go through it was 10 days :( hoping i can get some sleep tonight. anyway great job on the clean time keep it going u CAN do this u R doing this regain that life u sooo deserve i know i am... i pray for EVERYONE on this site everyday in my prayers i know God is w each and everyone of us even those that dont believe who knows who He will touch while they go through this... blessigns to u and hope u have a GREAT day tommorrow feel free to pop back in and say hi and even vent if u have too

[selfinduced]

Hi There, Just wanted to send you some good energy for the night. Hoping you get some decent sleep. I see your question about the restless legs, but I honestly didn't have that (thank God), Hopefully someone will answer you on the suppliments. I know for me staying hydrated was so helpful, I was constantly watering down orange juice and lemonaid , downing it constantly. It seemed to help me with headaches. You are doing fantastic! So happy!